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[deluge-softspoken]

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Pluralflux system Sideblog for personal alterhumanity things.

Main blog is @nioice . See other blogs in pinned there

Endogenic, pro all plurality types

[jenny-jinya]

CW: animal death

People have asked for more interactions between Life and Death. Life is bringing so much color into my comics haha <3

[littlegreenplasticsoldier]

Who was it who said that grief is love with nowhere to go

[knowledge-and-power]

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”

Jamie Anderson

[deluge-softspoken]

Watching The Amazing Digital Circus while dating fictives from it has been a funny experience. We started off feeling very cynical about the show and its characters. We're just not big fans of the snark and negativity that's supposed to be humour. And the portrayals of mental struggles don't really scratch any itch inside of our brain because we already feel oversaturated from seeing them in irl people and ourselves - Representation of them in media might be cathartic to someone else, but not us. We guess none of that changed, but getting into a relationship with TADC fictives really, like, changed our focus. Even if the characters aren't accurate portrayals of our partners, even if at least one of our partners dislikes the character he's a fictive of, they're still portrayals of our partners and so long as they're not absolute bastardizations of them, we look at them fondly. The most negative we feel about them turns into "I wish the show would've been better to you", both in plot and character writing. Focus gets shifted to "I love my partners. Homg that looks like them!"

[deluge-softspoken]

I didn't participate in the discussion when it came up, but a few months ago when the question of "Is it okay to have headmates of a race which you& are not physically?", ergo "Is it okay to be, as an alterhuman, a race which you are not physically?" came up in a Discord server we were in, that upset me as well, and not just the one of us who spoke up about it.

Artemy is much more affected by the debate because he is biracial (as a fictive), and both ethnicities and cultures he stands between are ones which we do not have a place in this physical world. It's lighter for me. Arguably I am not even Japanese because I hail from a different dimension from Earth. Still, I lived there for a while. I feel to be a part of it.

Personally we strongly hold the opinion that it is quite bad to think that humans of different ethnicities are so vastly different from another that a person of one cannot be an alterhuman of a different one. It builds walls where there do not need to be. Racism is built on the assumption that we are "different" from each other, and should be treated "differently". Yes, of course there should be differences on how we handle one another - people of different backgrounds require different ways of respect. You know I mean the degrading kind of "different" treatment.

Alterhumans don't claim to be part of their perceived ethnicity in the physical world. At least not at large. I'm sure there's some. It was strange to be told directly that we (Artemy) claim to be, right after he said that we claim not to, that there is difference between making ourselves a part of it irl and identifying as such internally.

[deluge-softspoken]

Me being a Blaze the Cat fictive is funny.

Canonically she's so stoic. I don't have any canon memories with which to judge on whether or not that is how I used to be myself. Maybe.

I can put up a theory that I used to be like that too, because of feeling the weight of being a princess and the Sol emerald guardian, and it having been taught to me that my outward demeanor was expected of me. It sounds right. But, also I don't relate to the idea of having been how I am now behind that facade. I slightly feel like it makes sense that I would ease up and change once those duties were lifted from me. But, that also feels a bit silly. I'm trying to come up with a coherent story here when I neither need nor want one. Call it a thought exercise - it's nothing more.

It's just funny to me that I'm someone lighthearted and even giddy most the time, when the source of myself is someone who is so "not that". I can be calm and collected, serious, myself, yes. I've spent long periods of time like that while in our system too. But, that has almost always been when I was away from front and not interacting much with anyone (in and out of system). Or when something put me very much on guard. My preferred mode of interacting with the world is not very Blaze-the-Cat-like. I'm more excitable and vulnerable than that.

[deluge-softspoken]

It's an awful feeling to feel like we can't speak publicly on how we're glad we cut ties with the people from a social space we were kicked out of - those who posed it like we majorly messed up and it was all our fault, and those who stood by in watch without showing any care for us. If we did, everyone would assume we're out to call them out and cause drama. I'll name it in the tags because it's not our fault if involved people blow up about it. We shouldn't have to hide our feelings in fear of further backlash and people thinking we're out to hurt them. I think it is fair to openly state that we have an issue with a Discord server and call it by its name. Only reason I'm not putting it right here is that I don't think it fits the flow of my train of thought.

Really all we want to do is write a post about how we're glad we're away from there, and how much lighter we feel from no longer being in touch with anyone remotely involved in it. It feels like we can breathe now. Only in retrospect have we noticed just how few of those people showed any care for us, despite us being such a seemingly well liked part of the community. And, how those who did show care at some point, would drop that care either intentionally or without noticing (both happened) after we were kicked.

