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Diet / plain diary blog

[deprivedofflowersz]

Intro

- Rora / Deprived

- <20

- 5'1

- I'm on Olanzapine and Bupropion

Sw: 149.0 lbs

Cw: 137.5 lbs

Lw: 132.? (most recent: 136.8)

1gw: 135 lbs

2gw: 125 lbs

3gw: 115 lbs

4gw: 105 lbs

Ugw: 100 - 85 lbs

Rules

1. Mondays: Mealprep and rest days (only rest day is feel like it)

2. two maintenance days a month (? - if it works)

3. 10k steps (7k - 8k at the least).

- Watch Big Craig, Phat Ash and Friends, SamAtEverySize, Megan Anne, Angelyca Unflitered, or Amberlynn Reid commentarys when hungry / unmotivated.

4. Go to bed by 12 am, wake at 10pm - work days: go to sleep by 9am and wake by 6pm.

5. No watching sad things - ruins mood and causes overeating.

6. If I over eat one day, use a little less cals through the week (if on a Sunday ignore or subtract, depends on hunger on that Monday).

7. Weigh in on Thursdays and Sundays.

8. Don't fall into restriction or overeating !!

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/tw: weight

★ Weight

── .✦ 137.1 lb / 62.1 kg

So sorry for not posting this earlier, been running around today :)

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: weight

★ Weight

── .✦ 137.5 lbs / 62.3 kgs

Yap time :p : I had orientation for overnight stocking for my local walmart :), it went well, they were gonna have my first day be tomorrow, which I said no to, cause that would be a very drastic difference in my sleep schedule (work time is 10pm - 7am, I usually go to sleep by 12am and wake up around 10:30am) and then I'd also have to wait till Thurs to have another work day, but the lady said it's fine, so my first few days are Thurs, Fri, and Sat, hoping they aren't to nerve-wracking T-T, they're gonna start me with video training and in the dairy section. Also, so sorry for not posting, I've been trying to sleep around 8 to prep for today to make sure I wake up on time, ya know, and I had to take 4 fucking melatonin to sleep by 9 T-T, like jesus, but I got there.

[deprivedofflowersz]

So sorry for disappearing again T-T, I overate the past two days, ew. Back on track today, have the week's meals planned out (I didn't have Monday's and it was kinda chaotic so that prob had to do with my stupidity but Sunday was worse cause I was out of normal food T-T), I'm hoping that makes it simpler cause imma eat the things I want in some capacity. I'll try to post tonight, I have a job orientation on Friday, first jobbbbbb, my cousin works there, not same position, but still, she says it's not to bad, but anyway, this was tonights supper :), I forgot to weight the chicken :(, so I'm hoping I'm right, I should be cause it was mostly bone.

And Fatman all up in my business (I didn't feed him any)

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: weight

★ Weight-in

── .✦ 138.8 lbs / 62.9 kgs

:|

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/tw: cals

★ Cals

★ Breakfast

── .✦ Nothing

★ Lunch

── .✦ Russet potato - 165g: 157 cals

── .✦ Egg - 2 count: 155 cals

── .✦ Keto hamburger bun - 1 count: 50 cals

── .✦ Light 'Can't believe it's not butter' - 20g: 50 cals

★ Supper

── .✦ Colby jack cheese - 35g: 128 cals

── .✦ Light 'Can't believe it's not butter' - 5g: 13 cals

── .✦ Creamette Ziti - 56g: 200 cals

── .✦ 'Chicken of the Sea' Tuna - 1 can: 100 cals

★ Snacks

── .✦ Homemade banana bread - 69g: 117 cals

── .✦ Lindt 85% chocolate - 1 square: 57 cals

── .✦ No sugar hot coco - 1 envelope: 80 cals

── .✦ Haribo Cola bottle(s) - 1 gummy: 14 cals

── .✦ Flamin' hot cheeto puff snack bag - 1 bag: 140 cals

★ Total

── .✦ 1,261 cals

★ Steps

── .✦ 25,175 steps

★ Weight-in Scheduled

For ── .✦ Sunday / Tomorrow

[deprivedofflowersz]

