Del-Min

Some irregular user's sideblog for H2OVanoss fics (and recently all things BBS) | Fanfics: deliriumsminion.tumblr.com/fics | Bear with my dumb

[deliriumsminion]

I really love all of your works, it's so unquie and impressive! You think people forgot about you but I'm still under your works' magic! Even rereading your fics from time to time! I hope you're doing well now, wherever you are♡

This is one of the things I’m glad to hear, really, even though it’s a struggle to rebuild from a scratch what I’ve lost. The loss of all those files was absolutely devastating because not only did I lose each chapter that I’d already written, I also lost the plans for the next ones. It’s been a stressful year for me and I can’t wait to get out of the things that tie me down for now just so I can write again and make releasing my works again possible, however long that would take.

[deliriumsminion]

That update that we’ve all dreaded.

Hi guys.

It’s been a while.

I don’t even know who’s still following me or looking out for my posts anymore.

All the time I’ve been away, I’ve just been quietly working very slowly on writing whenever I can.

Life hasn’t been fair. 

And it chose to be the most unfair in the past week.

Beyond the regular fare of real-life grievances, I’d been hit with a virus on the system that I worked on all my content on. That resulted in thousands of files being locked up, infected, and inaccessible. And those files included all my documents for all my writings - the ones that I’ve already posted, the ones that I’ve been slowly working on, and even the drafts that I’d roughly planned. Even the folder with all the audio clips and video clips that I’d created that are on this blog are also infected and gone. 

I don’t know what I’ll do. I’ve been looking around online for solutions but as of now there hasn’t been any solutions offered for my case. A proper solution might not even pop up for a long while, since apparently the first versions/instances of this particular virus popped up as far as 2-3 years ago and there hasn’t been a single solution for those earlier version either. 

So as far as getting my files back, that’s a long shot away.

That leaves me without my existing work, the work I’ve been slowly working on for a long while, and all the drafts and plans I’ve accumulated in this long while.

This means there will be nothing from me with regards to any fics for a very, very long time. Rebuilding and re-starting afresh will take time and energy from me that I can spare very little of right now. Even just looking at what I’d already posted for the ongoing fics and my paper drafts in real life can only give me a small portion of what I’d already planned out in detail in those files. Whatever I come up with from hereon will be different, either slightly or drastically, from what I’d already planned. 

And it will take time. 

I’m so sorry to come back like this. I really am. I wanted to come back with new chapters of Under the Wire and Written Secrets, to share everything that I’ve felt while writing these chapters. I really did. But it’s frustrating now because it’s all gone and I don’t know what to do or how to find time to restart. I’m so, so sorry.

But I’ll probably re-build, slowly. Maybe if everyone’s still around and willing to listen years down the road when I finally work my way back up to where I was before (and probably more), I’ll come back stronger than ever with new stuff for you guys. Perhaps, even, when I come back nobody will really care and I’d already have lost any semblance of relevance I might have had before - I don’t know. It’s been a very difficult ride. I don’t blame anyone for getting impatient at me. But I’ll still try. 

And until then, I’ll be quietly working in the shadows again.

- Delmin.

[deliriumsminion]

hey delmin :( what's wrong? Is there anything I can do for you? I probably can't do much but maybe I can..

I’m... fine, I guess. Maybe. Just really overwhelmed. Really stressed out. Life throws a whole ton of things at me at once and I don’t know how to deal with it. I miss writing. I miss being able to sit down and watch the boys’ videos properly without falling asleep halfway through because I’m so exhausted. I miss being able to sleep properly every night without feeling restless and worried about the next day. But what can I do other than to grit my teeth and press on?

I don’t think you have to do anything for me. This is something that I know I have to get through on my own, and I know the people around me, even you guys who might still be waiting around for me are supporting me through this. I just hope that this all can end soon enough.

[deliriumsminion]

i am so stressed out rn i want to cry

[deliriumsminion]

I really hope youre still here ;v; I saw your answer about not being confident in what you make and i just want to say that your stories are the only ones I care for in the H2Ovanoss fandoms. I'm not knocking on anyone else, but I thoroughly enjoy yours so much. To me its the right amount of everything and I do hope you'll have more confidence in your work. 😘 I've been a pretty big fan since you started posting and I definitely haven't forgotten you

Thanks so much for reading my stuff, and being around even when I can’t really be. I guess it’s high time I gave an update about what’s going on these days, even though it’s really nothing in terms of story writing.

The unfortunate part is that life has really been getting in the way. I went from being able to write maybe anywhere from a sentence to a paragraph or even just something as small as planning out a chapter every now and then to not being able to write anything at all. I went from being able to hop on tumblr every now and then to not being to at all. I went from being able to spend my weekends split between happily writing away and enjoying some time out with friends to working on the weekends. And that’s how my life went for more than half a year now. I hate having loose ends not tied up, but when I get back from working and studying I’m just physically, mentally and emotionally drained. I fall asleep thinking about what I want to do, but I have no energy at all to do it. 

