sometimes i remember how my ex best friend asked me out constantly as a joke and how that fucked me up and held hands with me and still even after all these years she never really gave me a conclusion of what our relationship was and then when she would allude to dating she would immediately act like nothing happened, and then told me how she’s leaving the state forever at 17 and that she didn’t need me, that was shitty lmao. mind you i was 14, and i had no basis of a healthy relationship and was easily impressionable. anyways, you really did suck and i was unnecessary but you really did drag me along the wild ride
also, you were my first fp and i wish i knew i was bpd/bipolar back then so i wouldn’t have ruined everything. i say that about a lot of relationships though. i did really impulsive things that weren’t healthy, but you fueled the fire a lot too. i know you’re doing well, i just want to apologize and i don’t think i’ll ever get that for what i did months after us.
