Depths of Self

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cardinal flower, for Sun conjunct Mars

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Sun Conjunct Mars

The warrior incarnate, the fighter par excellence. Adrenaline, drive, physical power. This person has grace, it’s not just Venus, but grace that comes from a subtle, deft kinship with the body, an ease in the skin. There is developed intuition on the physical plane, an awareness of other people’s prowess or lack thereof. Though the ego is expanded, and that is a bit blinding, other people’s energy, the softness or hardness of them, the danger or safety in them, is felt on a primal level. Mechanical talent, good with the hands, comfortable in extremes of temperature, height, etc, in being tested bodily. The instinct of the leader of the pack, wolves, the bull with dark, watchful eyes swinging alone up hill. 

I know this aspect, know it deep. My son and daughter both have it. It’s no surprise, I have Sun in a square to Mars, and so I passed to them the more integrated, the subtler, more cohesive version. Conjunctions really are so subtle and intrinsic, and subconscious. They are who you are, how you feel yourself, but squares, well squares are the stuff of your experiences, the cold wind at your back, rain on your head, hitches, blocks. One is created by squares, too, by how you fare through your trials, your experiences, the projections that you set out there and that bring on the deepest of challenges. Such is the square. But back to the conjunction-they are powerful, yes, and deeply felt, and there, always, reverberating, ready, conscious, where all your talent and potential lies.

So having the Sun in a conjunction to Mars, you can run free through athletics, you can conquer, you can train yourself and beat everyone down if your mind and heart are set on it; you have a fearlessness, innate, replenishing. A leader is in you. Certain astrologers like to throw warnings with this conjunction sometimes--there is danger of overheating, overexertion, of wearing yourself out, burning out too quick, but what? How can it be helped? To be born with this is to be born with it, and nobody, nobody feels more alive than someone with this combination, their heart set, pummeling away at their dreams. How it would make the person with this conjunction laugh to hear slow down, take a breath, get a hobby. Did John Henry get a hobby?

Of course there’s the likelihood of picking fights, there’s strain in close relationships because the ego is so fixed, so expanded and powerful, and softer characteristics can be overwhelmed by this conjunction, especially when this person is on a winning streak. Yet, probably, most likely, through loss of love because of selfishness, or loss in other ways, over time makes a wiser temperament set in, once the fullest of powers like pure air beating with life through young lungs has aged a bit. There’s nothing that can be done here, this person is pretty unreasonable until they get a bit older. All Mars aspects to the Sun deepen the capacity for enjoyment of life. Those who don’t have it, I mean zero aspects between Sun and Mars, are just a bit more phlegmatic, their laughter is less booming, less real; they’re not as comfortable with themselves. It’s a joy, this marrying between the body and the spirit that this aspect gives,  and I wouldn’t trade that aspect, well the square, for any trine to Jupiter (though I have that too) for all the world--maybe I would argue less, my path to humility and responsibility would have been less rocky, less full of ridiculous detours, people may have hated me on less, but I wouldn’t trade any of that for loving life less, and this is the aspect of loving life (so is the square, the trine and the sextile--any aspect between the Sun and Mars.) The Moon paired to Mars can make up for it, actually, that is powerful, too, and to be gotten into on another afternoon. 

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Sun square Moon in the Composite Chart

Oh, lord in heaven--if I get one more relationship with this in the chart... but, these relationships are vital and sometimes they happen. The composite chart is the chart of the couple, and I tend to really on it for interpretations, but not more than synastry, that is important, too. To be honest if there’s not good synastry you won’t get into the grit of the composite chart, you won’t really get into the relationship. But if you do, if you get into it, then the composite chart is active, and if you have the Sun, the very core nature of the relationship, in conflict, or square, the Moon, then you have the very joy of the relationships thrown under the knife. Joy bleeds into sorrow, and back again; there is a deep nourishment here, a profound sensitivity bred from this antagonism, from the tension and the hurt. And the tension never really goes away; it is a relationship fraught with it, trembling and excited by it, unstable because of it, never mundane, never dull. 

The affair. The Sun/Moon position for an affair. I wish it were not true, maybe I will be proven wrong one day, and were it only possible for it to turn into something that stretches long, that changes one’s life, but actually--it does, it does change your life. But it is not likely to last in the traditional sense, for it is the aspect of passion, and passion burns itself out. The flame can be relit, carefully, between steady hands, but it will burn, burn again. This is the aspect of voraciousness, there is a desperate hunger for one another. The love is deep here, desperate, anima and animus are really intertwined, and there is projection  of the dream lover--one to the other. And there is a real need, a deep unshakeable need to be with the other person, but that requires something possible--changing the other person. There is an inability to relax with this one, and flow into a pleasant, reliable, nurturing relationship--the passion is so great and deep-rooted, it endures impossibly even though the branches shake so violently. Love quarrels, resentments, hurtful misunderstandings slip through the cracks of this relationship and adhere. There is pain and sorrow; there are fights that go too far. There’s the ripping apart of one another’s ego and then the slow deeply nourishing coming together to heal each other’s wounds, and then one day you have to learn to heal your own wounds.

There is growth here, there is no doubt of that, and this relationship may represent a sexual peak for one or the other partner. The meeting generally sets one on a new path afterwards, a naked, more vulnerable path, for you have been ripped apart and cannot find yourself again trying to stay in a relationship where the Sun is square the Moon. It crystallizes, hardens, the heart, this one, for all future weathers. One may get used to living, piqued, as on a battlefield; the sound of gunshots in the morning, armoring the doors at night, the sweet surrender of protecting each other and hiding away. But that is just it, the drama  of this relationship is so entire, so intense, that it does not seem one can grow as a solitary, singular person in this partnership, the lover is too jealous of that, too bitter with having been left out. This is the affair that consumes, and then to be free of it in the end is a bitter balm. If you have this in aspect in your composite chart with your lover, other aspects may, may, may mitigate it, write me for specifics, as I can personally interpret charts.. but.. there is little control here. There will certainly be times of separation so the individual egos can rebuild, and singular tracks be footed, and even when separated, these is a continuous connection--every time when the Sun touches the Moon--you can meet each other in dreams.

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Moon in the First House

Emotions visible in the face, known for being capricious, for flashes and pitfalls of mood open and colorful on the face. An cathartic, vulnerable expression. An empathetic face, which freely and naturally expresses a range of emotions, as tempered by the sign. The identity married and woven with emotional honesty, with the whims of mood. The actor, the mime, easily a public face. Energy sometimes too readily given over to others, and a sponge to atmosphere and other people's emotions as well. Defenseless, in a sense here lies the power in vulnerability, and strength of honest emotional portrayal. A face like a child into adulthood. As one ages, the face of someone who never could help showing they feel, so pronounced lines of a certain temperament. Known for quality of the heart, known for a certain self-indulgence of the emotional nature, known for being innocently honest. Loved for the heart, above all else, which is usually powerful and strengthened by this position of naked vulnerability, especially potent in the eyes.