When Did We Get Here

•TRIGGER WARNING• •22 - C-PTSD/BPD/ADD• •I DO NOT encourage self harm, eating disorders, or suicide in any way shape or form•

[depleted-will-to-live]

“I soaked in a tub fully clothed for three hours.
 razor pressed firmly to my wrist; 
 caressing the indentation of my 
 past failures, reminiscing of the 
 betrayal I’d faced these past weeks. 
 And i realized, after these long months I am no longer “okay”.”

— -Happiness, a myth- ( @depleted-will-to-live )

[ts-parallels]

all too well (10 minute version) // t.s.

[hoidiza]

[still-hoping-for-better-days]

I hadn’t logged on back here because I thought I could stop feeling this way. That maybe I could forget. It might never go away. Even though some days are better than others, it’s just hard sometimes you know?

[loverspoint1253]

“I didn’t know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I’d cry for a week.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (via theliteraryjournals)

[girlwithapomegranate-deactivate]

thank you for following me I have nothing to offer

[eternityss-deactivated20131117]

[depleted-will-to-live]

Just maybe

[saudadesoul-deactivated20171207]

[depleted-will-to-live]

I never really slept much.

[depleted-will-to-live]

[horribledrawingsofmylife]

[alwaysthebrokenone]

[depleted-will-to-live]

Maybe i’m all alone because i pushed everyone away, maybe i deserve this as penance. All i know is i’m alone again and this time it’s absolutely devastating

[depleted-will-to-live]

For awhile everything was okay, then next thing i knew. all i could think about was my end.

[depleted-will-to-live]

Life

Suddenly the waves lift you high and all you see is beauty then the undertow pulls you to the abyss

[depleted-will-to-live]

No matter how hard I scream all I hear is

Nothing

All i’ve ever known

Just think positively

[paralysing-sadness-thoughts]

I’m crashing into waves of complete despair and utter insanity, with tears swallowing my gasping breaths. Drowning… drowning… the fight within me sinking with the weight of the world.