Depression Equals Death @depressionequalsdeath-blog - Tumblr Blog

This is my new favourite post

I was 10 years old when my life stopped. I was 10 years old, when a monster took residence in my head. I was 10, when everything went to shit. I was 11 years old when I first thought I was fat. I was 11 years old, when I decided to starve myself. I was 11, when I nearly died. I was 12 years old when I got discharged. I was 12 years old, when they said I was on my way to recovery. I was 12, and believed everything was going to be okay. I was wrong. I was 13 years old when I saw again, how fat I was. I was 13 years old, when I wanted to die for the first time. I was 13, when I became depressed. I was 14 years old when I was readmitted. I was 14 years old, when I saw blood and tears mix for the first time. I was 14, when I knew I was in deep. I was 15 years old when I was discharged again. I was 15 years old, when I realized how much I hated myself. I was 15, when I stopped believing in recovery. I was 16 years old when I was readmitted, again. I was 16 years old, when I lost all hope for myself, my future, my life, everything. I was 16, but I was not 16. My life had frozen at 10. I am still that 10 year old, wishing none of this had happened. I am still 10, waiting for the monster to leave, so I can live.

-s.j.f. (via fuck-ew-its-me)