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@dendenielle
i cant take this anymore
one of those days when only creamy coffee and cigarettes can keep you alive
shout out to everyone with unhealthy harmful violent thoughts
being single is soo boring like omg
my type in people
naturally dark hair that’s been bleached within an inch of its life and dyed something questionable
tattoos or piercings that look like they were impulsive decisions
either a little chubby or sickly skinny — no middle ground
the faint smell of cigarettes on a jacket
feminine energy in a way that feels effortless
trashy late-90s / early-2000s energy
skaters or people who dress like they might own a skateboard
studded belts, wrist cuffs, striped gloves, anything vaguely punk
liking Sanrio (Hello Kitty) despite the rest of the aesthetic
“I am a monster,” I say as I sit in the aftermath of my sins.
“I am a monster,” I repeat to myself, to truly seal it in.
“I am a monster,” I declare a third time, believing it.
“Am I a monster?” This time I ask myself.
Why do I call myself such? What had I done to instigate this belief buried so deep into my skin? Far deeper than the blade that cuts my flesh.
A love bright as the sun bloomed in my heart. Only, this love was unshared, unreciprocated. Smitten like a little girl, broken like a porcelain doll.
But all this time you had been here. Here to support my pursuit, to accompany me home, to stay when I needed that comfort.
And so I fell, for none other than you and you didn't hesitate to partake in that fondness.
Stolen innocence and shared grief. Bonds over pain and taking it back. We stood against the current, ones that taunted us as broken and unmended. Two beings against the world.
But I still stood unmet, unmet with my needs, unmet with my desires.
A hunger so insatiable, I sought the fill elsewhere. I sought from a man so measly and unremarkable, he was never the reason.
For I'm at fault. It was my choice, my action, my lust that overpowered any meaning, or lack thereof, in the deed.
I betrayed you, betrayed your trust, and, ultimately, betrayed myself. For this action, as it stands, is irreversible. The damage had been done, the pain had been dealt, and the cracks began to fester and slither.
You didn't leave though, that was most surprising. You didn't want to lose me, the monster who hurt you.
Still, the bond will never be the same. I was left begging for scraps of what used to be. A hint of praise here, a bit of proof there. Proof that you were still with me, knowing full well you shouldn't be.
So in hopes that you would realize your lack of self-respect, I made the decision for you, to break free from me, the monster who hurt you.
“You deserve better,” I justified.
“I'm not the one for you,” I pleaded
“I am a monster,” I voiced for once.
The words stuck to me, a label self-imposed.
“I am a monster,” I reassured
“I am a monster,” I begged myself to believe.
“I am a monster,” I whimpered as the blade dug into my skin.
i need a hot smoker bf
This angel wants a fucking gun
my fav smells
gasoline (heavyyy on gasoline)
nail polish
sewage (don’t ask)
weed ( y’all pls don’t judge but it smells like under arms but like in a good way)
smoke (preferably cigarette smoke)
sweat/body odor of someone you love
book pages
christmas trees
the ocean
wood
there’s probably some I’m forgetting but those are the ones at the top of my head. i’m really into smells that most people don’t like, like I saw this girl say that gasoline and sweat are some of her least favorite smells but those are some of my favs lol. anyways, lmk yalls. Also imma start tagging a bunch of people in every post I make so if I don’t tag you, don’t take it personal i struggle with keeping up w peoples names on here lol
@idontknwoandiforgot @imap0star @damien-rat-boy @dustycoded @canaanforge @idontknwoandiforgot @aj-luvsu2009 @larek16 @applelachia @ang3l-d0lli3 @werecanine @elioo-pup @insert-random-user-here @tinyceilingfan @undyingsilas @fireh0under @une-croquette @homogremlin @hisowntruly @boys-infected @jackks-monster @dddvid @ghostt-dog @kandiedwormz @leporidos @letokookielucas @loonartssemble @love4extremes @blad3bunni3 @cocodethickest @vnllachrry @munch1ngmaggots @mattistar @insert-random-user-here @cy-more-like-cry
fav smells: cigarettes, raspberry, markers, sex, dog shampoo, cats
no tags yet cause i haven't made any friends. moot up if you wanna bmf
Now You're Gonna Be A Little More Like Me
A sudden urge to speak
Or am I being too
Fucking
Loud
This time
A flame set upon the hill
They left us to our demise
With their subtle smile
And their perfect lies
And now I am but a monster
Built in your image
As the wings of these angels
Are ripped and thrown from me
The torrents rise from inside
What if this is all we are left with
All of these voices are screaming in unison
As I slowly lose my mind
In my defense, I have always been my own disappointment
A flip of the switch
Wrapped in fiberglass and soil
To grow this demented and vacant form
As long as I am quiet
No one will notice
No one will know
No one will hear
No one will see
As I disappear into this fog that casts over my empty eyes
No one knows that I'm here
And no one will ever know what it took
For me to stay silent
While being butchered
By my own hands
My pain
The only thing that never leaves
Take everything and everyone I love
Take all of my memories
Take it all away
And still you expect words of beauty
When all I have seen
Is the ugliness in this evil fucking world
Selfish as always
Because I have given everything
Just to be painted red and banished
Now the trees are my shelter
My existence never should have happened
This will never get better
And how I long for the day
I never wake up again