A Depressed Bitch Who Just Cares Too Much

[depressedyandere]

My bf proposed to me and I just want to die

Not because I dont want it.

But it was rushed

Im irritable

I hate some of the people with us

I hate the tense feeling after

[depressedyandere]

Continuing to feel like i don't belong here

No one needs me

[depressedyandere]

Today. I feel like i don't belong here

[triforce-princess]

[frogclabon]

AND SPIDER-MAN

[galileosbeast]

The View From Halfway Down

[out-of-mood]

[depressedyandere]

I’ve fallen in love with someone i can’t be with for multiple reasons and it hurts so much, especially since i love my boyfriend.... but he isn’t who he used to be anymore.

why is this happening to me...

maybe i’ll get over it. but these feelings are very real right now and i hate it.

[depressedyandere]

Kinda wanna not wake up

[depressedyandere]

I'm sure I'll regret pushing tom away. Im sure I'll regret scolding grant the moment he got home, and forgetting to say "I love you" before bed. Im sure I'll regret opening up to kenny again; I'm only showing him how much worse ive gotten. Im sure I'll regret not grtting dad a decent Christmas gift. Im sure I'll regret trying to be friends with people at breakout... I'm just annoying. Im sure I'll regret not taking that last handful of pills years ago.

[depressedyandere]

I feel lonely and sad. I don’t want to leave the bed.  I don’t even want to be awake rn. But it’s too bright to sleep... and I need to take care of the animals.

I kinda want to be alone.

yet at the same time I want someone to really care and be here for me. 

why do i exist?

I really wish I could just vanish.

or drive away somewhere and never come back.

[karunase]

“You shouldn’t have to rip yourself into pieces to keep others whole..”

[coltre]

I am insecure and sensitive and I ruin everything I love

[l0nely-smiles]

hey when the fuck are things gonna get easier

[excitementshewrote]

[depressedyandere]

I want to die. So much. It’s getting so hard to concentrate on things i like. It’s hard for me to even tune into what my friends are even saying to me...

But hot damn i wanna die.

[kaijuno]

People always gloss over how mentally damaging it can be to work in retail. I fucking hate that whenever I say “I could never work in retail again” someone has to reply “You snowflake millennials can’t take a starter job because you have to INTERACT with other people” No. Fuck you. I’ve worked as a planetarium host. I’ve worked as a public speaker. I’ve worked as a tutor and as a student teacher. I can work with people. I can work with crowds. Retail was fucking different. Retail was being treated as a subhuman. Retail was being treated so poorly that you have anxiety attacks before work. Having to work retail was a factor in my last suicide attempt. If I hear you say one fucking word about retail workers playing the victim I will personally break every bone in your body. Fuck You.

[reversewerewolf]

There’s a difference between having to interact with normal human beings and having to interact with entitled human beings who verbally, emotionally, and sometimes physically abuse or assault you because society has taught them that they can look down on you because of your job, or simply because they’re giving money to the company that employs you. Having to interact with people who feel like they’re entitled to abuse you because you’re somehow “lesser” than them is dehumanizing and humiliating and anyone who thinks working retail is easy can shove it right up their ass.

[depressedyandere]

had a nap-dream about Austin.

Was walking in a snow storm across BU campus with his wife; ran into him and I awkwardly walked past him after I said bye to her.  I wanted to hug him. I still do.

I’m mad and sad things came to this, and i know no matter what happens, things will never be normal with him again.

fuck you austin. I miss you.