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Things have gotten so bad at home I'm at a point where I'm regularly being sexually violated and it feels like there's nothing that can be done. I get pulled aside and asked very personal questions about whether or not I use toys and if I use then on myself or others and there's no way of getting out of the conversation. My mother is definitely going through my stuff and has found my shit so there's no point in lying abt it either. She keeps insisting straight women have no use for toys and I only have then because I'm "using them on my friends" which is frankly really grossing me out. She thinks I look+act lesbian and this gives me so much more dysphoria than just her thinking I'm a hetero woman tbh. She tries to ask me why I have different sizes? And why I can't be satisfied by a smaller one which like. Disgusting thing to talk about with your child. She asks if I'll throw them out once I "get a boyfriend". It's just very distressing all around. I don't know what to do it only started recently. She tries to touch me and see parts of me naked it's just genuinely weird and out of nowhere. I think she's freaked out because she's lost physical power over me the last few years and she's trying to violate me in any way she can to get it back. Yesterday she came into my room while I was working to basically interrogate me about why I have so much bdsm themed decor and why most of my art is about that aesthetic. She just sounded pissed off and disgusted,she told me she thinks it's immoral and perverted and that only lesbians are into that. Which like. None of my art has 2 women practising bdsm most of it is like. Hetero femdom or men. So what's the fucking point. She tried asking me if I participate in orgies and what I've tried in detail. It's so uncomfortable Im under constant stress at home. I told her I don't wanna talk about that stuff with my mother and that it's wrong and weird and she got even more disgusting. It feels like a form of psychological incest I don't wanna say I'm being sexually harassed but it genuinely does feel like that. It's gotten really hard for me to go about my day. Every time I leave my room to get a glass or water or go to the bathroom I have to sit there and prepare myself because as soon as she sees me she starts commenting about me being promiscuous and dirty. It's too fucking weird man and it's causing me sm distress

gothdianxia

It feels like one moment I'm being infantilized and desexualised and being told I can't do anything by myself and the next she treats me like a rapist. There's no in between. One minute I'm a 3year old and the next I'm this evil sexually active woman that's sleeping around and beating men. And it depends on her mood. Obviously it's affecting all my relationships too bc it's gotten to a point where I can't take anythign other people are telling me seriously because it feels like what's happening tk me it's so much more anxiety inducing and important. I don't care about your relationship and I don't care about your exams or your retarded hobbies. It feels like I'm being violated every single day and your problems genuinely do not interest me at this point

gothdianxia

Worst thing is she's decided to do all this during exam season. She's causing me mind numbing amounts of stress. I feel like I'm rotting from the inside this genuinely cannot go on

gothdianxia

And all the retards telling me to just ignore it or go to my room or cut the conversation short. It really does not matter whether or not we talk about it. If she gets something in her mind then it's fucking over. She'll just make you suffer for as long as she seems fit for it. I wore a ribbon in my hair last week and she still talks about it with disgust. I leave the room to take a fucking shit and she starts mumbling about how embarrassing me wearing that retarded fucking ribbon was to her a week later. And it's always been like that so it's not fucking changing. I came to the kitchen to get a glass of water during mealtime today and she just tossed her fork in her plate when she saw me and announced she had lost her appetite. I don't even remember the last time I ate with company in my own house. Every fucking day I eat on my desk alone, for years now. It's a miserable existence. I like being alone but I want to feel like I at least have the choice to not be

gothdianxia

Things have gotten so bad at home I'm at a point where I'm regularly being sexually violated and it feels like there's nothing that can be done. I get pulled aside and asked very personal questions about whether or not I use toys and if I use then on myself or others and there's no way of getting out of the conversation. My mother is definitely going through my stuff and has found my shit so there's no point in lying abt it either. She keeps insisting straight women have no use for toys and I only have then because I'm "using them on my friends" which is frankly really grossing me out. She thinks I look+act lesbian and this gives me so much more dysphoria than just her thinking I'm a hetero woman tbh. She tries to ask me why I have different sizes? And why I can't be satisfied by a smaller one which like. Disgusting thing to talk about with your child. She asks if I'll throw them out once I "get a boyfriend". It's just very distressing all around. I don't know what to do it only started recently. She tries to touch me and see parts of me naked it's just genuinely weird and out of nowhere. I think she's freaked out because she's lost physical power over me the last few years and she's trying to violate me in any way she can to get it back. Yesterday she came into my room while I was working to basically interrogate me about why I have so much bdsm themed decor and why most of my art is about that aesthetic. She just sounded pissed off and disgusted,she told me she thinks it's immoral and perverted and that only lesbians are into that. Which like. None of my art has 2 women practising bdsm most of it is like. Hetero femdom or men. So what's the fucking point. She tried asking me if I participate in orgies and what I've tried in detail. It's so uncomfortable Im under constant stress at home. I told her I don't wanna talk about that stuff with my mother and that it's wrong and weird and she got even more disgusting. It feels like a form of psychological incest I don't wanna say I'm being sexually harassed but it genuinely does feel like that. It's gotten really hard for me to go about my day. Every time I leave my room to get a glass or water or go to the bathroom I have to sit there and prepare myself because as soon as she sees me she starts commenting about me being promiscuous and dirty. It's too fucking weird man and it's causing me sm distress