A lot of alterhuman spaces feel stupid and uncomfortable to us. They already did before, and they do even moreso now. Our tolerance for behaviour that is offputting to us is much lower now. Removing ourselves from such contact has been nice.

It's sad that it took us being burned by some of our best friends actively aiming to hurt us because we accidentally hurt them, other friends scolding us for messing up so bad in their eyes, and more other friends acting as if nothing happened, for us to learn this lesson. I like it though, genuinely. What it showed us, of them and in general.

Considering we're turning 30 next year, it's probably appropriate that we stay out of drama-ridden chat groups anyway. We need our energy for different things.

[fictionkinfessions]

hi sorry if this is going to sound rude and angry

but im so pissed at the state kinblr is in. everyone feels so cold and like. egoistic, in a way. not everyone though, of course.

also theyll go on sourcecalling blogs looking for sourcemates but if you reach out theyll ghost you before you can have a full conversation. like. ok😭 why did you say you were looking for sourcemates then😭

uhmm that is all sorry if this just makes me seem like a butthurt idiot

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[deathandnonexistentialdread]

i think that even though Knives is mostly saying this to get a rise out of Vash, on some level he is upset about the suffering that Vash went through

[avvocarlo]

high speed clownload

[avvocarlo]

100 sillybytes per second

[fictionkinfessions]

Entering my Metal Sonic era again. I'm kidding. My Metal Sonic era never stopped

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[fictionkinfessions]

I already said this but I don’t like the way I worded it so I’m just gonna say it again, lmao

For fanon nopes– I genuinely cannot stand how popular sonadow is. Oh my god. Everywhere I go it’s always there, lurking, waiting to jumpscare me whenever I try to find cool fanart of myself. To each their own obviously, but could we like…not, maybe? Like 🫩 Any other ship, guys. I can stomach literally any other ship. He’s just…so far away from my type. I don’t know what you think I see in him, when he’s arguably the most annoying person I’ve ever met. It’s somewhat ironic too (I have no idea if that’s how that word is used), considering I was. Deeply and madly in love with Metal Sonic in my canon. Idk. Sonic fandom, please stop making me be utterly whipped for him, he’s truly not all that 😔

- Shadow the Hedgehog (fictive)

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[deluge-softspoken]

Wait who are you and how are you me

-Anton

[deluge-softspoken]

Mentally I put on my big boy pants, and by big boy pants I mean ski pants. Mentally I'm going out into the snow. That we don't have any snow OR even frost my beloved irl is homophobic against me specifically, and by homophobic I mean unlucky and sadge /silly, hj

I love frost. I love snow. It can make me melancholic but neither is that bad and also much moreso it makes me happy. I want to stare at it all again and touch it and move through it. It's just so pretty. It's so cool. It makes me happy to be me, happy to look at and experience it.

Very much an Emmet 'kin thing but just in general overall strongly a Semmel ME I'm me I love living thing. A Semmelt-thing+ /silly, gen though

[deluge-softspoken]

Oh this is funny looking back on because we got so much fucking snow a bit later /pos

[yellow-cat]

they gave up trying to bury me alive cause i kept eating all the dirt #dirthacks

[deluge-softspoken]

Mentally I put on my big boy pants, and by big boy pants I mean ski pants. Mentally I'm going out into the snow. That we don't have any snow OR even frost my beloved irl is homophobic against me specifically, and by homophobic I mean unlucky and sadge /silly, hj

I love frost. I love snow. It can make me melancholic but neither is that bad and also much moreso it makes me happy. I want to stare at it all again and touch it and move through it. It's just so pretty. It's so cool. It makes me happy to be me, happy to look at and experience it.

Very much an Emmet 'kin thing but just in general overall strongly a Semmel ME I'm me I love living thing. A Semmelt-thing+ /silly, gen though

[deluge-softspoken]

Funny thought of the day is that Rem predestined me to be Emmet Pokemon certified Railway Vehicles Man 'kin by telling me about her train dream.

-Semmel

[nyotsuba]

for @hyrulesshope

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[tboyswagcompetition]

ROUND 1:

Vash The Stampede | Trigun VS. Emmet | Pokemon

WHO HAS MORE TBOY SWAG?

Vash The Stampede

Emmet

Voting ended onFeb 21, 2023