ambition & glory

[ derek a. hayes ] ❝ feelings are the shadows of ( our ) THOUGHTS. ❞

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“ not this again — ” derek couldn’t hold his eyeroll in, despite all the nerves in his body telling him to do so. “ i don’t know how someone could do this twice. ”

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there was a small part of nick that didn’t even fully understand why he’d decided to come to the carnival, let alone let himself get put in a tent instead of just going home to his bed every night. but it was too late to change that now… and the only thing on nick’s mind was doing something to try and make his experience a little bit more fun and interesting, so without a second though, he pulled himself out of the tent and made his way over to a familiar face. “i have a proposal for you.” he started, his brow raising slightly. “if you can get that girl’s number for me, i will buy every single drink you could ever want while we’re here. or, you could always just join me in getting a drink because honestly, i’m bored out of my mind and want something to do. whatta say? you in or are you in?”

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upon hearing the other man’s question, derek paused to pat himself on the back — at least he wasn’t this lonely; he could get someone’s number on his own. although there was indeed no harm in having a wingman, the man couldn’t help but pity the person in front of him, asking for help in this way. “ is that a challenge? ” derek asks, sitting down next to the man in front of him and grabbing himself another shot of liquor. “ because that’s no fun — what you should do is go up to her yourself and get all the numbers she has. ”

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text message: derek

kareena: pinky promise! i can even have a philosophical convo rn

derek: whatever. do you know who you're texting?

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“And I thought I could trust you.” - @derekhaycs

kareena had mastered the art of the poker face from a young age. it was a necessity, a survival tactit for her, it seemed. there were times when she was caught off guard, though, being this a prime example. and her slightly tipsy state wasn’t any help, either. “you know what you CAN’T trust? these… portable carnival things. the rides always look like if you make one wrong move they’re going to fall apart!” she mumbled, her mind not completely in sync with the sentences she was forming. “but me? what makes you think that you can’t trust me?”

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derek wanted to smile so hard, yet every nerve in his brain told him not to — not yet, a voice inside him screamed. don’t give away too much. all he could muster was a restrained laugh; one far removed from his regular charm — as distant as he could be. “ well, those carnival rides aren’t asking you to trust them, right? that’s the main difference — ” derek stops midway before he says anything reckless; anything signalling loneliness. because no, derek believed he wasn’t lonely — furthest from it, in fact. “ i don’t need to give out my trust like i throw away pennies. ”

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text message: derek

kareena: this is a sober text

derek: i don't believe u

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text message: derek

kareena: hakuna matata, der

kareena: hajuna mataTaata

derek: you're drunk, and because of that, i refuse to reply. i'd like to think i deserve at least a sober text.

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text message: emerson

emerson: so, i may or may not have just lost thea...

emerson: i'm not this terrible of a dad all the time, i promise

emerson: carnivals are literally the worst place to take a child??

emerson: anyways, please tell me you've seen her,,

derek: oh my god, emerson

derek: i can't believe how stupid you are

derek: text me your location, i'll be there in a sec

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@okayhads

“ wait a minute — ” derek stops in his tracks and points his finger towards the girl in front of him, “ i remember you — yeah, you were his sister, right? my god — it’s been way too long !! how’ve you guys been? ”

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@derekhaycs

Okay, so she was in a hurry. So much in a hurry she stood in front of this man with his drink in her hand, and a guilt stricken face. “…I uh, I am so sorry. I have somewhere to be, ya know the bonfire sleep over thing, and I–I have no excuse. I drunk your shit, and I feel bad, but what can I do? I can buy you another one? Give you money for this and you can buy it? I really need to get outta here, so which is it?”

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“ really? that’s your best excuse to get away with this disaster? ” derek sighed with his eyes rolled, imagining another wasted day at the dry cleaners. “ oh, i don’t need any money — the least you could do is give me a bit of your time. now, that’s something i could use more of, ” 

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@derekhaycs

“ was it the adrenaline, or did i actually spot you in the crowd at antisocial’s first wave performance? i’m only asking because i didn’t really picture you in that kind of environment at all. but i could be wrong, apparently. — either way, if you were there, i hope you enjoyed the outfit and shoe choice. after all, you did pay for most of it. ”

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“ don’t flatter yourself. i wasn’t here because of that band of yours — that’s not real music. i was meeting an old friend and he suggested this place. coincidences do happen, you know. ” the man leans in and whispers, “ i did enjoy looking at that, though, ” eyeing the girl’s outfit and moving his gaze downwards slowly.

[o-l-y-m-p-i-a-blog]

THIS…

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hey hey h e y everyone! i’m jo && i’m super thrilled to be playing DEREK — one of my newest muses !! ( esp. w/ the gabriel macht fc, he is gorgeous ) feel free to message me or like this message if you want to plot, or if you’re looking for a closed starter; we can definitely work something out !! more about derek under the cut:

[ GABRIEL MACHT, CIS MALE ] - DID YOU KNOW DEREK ARTHUR HAYES IS BACK IN TOWN ? I’VE HEARD THAT THE 38 YEAR OLD HAS BEEN GONE FOR 20 YEARS AND USED TO BE KNOWN AS THE PRODIGY. NOW PEOPLE CALL THEM THE POLYMATH BUT THEY’RE STILL EMOTIONALLY DISTANT, AND SMART-MOUTHED AS USUAL. RIGHT NOW THEY’RE BUSY AS A CORPORATE LAWYER BUT I HOPE WE HAVE TIME TO CATCH UP !

[ A FEW INSIGHTS INTO DEREK’S PAST & PERSONALITY ]

derek came back to aston because his father was ill, and took a sabbatical from his job in NYC to spend more time with his family. the man had spent the last 10-12 years climbing the corporate solicitor ladder madly; leaving little time for personal affairs — so he decided to take a break and enjoy life a bit, and what better way to do it than back home in aston ??

the man is ambitious, definitely — and has the wits to match his addiction to winning. he left aston after high school, where he went to college in boston, ma (harvard undergrad) before pursuing law at stanford. after his education, he took a job at one of new york’s biggest law firms and never looked back. he is now senior partner at said firm. 

personality-wise, derek is often a smart-mouth and isn’t afraid to correct others — sometimes at the expense of their feelings. much to his chagrin, this trait, along with his extremely packed schedule, has left him without much of a personal/romantic life: his friends are mostly from work, and aside from the occasional one-night stand, derek is pretty lonely.

he’s laura’s older brother and is super protective of her. they’re pretty tight and he tells her almost everything there is to know !!

[shegiles]

”I don’t speak for all handsome men.”