gothdianxia

It feels like one moment I'm being infantilized and desexualised and being told I can't do anything by myself and the next she treats me like a rapist. There's no in between. One minute I'm a 3year old and the next I'm this evil sexually active woman that's sleeping around and beating men. And it depends on her mood. Obviously it's affecting all my relationships too bc it's gotten to a point where I can't take anythign other people are telling me seriously because it feels like what's happening tk me it's so much more anxiety inducing and important. I don't care about your relationship and I don't care about your exams or your retarded hobbies. It feels like I'm being violated every single day and your problems genuinely do not interest me at this point

gothdianxia

Worst thing is she's decided to do all this during exam season. She's causing me mind numbing amounts of stress. I feel like I'm rotting from the inside this genuinely cannot go on

gothdianxia

Things have gotten so bad at home I'm at a point where I'm regularly being sexually violated and it feels like there's nothing that can be done. I get pulled aside and asked very personal questions about whether or not I use toys and if I use then on myself or others and there's no way of getting out of the conversation. My mother is definitely going through my stuff and has found my shit so there's no point in lying abt it either. She keeps insisting straight women have no use for toys and I only have then because I'm "using them on my friends" which is frankly really grossing me out. She thinks I look+act lesbian and this gives me so much more dysphoria than just her thinking I'm a hetero woman tbh. She tries to ask me why I have different sizes? And why I can't be satisfied by a smaller one which like. Disgusting thing to talk about with your child. She asks if I'll throw them out once I "get a boyfriend". It's just very distressing all around. I don't know what to do it only started recently. She tries to touch me and see parts of me naked it's just genuinely weird and out of nowhere. I think she's freaked out because she's lost physical power over me the last few years and she's trying to violate me in any way she can to get it back. Yesterday she came into my room while I was working to basically interrogate me about why I have so much bdsm themed decor and why most of my art is about that aesthetic. She just sounded pissed off and disgusted,she told me she thinks it's immoral and perverted and that only lesbians are into that. Which like. None of my art has 2 women practising bdsm most of it is like. Hetero femdom or men. So what's the fucking point. She tried asking me if I participate in orgies and what I've tried in detail. It's so uncomfortable Im under constant stress at home. I told her I don't wanna talk about that stuff with my mother and that it's wrong and weird and she got even more disgusting. It feels like a form of psychological incest I don't wanna say I'm being sexually harassed but it genuinely does feel like that. It's gotten really hard for me to go about my day. Every time I leave my room to get a glass or water or go to the bathroom I have to sit there and prepare myself because as soon as she sees me she starts commenting about me being promiscuous and dirty. It's too fucking weird man and it's causing me sm distress

gothdianxia

It feels like one moment I'm being infantilized and desexualised and being told I can't do anything by myself and the next she treats me like a rapist. There's no in between. One minute I'm a 3year old and the next I'm this evil sexually active woman that's sleeping around and beating men. And it depends on her mood. Obviously it's affecting all my relationships too bc it's gotten to a point where I can't take anythign other people are telling me seriously because it feels like what's happening tk me it's so much more anxiety inducing and important. I don't care about your relationship and I don't care about your exams or your retarded hobbies. It feels like I'm being violated every single day and your problems genuinely do not interest me at this point

Things have gotten so bad at home I'm at a point where I'm regularly being sexually violated and it feels like there's nothing that can be done. I get pulled aside and asked very personal questions about whether or not I use toys and if I use then on myself or others and there's no way of getting out of the conversation. My mother is definitely going through my stuff and has found my shit so there's no point in lying abt it either. She keeps insisting straight women have no use for toys and I only have then because I'm "using them on my friends" which is frankly really grossing me out. She thinks I look+act lesbian and this gives me so much more dysphoria than just her thinking I'm a hetero woman tbh. She tries to ask me why I have different sizes? And why I can't be satisfied by a smaller one which like. Disgusting thing to talk about with your child. She asks if I'll throw them out once I "get a boyfriend". It's just very distressing all around. I don't know what to do it only started recently. She tries to touch me and see parts of me naked it's just genuinely weird and out of nowhere. I think she's freaked out because she's lost physical power over me the last few years and she's trying to violate me in any way she can to get it back. Yesterday she came into my room while I was working to basically interrogate me about why I have so much bdsm themed decor and why most of my art is about that aesthetic. She just sounded pissed off and disgusted,she told me she thinks it's immoral and perverted and that only lesbians are into that. Which like. None of my art has 2 women practising bdsm most of it is like. Hetero femdom or men. So what's the fucking point. She tried asking me if I participate in orgies and what I've tried in detail. It's so uncomfortable Im under constant stress at home. I told her I don't wanna talk about that stuff with my mother and that it's wrong and weird and she got even more disgusting. It feels like a form of psychological incest I don't wanna say I'm being sexually harassed but it genuinely does feel like that. It's gotten really hard for me to go about my day. Every time I leave my room to get a glass or water or go to the bathroom I have to sit there and prepare myself because as soon as she sees me she starts commenting about me being promiscuous and dirty. It's too fucking weird man and it's causing me sm distress

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emai to GOAT apo to goat simulator

Drinking and smoking is fine but as soon as you suggest doing a little bit og coke everyone gets mad at you

acti-veg

You can absolutely love animals while choosing to eat them… So long as you define love as just a vaguely positive feeling towards someone that doesn’t require you to act in their best interests or even care if they live or die.

#Yeah dude just like men who commit femicides love their wives. Like property