ka-mai

search, adventures, towers, conquering worlds... well, i didn't have any plans for today anyway. Eddie Dean, the prisoner. Stephen King's "The Dark Tower" M!A: none

[demonnamedheroin]

I’ve moved the blog elsewhere. If anyone cares, ask me. 

[demonnamedheroin]

I’ve moved the blog elsewhere. If anyone cares, ask me. 

[demonnamedheroin]

I've moved the blog elsewhere. If anyone cares, ask me. 

[ka-sera-sera-deactivated2014080]

Roland's shaking his head again even before Eddie's finished. "No, Eddie. That chapter of my life is done. I've spent enough time chasing after the tower. Lost enough chasing after it. You should know that very well."

He grimaces, moving one of his hands to cup the side of Eddie's neck apologetically. "I cry your pardon, Eddie. That last was uncalled for. But my answer s still no. I'll wander with you, and gladly. I'll go anywhere you like. Just not there."

"But you haven't mentioned this one town before. What is it? What are you planning?" Because it's clear Eddie is planning something, even if those plans might not have yet started to come into being.

[demonnamedheroin]

"I know." It's snapped more than intended, just the way he shifts away, just slightly out of reach. As if the mere touch would be hurting, and sometimes it seems like it is. In here is worse than the months spent together, because without purpose they are just forced to deal with each other, and he doesn't want to become bitter about it, even though he can feel it crawling up at times.

"Not all the way, no. Far enough to find. We let 'em wait much too long, and you can't tell me we wouldn't — it still wants you to go and search, and it still needs us for whatever, so it's impossible the way there doesn't — " It's hard to finish the sentence, but Roland will understand. He must. "Just till there. Just. I don't ask any more step, but if I go, it doesn't work."

[ka-sera-sera-deactivated2014080]

Roland frowns, watching Eddie kneel with some confusion. That only deepens when Eddie asks if he's sick, but when that meaning becomes clear Roland's lips part and he shakes his head, replacing confusion with denial. "I've been... restless. That was bound to happen. But it's nothing so bad as all that." He puts his hands on Eddie's shoulders, pulling a little. "Come, Eddie. Sit with me. No need to kneel there as if I really am on my deathbed."

[demonnamedheroin]

"I know." He actually does, and he did think about that, more than he would admit, but it's not all too unlikely the man knows anyway. Khef might be not strong here, but it's there, after all. "Which is why, even though I am pretty sure I said so before, we need to get going. It kills you to do nothing. Obviously." He ignores the suggestion of getting up, as he sees no need for it. Besides, the couch already saw better days, there's no need adding blood stains. "Gotta, for more reasons than just that. We both know that, we're just pushing it back. Getting on path of the beam, even when it doesn't change anything, it's better." They had this conversation before, again and again, and it's always — hesitant. More than is well, and it's ridiculous enough it's him talking, not Roland. Maybe just stating what has been hanging in there all the time. "And I'm pretty sure I know at least one town that's on it, if it still exists." 

[ka-sera-sera-deactivated2014080]

"Then you should be thanking me," Roland says matter-of-factly, pulling himself up to sit at the end of the couch. "Come sit with me. Any injuries beyond the obvious?"

[demonnamedheroin]

"None I'm aware off, might just walk a bit funny tomorrow." He gives Roland a glare, but it's almost more worried about the man than he is about his own situation, slipping around the couch to instead knee down in front of him, eyes never leaving the blue one's of the gunslinger. "You're getting sick again, ain't you? Not a typical sickness. Literally dying of boredom, or something."

[ka-sera-sera-deactivated2014080]

Roland might be sleeping on the couch tonight. That might be some effort - useless as it is - to stop waking up to the same sight every morning, that same ceiling and walls, that same view from the same window.

Roland is not exactly a light sleeper, but nor is he a heavy one, and he’s trained himself long ago to sleep with one hear to any new movement. So even the door opening begins to wake him, and opening his eyes and seeing Eddie finishes the job. He pushes himself up a little, twisting and hanging over the arm of the couch to study the sight in front of him. He frowns. “Trouble?”

[demonnamedheroin]

"No." It the first instinct to answer like this, he doesn't think about it. Then stops in his motions, blinking to the now awake man. "Yeah." It's admitted without the desire of doing so. "But not my fault. In fact, indirectly, it's yours."

