cow

Im a 20 years old girl from the Netherlands. I like hardcore music and tv shows. This will be my personal blog and I will post stuff that happened in my life.

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Today i took a 40 minutes run, and i actualy feel good about that. tomorrow i'll run again, if my legs aren't hurting much. Now i'm not going to do my ab workout, because i just showerd and did a homework assignment I should have done when i came home for school. now I'm tired as hell i think i'll just go to bed, i hope my concentration is a little better tomorrow, because it was shit today. seriously if i ever want to pass my exames, or even achieve any of my life goals, i have to do everything a lot better.

this might sound wrong, but I'm waiting for the day i'll give up on anything and just kill myself. I know I can't push myself, and my depression, anorexia and social anxientie are only getting worse lately.

[fit-potential]

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i should try this somethime

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uhg i feel like shit today. i only eat and i have the feeling i don't exersice hard enough.

yesterday i ran an hour (9 mins - 9 mins - 6 mins - 8 mins, breakis in between) and did a short 10 mins ab workout. Today i haven't done anything, but i think I'm going for a walk. I'm not going to run because my hip needs sme rest, but i hope i feel better after a walk. and of course i will do an ab workout tonight.

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I'm so sick of myself.

I hate it that i am so unconforatble around people i dont know, so i rather not talk at all. i'm such a loner and  i can't do anything about it, because i can't change my whole shitty personality.

I also hate tha fact i decided to sport more often, but the last 3 days (including today) i haven't done anithing. it seems like i just quit on anithing. I am also gaining wait uhg.

It is seriously very hard to not start with self-harm again.

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Betraying The Martyrs 

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I think I will do another workout today, because i feel pretty good about my workouts from yesterday and monday. 

It's not a heavy one, because i don't want to waste all my energy, i need a little for school tomorow.

ok so this is my plan:

- 10x foward lunges

- 10x reverse lunges

- 10x plie jumps

- 20 squats

- 20 leg lifts

- 20 sec single leg brigde

- 20 leg lifts

- 5x 20 sec wall sit.

Repeat till one hour has passed. Wish me luck!

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hardcore dancing needs to stop

like seriously

you look like an idiot and it takes away from the people who want to actually mosh and not get punched in the face.

[get-your-rope]

If you don’t want to get hit, stay the fuck away from the pit. IT’S EASY, STOP COMPLAINING.

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People complaining about Hardcore dancing needs to stop more like. “mosh like adults” they say. Push moshing looks just as idiotic. If you don’t like it stay away from it and stop complaining as the above person said.

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If you don’t like hardcore dancing, don’t hardcore dance. If you don’t like mosh pits, don’t be in the mosh pit. If you don’t want to get hit at a concert, too fucking bad.

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there is enough space in a concert for everyone. If you don't want to get slapped in the face, don't stand in the middle of the pit. Its that easy. Go listen to you me at six if hc is to heavy for you

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why weigh yourself when you could set yourself on fire then roll in broken glass and feel the same way

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x

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fitness

Yesterday I did a little workout including running and some legmuscle exersises, so my lower legs are hurting a bit. Today I will give them some rest and start with the abs. Im going to do it like in the pictures (20 seconds each picture):

After that I will do some short exercises:

- 2 x 20 jumping jacks (1 minute in between)

- 3 x 20 sit-ups (2 mins in between)

- 2 x 20 squats (2 mins in between)

- 10 pushups

All together I think it will burn 200/300 ckal

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Im really going to miss your demise, they were and are one of my favorite bands, and ive seen them a now 3 times. they are def one of the best life bands ever and im really looking forward to their last shows, its gonna be rad.

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Boston

I was really shocked when I heared about boston this morning. I don't know why it happend en where the attack so suddenly came from, but I hope it is not going to happen again.

But there is another point and I don't know how to say this without sounding like an ass. In Iran those attackts happen every day, and no-one seems to care about them. The fact that the media choose that only the atack in Boston was interesting enough to put in the news is really frustrating. It is not that the people in Iran are not important. They are not 'used to it'. It is horrible how the media can put those idea's in ones mind.

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going to bed cause i feel terrible uhg

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