i would beg on my hands and knees for you to upload the fic you mentioned in your latest piece, i'd be your first kudos! and your art is so gorgeous and inspiring you have no idea how lovely it is seeing it on my tl, it makes me wanna reach for a pencil and sketch <3
Don’t make me regret this…
I would link this on Ao3 but I forgot my password to my account and I’m too lazy to go get it.
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Tatiana's voice drifted through the mist.
His back was to her as he walked down a quiet alley just beyond Red Square, the distant lights reflecting off rain-slick cobblestones. He stopped mid-step before slowly turning to face her.
"I didn't hear you coming."
His voice was flat, controlled, almost cold.
Tatiana closed the distance between them almost instinctively. As she approached, Ivan remained perfectly still. His expression was composed, his posture rigid, every inch the senior KGB officer he had trained himself to become. His eyes tracked her movements with quiet precision, his head tilting ever so slightly as she came closer.
To anyone watching, he was unreadable, sharp, disciplined, untouchable.
No one could have guessed the tenderness that existed between them.
Only Tatiana noticed it: the almost imperceptible softness in his eyes that surfaced only when he looked at her.
"I was in the area," she said softly. "I kept watching the Lubyanka, waiting for you to come out."
For a brief moment, Ivan's gaze lifted past her shoulder, sweeping the alley with practiced efficiency. Windows. Rooftops. Street corners.
Only then did he step forward and press the faintest kiss against her cheek.
It lasted scarcely a heartbeat, a silent confession that he was glad she had come.
This time her voice carried an edge.
Despite the firmness in her tone, longing and exhaustion lingered plainly across her face.
"I want to resign from the GRU."
For the first time in years, Ivan's composure cracked.
Then something fiercely protective.
His hands found her shoulders with surprising force. His jaw tightened.
It was the first time he had ever truly denied her.
"You'll be dead before your resignation papers ever leave the desk."
His voice dropped to a whisper, cold as wind through bare winter branches.
"Do you think they would let you walk away? After everything you know?"
He hesitated only a fraction of a second before adding quietly, "With me?"
One hand slid to her cheek, his thumb brushing gently across her skin as though afraid she might disappear.
"They would drown you in a bathtub before sunrise, moya lyubov..."
His voice nearly failed him.
For the first time, she saw desperation behind his eyes.
"I would become a traitor to the Union trying to stop them."
The truth settled between them like lead.
Ivan held immense authority within the KGB.
Yet even he could not shield her from the machine they both served.
Tatiana's shoulders sagged.
"I can't keep doing this."
Her voice barely rose above the whispering wind.
"I hate sneaking around. Every meeting... every conversation... always looking over my shoulder."
"I just want to walk away."
Even as she spoke the words, she knew how impossible they were.
Ivan inhaled slowly, willing himself back under control.
"You think it's that easy?"
There was bitterness in his voice now, not directed at her, but at the world that had trapped them both.
He looked away for a moment before meeting her eyes again.
"You have no idea what you're asking."
A long silence stretched between them.
When she looked back up, tears shimmered in her eyes.
"I just kept holding onto hope."
"That maybe... this time... you'd tell me I wasn't crazy."
"That somehow we'd find a way."
Ivan stared at her for several long seconds.
Then, without a word, he cupped her face in both hands and kissed her.
It was slow, careful, and impossibly gentle, as though he were trying to memorize the feeling.
When he finally pulled away, his forehead rested briefly against hers.
"You know that's not the nature of what we do."
"I wish you'd married me after the war," Tatiana whispered.
"I wish we hadn't been separated."
Ivan gently placed a finger against her lips.
Not because he disagreed.
Because he couldn't bear hearing her mourn a life neither of them had been allowed to have.
Instead, he offered her his arm.
Together they walked through the narrow alley like any ordinary couple taking an evening stroll.
For a few precious minutes, they could pretend.
When they emerged onto the streets of Moscow, Ivan quietly released her arm.
He leaned casually against the stone embankment overlooking the river, slipping his hands into the pockets of his greatcoat.
In the distance, the colorful domes of St. Basil's Cathedral glowed through the mist.
Tatiana lingered in the mouth of the alley before stepping into the light beside him.
"We still have each other."
Ivan gave the slightest nod.
There was nothing left to say.
Promises had become unnecessary years ago.
Their devotion existed in silence, in stolen glances, hidden meetings, and moments measured in seconds.
Tatiana looked carefully up and down the street.
She stepped close enough that only he could hear her breathing.
Then she pressed the faintest kiss to the corner of his mouth.
It was gone almost before it happened.
Without another word, they turned and walked away in opposite directions, disappearing into the mist.
And there you have it, the full fic and context to this piece. I am a concept artist so sometimes when I make these pieces for fun I like to imagine little stories that accompany them. This is part of a continuous series I have for my dumbass yume ship that follows a historical exploration of soviet intelligence agencies following world war 2 into the Cold War.