So where do we stand? Possibly an ever longer wait. I’m not sure how many people will still be left by the time I can properly come back. The bright spot in all this mess is that I’m in the midst of moving on from one phase of my life to another. Once my time’s up here, I’m moving on to better places where I can hopefully get my energy back and start writing again. The frustrating part now is the wait, and the fact that I have stuff that I planned out months ago but that I can’t remember what I was actually thinking about before (and that means more re-planning and rewriting). 

The strange thing is that after I’ve struggled a lot, I usually bloom into some of my best periods of writing. Rule of the Heart came from a time when I struggled a lot with the changes in my life that I had to adjust to, and bits and pieces of my life and my struggles made it into the story somehow (without anyone noticing, I hope). Maybe something good will come from these struggles down the road in both Written Secret and in Under the Wire, but again, the wait will be something that we’ll have to work through until I can get past all this. 

And I definitely haven’t forgotten this place, or the fandom. Sometimes, when I’m tired and raw from all the exhaustion, I open up some of the documents that I’d left lying around in my computer, with all the little pieces that I’ve written. I look back at happier days and look forward to better ones. My confidence has wavered in the past regarding my writing, but looking at what I’ve written makes me so happy that I’ve written them. Confidence-wise, I think I’ll be fine. And I hope everybody will be too.

[deliriumsminion]

“It was deliiiiicious.”

I’m pretty sure he’s singing about eating his friends now, the mad cutie.

[deliriumsminion]

H2ODelirious: The Stripper Compilation

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[deliriumsminion]

Evan and Nogla went to the same yard sale, Wildcat is hamburger(s) and Delirious is a male stripper.

[deliriumsminion]

“...Sex mask...!?”

[deliriumsminion]

Okay, i was the anon that asked about Written Secrets.I'm willing to wait for the upcoming updates and help you out if i can.You've started out SO good...i was squealing on the first chapters and the concept of the story.I wish you good luck and motivation! 😳

I’m glad there are people out there willing to wait. I’ll try hard not to disappoint and when I do have the time I’ll start writing straight off the bat. Not just because I have to but because I thin at this point I really need to write and get a year’s worth of frustration of my chest. Thank you so much for your message, though!

[deliriumsminion]

Wait...you write Written Secrets? Holy Shit..I'm a fan :0

I’m surprised anybody’s still reading my stuff, since I haven’t been properly writing for some time. Since there’s someone still reading, I’m really glad you like what’s been put out thus far and I’m really glad that there are people willing to wait for me to get out of my ongoing stressful loop of work-eat-sleep-stress over work-rinse and repeat. It’s a really rough period of time for me and it’s quite honestly taking a toll on my mental and emotional state, and it’s times like this I wish I can just drop everything and continue writing all my fics. But the moment I open the file to write, I get reminded that I have to do my work. So I just end up working and lurking around at the same time.

My baggage aside, I’m glad you liked Written Secrets. I started out somewhat confident about the story, but as time passed and I began to get overwhelmed, I got less confident with whatever I was putting out. Messages once in a while like this warm my heart, they really do. They reassure me that I’m not writing complete rubbish even if I keep thinking that I am. Truly, thank you so much for even reading it.

[deliriumsminion]

will delmin ever finish writing under the wire/written secrets?

will delmin finally not be busy?

and will delmin ever be able to have a proper vacation?

[deliriumsminion]

Visit Original Link

And gorillaphent didn’t get invited...

[deliriumsminion]

I... wrote Chapter 3 of Under the Wire halfway, and then I decided the story was going in a very weird and unnatural direction. And suddenly I’m thinking about deleting all the progress up till now for Chapter 3...

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by the way guys ohm is streaming again right now and I believe delirious and bryce are playing with him so :o

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after the most chaotic match ever that resulted in ohm getting killed by jason and lexi being accidentally teamkilled by delirious (who came back as tommy), the crew pulls off another jason kill :o

This is the third? match of the stream on ohm’s side, but ohm also manages to confuse himself by calling Delirious ‘Jason’ 

[deliriumsminion]

by the way guys ohm is streaming again right now and I believe delirious and bryce are playing with him so :o

[deliriumsminion]

From Ohm’s stream: Delirious has a sixth sense and attempts to guide 2 naughty campers to victory.

(edit: apparently ohm split the original full stream VOD into separate videos based on the matches he played that night, so I edited the link to match the one match that this video is based on. Also, ohm put a video of this up on youtube too so if that’s easier you guys can check it out here.)