He'll have bruises, he knows that, but he did a lot better than expected, as hand-to-hand was not necessarily the focus of what he learned. "Group of guys didn't take some girls' no. Wouldn't have stepped in before I knew you, I gotta admit that one. I think most of them have broken bones." It's coming with a shrug, one he regrets immediately. "Nothin' bad. They ran off. Girls, I mean."

[demonnamedheroin]

His movements might be a bit hesitant when he stumbles back in, and there might be drops of light red on his shirt and his temple, bright against light skin and fabric both. He is, however, quiet in his moving, much more so than he would have been the last time he came home like that, bruises coloring all over his skin. It's late, and he doesn't mean to wake the other — even less like this.

[specialagentb-ward-deactivated2]

I never thought I would hit one hundred followers. Let alone get to the big 1k. Not that the number matters. It’s the fact that over one thousand people decided they liked something about me enough to hit the follow button, and that is what causes me to tear up. So thank you, and even if you aren’t on here. I futzing love every single one of you.

My mother taught me to never play favorites. However, this person is the exception. The one and only: tokillabarton

Like I said, this is my follow forever for reaching 1k+, and if it wasn’t for Berfie this blog wouldn’t have made it this far. Plus, she’s the better half of Barneysquared and I could go on forever (pun intended) about her awesomeness, but this post is gonna be big enough without that.

The Squad. No. I don't plan on dropping them in the middle of the ocean. Maybe.

aguardiandevil → agxntskye →  americanasitgets  anachronism → becketsenior →  benji-tech-dunn →  broken-weapon → cutoffthehead → deanthemonsterhunter → demonnamedheroin → doiscareyou → donaldresslerfbi → felix-fides →  forgerextraordinaire → formerfratboy → inked-inmate → justadamefrombrooklyn → krovi-okrashivali-ruki → neverskydivingagain →procxidens → selfishheroism →  shieldintheice → shieldshawk → specialagentwildcard → thatscaptoyou →  titaniumallxy → tomorrowseventstoday → uss-gaytanic → whodoesntlikeflowers → xornalista → xusedtoberussianx

The people I admire. This is in no particular order because wow work.