So sorry for disappearing

Sorry, I graduated, moved out, supposed to have a job by next week :). I haven't been on track till now, I fucked up yesterday and especially thurs, but back on track and have all my meals planned for tomorrow and next week (want me to share?) Weigh in tomorrow, not to excited, but yea, I updated my rules to better fit my new timing, till I figure out how to do stuff during work once I get started they should stay the same, I'll try to do my meal and steps later but it's the 4th so fireworks (fucking stupid, I'm in town now so Fatman has to actually hear them and they usually go past midnightttttt). But so far I have 21k steps and stayed in my deficit by about 200 cals, might eat a snack, I'll try not to tho.

Would anyone like my weightloss-esk pinterest? It just has mealspo and th!nsp0 stuff, I'll prob change my pfp tho cause it's my face :|, but just ask

[angelf4wnn]

Real footage of me after eating anything

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/tw: cals

My apologies for dipping again, graduated Saturday :). Been freaking out over it and having to move out, turned to food, so I've over eating T-T the past 4 or so days, getting back on track tomorrow, can plan everything I eat, so we're good there, have to eat lower to fix my over cals (about 1,150) my planned meal tomorrow is 524 below, so we should be ok-ish, uhhhhhh, yeah, I'll maybe post tomorrow :), weight in planned for Sunday, skipping Thursday, idk, maybe, possibly moving out this weekend :)

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: weight

★ Weight

── .✦ 138.6 lbs

Could be a lot worse, I'd prefer if it was lower, but ya know :(

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: cals, weight

Cals

★ Breakfast

── .✦ nothing

★ Lunch

── .✦ 4oz of Cinnamon toast crunch - 486 cals

── .✦ 7.5 oz of whole milk - 141 cals

★ Supper / Dinner

── .✦ 5.05oz of strawberries - 47 cals

── .✦ approx 12 oz of BBQ(?) Beans - 307 cals

── .✦ 1 raspberry poptart - 185 cals

── .✦ approx .10 oz of a green apple - 1 cals

── .✦ endulge gummys - 35 cals

★ Total !!!!!

── .✦ approx 1,500 cals

★ Steps

── .✦ 15,122

★ Weight-in scheduled

For ── .✦ Thursday / Tomorrow

[boneyyyyy]

<3 darkspo <3

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: eating

Sorry for dipping, my sister made me stay over at my apartment for the weekend Thurs - Sun, but I've been over eating :( not too much, I think I only went over mait on Fri, but got excess steps in 11k, 21k, and 17k, (at 4k rn), my bad, uhhhhh, my cat (Fatman is prob how Imma refer to him) everyday at midnight besides Thurs he'd start yowling and staring at the damn door (and also he'd purr and merp), spooked the fuck outta me cause my sister left Fri morning, so I was alone :(

Uhhhh anyway, I drew while I was there :D

[hinnuleus-little-fawn]

I want to be comfortable enough to wear a two piece anything this summer 😭

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: cals, weight

Uhhhhh, my bad again. I'll tell my foods so I have, I'm gonna get more steps in a little later, at 8k rn, butttttt I ateeeeee:

- a Hershey Sundae Pie - 310 cals

- wild rice soup - approx 8 oz - approx 76 cals

- chicken stripe - approx 258 cals

- a coke slushie - 160 cals

- A choceur cookies n creme bar - 100 cals

- a coney dog - approx 380 cals

- a fudge brownie yasso bar - 100 cals

:)

Soooooo - total = approx 1,384 cals yippeee, I'll try to remember to do my normal thing, can't promise tho

Uhhhh, imma weigh myself in the morning, cause I have a doc appointment and they'll take my weight, so I don't freak balls :D, yippeeeee

[deprivedofflowersz]

/tw: weight

My apologies for not posting again, things came up and I haven't been sleeping well, so real tired T-T anddddd haven't been getting my steps in :(. But I'm back down to 138 lbs exactly (62.5 kgs) as of this morning. Thankfully. Prom's tomorrow, scared as shit for that T-T

Have a pic of yesterday's supper. It looks shitty, but oh well

[m4bq]

I need my legs to be the size of my arms and my waist the size of my legs