secretagentclintbarton ← accipitrinae ← theartofheroism ← resurrectedtonystark ← daddyissuesandadog ← mxrysuepoots ← wasthatnotprocedure ← wingheadcap ← arrowsandradiation ← howbrightyouburn ← recoveringheroinaddict ← gonnabreakbad ← hawkeyeagentbarton ← compassionforweakness ← govthookercoulson ← shotgunsandarrows ← isthattheonlywordonme ← zaedificare ← codenamewinter ← meettherosenbergs ← washthepilotguy ← unseenmockingjay ← thedesignate ← stxrlxrd ← cosplayinghacker ← consultantstark ← captain-outoftime ← militemxnonxignavus ← noworldnomad ← youcantgivemeorders acrownofflameforaking ← evil-phil-coulson ← gearheadxinheels ← captainamericarogers ← captainspangly ← justlookingatouroptions ← sagavenator ← nerdyspiderman ← felinexfatale ← itsbeenalongnight ← jemmasimmonsbiochemist ← pitynotawidow ← wintersserendipity ← itsjustbloodydifficult ← specialagentgray ← soldatzimy ← russianonzebridge ← behindthestripes ← vampiredarkavenger ← notabromance ← goddamndeadpool ← risenfromhawksashes ← cellobowsandarrows ← icecoveredcaptain ← zoealleynewashburnes ← compromisedcarny ← tinmantonystark ← xhibernis ← thislooksunjoyous ← ibuiltafamilyofiron ← iamyourreckoning ← aintnohomocidecop ← istealthingstofeeljoy ← mutantism ← eccentrictonystark ← protegerex ← hibernamilitis ← ultimocacciatore ← telepathic-labrat ← doyouneverknowfear ← girlshavesharpteeth ← fastestquickestmutant ← freedxmfighter ← oliviadunhaminthemoon ← ferrumxfugit ← agentharrisonofshield ← mdbraelyn ← danceswithjerks ← xaviersblogforgiftedmutants ← beautywiththegreenbeast ← ifyoudiexidie ← needlessdeath ← aformerweapon ← respectthegear ← pulledfromhell ← codenamehawk ← wintersbrokensoldier ← bruisxr ← thegothamprince ← karajorel ← thebartonboys ← avianarcher ← wingedxassassin ← agent-timross ← hadhimontheropes ← theirongenius ← duxfeminam ← ihatexchange ← shieldagentbarton ← imadoctornotablog ← talk-to-tennant ← clarkofsteel ← bartonsarrowhead ← radulph-noir ← blueyellownight ← vindexaccipiter ← itsnotamagicalplace ← cordeliabarton ← vampiricallyxspeaking ← thewomanbehindtheiron ← thewindriderororomunroe ← broadstripes-and-brightstars ← eidetictelekinetic ← anexposedxnerve ← damngxrgeous ← dontbeaninfant ← hacker084 ← themostdashingofasgard ← honeybucky ← jamieerhodes ← icantjoininyourshenanigans ← bloodforthecause ← theengineer-fitz ← axquanimus ← iwasborncareful ← katesgotabow ← pointonemicrolitersofdendrotoxin ← ivebeenalabrat ← peppermademeablog ← irretrievabledelicacy ← asgardianamora ← lukecageismybff ← shieldtwin1 ← swordmaidensif ← isabeaubordeaux ← agtxcarter ← ihatethisfamily ← illripyourthroat ← diekleineamsel ← execucio ← illwriteatragedy ← assistantdarcy ← revvupyourharley ← captainxwhizbang ← newkidonthetrack ← invisiblebadass ← tonyandhisbots ← xmenspryde ← blackslavicspider ← screamoftime ← ask-agentcoulson ← nomorethaniron ← cameoutofabottle ← angrygreen ← weallgetrewritten ← onyourleft-falcon ← coybutscrappy ← ninetyfivenotdead ← neveragoodfit ← agent-hand ← kxsady ← ivehadenoughrest ← agxntcoulson ← webheadedhero ← strikerumlow ← russiasredguardian ← dexilinlaw ← allergictosmallknives ← agentmelindamay-thecavalry ← doctoronserenity ← clinthawkguybarton ← imnotafanofbeingpoked ← thelatecaptain ← xhoplites ← thegreatestmarksman ← savageclaws ← exrcitus ← the-slowknife ← dontlikemymethods ← rxcketrxccoon ← datseabass ← vingthor ← leopoldmonkeyfitz ← indestructigirl ← wednesdxy ← motherofasgard ← 084-connordean ← ultxr ← levoleurcinetique ← izzycohens ← xapologyjanex ← agentclntbrtn ← wingmanriley ← captainforacause ← amxricanson ← askagentsitwell ← prxncecharming ← unsungherox ← winterbxrn ← mxgnetised ← ceo-of-oscorp ← skyenolimit ← xxanastasiawardxx ← playingbadcop ← fitz-of-shield ← queenxcersei ← fitzsnacks ← thislooksbxd ← prxtotype ← pocketfullofaces ← winstxn ← thebetteryoufight ← forthinstrength ← concussum ← 22sandtradingcards ← subject1138 ← cxptxinrogers ← callmethemutantsteroid ← shxeld ← xskyeeee ← axssie ← bumblxbee ← dreammaster-springwoodslasher ← memoryserved ← leveloneagent ← detectivespoonxr ← pippacoul ← xstrange ← callmenichols ← prisondandelion ← rex-stellarum ← tinabelcha ← crackinghackingmiles ← daywxlker ← xknivesandlint ← narcissisticstark ← ahawkinthevents ← therisinghacker

Honorable Mentions: aka my fellow wardians. some I follow others I haven't got the guts up to do yet.

traitxr ♥ idxntplaywellwithxthers ♥ protectorward ♥ specialistward ♥ bestsinceromanoff

[slipperbunny]

Hello, old friend.

[demonnamedheroin]

"Seriously now."

[demonnamedheroin]

" — I found a puppy."

[ashkii-dighin-blog]

   ”I can kinda tell, it’s a bit worrisome actually.”

[demonnamedheroin]

"No, works wonderfully in fact."

[specialagentb-ward-deactivated2]

That’s the point.

[demonnamedheroin]

And I thought being the kid nobody makes sense of is my job.

[specialagentb-ward-deactivated2]

Maybe it’s a offer of company.

[demonnamedheroin]

That's not really helpful my friend, could be both.

[specialagentb-ward-deactivated2]

I’d be happy to take some of it off your hands.

[demonnamedheroin]

Not entirely sure if that's a threat or a promise.

[ashkii-dighin-blog]

   ”You ruined it. Never mind.”

[demonnamedheroin]

    "Well, I'm the fucking master of ruining things."