Do it now or regret it later

I'm 18 and recently started college. Life is what you make it. I don't know where I would be without music

[bargainbarbi3]

I can’t keep going around in circles with you. You don’t want me. And it hurts. Loving you hurts. Wanting you hurts. Thinking of you every goddamn second of every goddamn day hurts. Hoping someday you’ll come back is killing me. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. You’re fucking killing me.

— I won’t pick up the phone anymore (not that you care anyway)

[desin777]

"Am I holding you back?"

He says as he sits in the passenger seat of my car. His eyes are full of worry. I look at him with disbelief.

How could he ask such a question? I love him with all of my heart and soul.

Things aren't perfect, but I wouldn't want what I have with anyone else. He tries so hard with everything he does for me. If anything, he's pushing me forward. Encouraging me with everything I do.

"Of course not, baby." I reply to him with a smile as I run my fingers through his hair.

I'm in this until the bitter end.

[kristensnotebook]

He picked his women the opposite way we pick our fruit looking for the ones with the most bruises the ones he could toss aside once he finished stealing their last drops of sweetness.

- Kristen Costello

[markiplier]

A COMPROMISE

100 Thousand Reblogs and I will let Dark and Wilford live.

Anything less and they’re dead FOREVER.

[kjpoems]

Thats my man. He’s mine. He’s my man even when he forgets he is mine and gives himself to some basic chick that aint worth half of me. He’s my man when he realizes the grass isn’t always greener and clings to me, staining my thighs with his tears. He’s my man even when he tells me I’m not enough even when he tells me I’m too much and he needs something else, someone else. God dammit he’s my man when we’re together and I see him fantasizing over the girl in the high waist shorts & crop top. She doesn’t have scars like I do. He’s my man even when he makes me want to shed every part of me to rid the traces of him. He’ll be my man even after I’m no longer his woman.

(202/365) by (KJ)

[sleepygaymerdisease]

REMINDER THAT GETTING RID OF NET NEUTRALITY WILL HURT:

- SMALL BUSINESSES

How will they be able to advertise things when they’re just starting out, and how many people will be able to see it? How many people will be willing to buy things online if they already have to pay for access to the site?

- SCHOOLS

Any school with computers will have to pay money for internet access. Otherwise students won’t be able to work on any projects in class, and they will have to rely on home internet access. Lots of school funding will be used for paying this!

- PEOPLE SEEKING MEDICAL/FINANCIAL AID ONLINE

It is common on this site and on many others to see people asking for aid. Imagine what will happen to these people if they have to pay to go onto this site, and imagine how many people will see their posts. Imagine how many people will still have the money to help them.

- STUDENTS

Any kind of research paper will be a pain to write, regardless of your grade level. I have to turn in almost all of my homework online, and nothing is allowed to be handwritten. This will make college more expensive, too, and that’s already too much for anyone to pay for without student loans.

- ANYONE LOOKING FOR A JOB ONLINE

Nobody wants to pay an extra $50 dollars a month to sign up for job applications. It is also standard to have an email, so if you no longer have access to it, that can cost you a job, even if you aren’t signing up for it online.

- ARTISTS

Many artists already have trouble getting people to buy commissions. A lack of exposure and a lack of money will not help.

- YOUTUBERS

I don’t really go on youtube anymore, but I know for a fact that this will effect the amount of views (and therefore the amount of momey) they’ll get for their videos. This will effect youtubers worldwide, and the U.S. is filled with tons of viewers!

- PEOPLE WITH MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES

Lots of people rely on the internet to vent or to escape. Imagine if they were suddenly told that they aren’t able to do that anymore. Imagine what will happen if they’re suddenly cut off from their friends online.

- LIBRARIES

Libraries would have to put even more funding into internet access, and if they can’t pay for it, it will be a serious inconvenience to many, many people. People who go to the library to use the computers often don’t have a computer at home.

Call the FCC and senators. Write an email. Send a letter. DO SOMETHING.

[snails-bein-dudes]

What We Will Lose With Net Neutrality

Imagine one morning you wake up and feel bad. You want to watch someone who can make you laugh. You start thinking about those videos that have helped you through so much. Then you get really sad.You frown. You feel something heavy in you chest. Like there is a weight there. You realize you have to go on and maybe never watch these people who have done so much for you again because you can’t afford internet. Imagine losing them. 

I don’t know about you, but I would feel like I’ve lost a part of myself and my family. These goofs mean so much to me. They have made me realize things change through time and sometimes it’s an amazing change that brings love and happiness. Don’t take this away. 

[ecstatic-satire]

Net Neutrality

Because no one should pay for using a fucking social network and everyone’s online privacy should be left unbothered and unexploited. So, make it trend, even if it does not fit your aesthetic blog or whatever the fuck and promote it. Let’s make sure the slimy, goldplated hands of these corporate bitches stay far away from the Internet.

[ithelpstodream]

[theroyaltutorimagines]

I’ve only been rebloging stuff until now on Net Neutrality, but I need to speak out myself about this.

How many of you are in college, planning to go to college, have graduated college, or heard about college?

Well we all know that college is not free! And most importantly, it’s considered a necessity to your financial path as most jobs now adays require a degree of some sorts.

And since the internet is where you email teachers, do lectures, classes, homework, I doubt colleges will stop doing online work. So the cost from losing Net Neutrality is just going to factor into your tuition.

Need to buy a textbook from a class?

Too bad you can’t load amazon and when you do, the shipping for the book is $15+ and the library copy is out.

Say good-bye to googling helpful research for projects, hello library books! Hopefully they have some books on your topic!

Need to email your teacher a question for that assignment you procrastinated on?

Well too bad! You’re email won’t load because you’re a poor college student! Looks like you’ll have to take a bad grade!

Are you needing to send your students a document for the upcoming test?

Too bad some of them didn’t buy the google package, so they won’t be able to see it anyway!

Need internet in general for online class takers or just regular students?

No problem! I guess we’ll just make college more expensive so every student can have a school owned laptop with fast lane internet so they can do the work!

I mean, not like college is expensive or anything. All those low income families can afford to be in debt for a decade or so longer!

Please, please, PLEASE speak out against this! Don’t let the topic be silenced!

[desin777]

Toxic

What do you do when you care about someone more than you do yourself? Yet, they don’t give a damn about you or they’ve forgotten your existence. They turn so cold hearted towards you and you have to act like everything is okay. What if you both miss each other, but you’re too stubborn to tell one another? This is a constant cycle that needs to be broken.

[ashleymacleanblog]

i don’t know why i’m still waiting  for you to come home when you’ve already found a new home  between her legs

replaced - a.l.m (via ashleymacleanblog)

…and between her legs you will stay until you get tired of her like you got tired of me.

[desin777]

“If it’s destroying you, then it isn’t love, my dear”

-realizing I’ve been taking love the wrong way

[desin777]

The Human Mind is Truly the Scariest Thing of All

The human mind is truly the scariest thing of all. No one truly knows who a person is unless they are inside their head. Our species are constantly talking, yet no one can hear. Most cannot hear how we truly feel. They only hear words, not the emotion in them. Our thoughts are the only thing that are pure...or are they?  

It’s so easy to put on a mask and play the part of someone you aren’t. It helps cover the pain you feel inside. It helps avoid the tedious questions on whether you’re okay or not. It gives you the ability to simply exist without a bother. When you wear this mask for too long, you begin to fool yourself. You act like you’re okay. You believe you’re okay. Until a memory is triggered. Chills run down your body and you become numb. That mask, was made of glass. It’s shattered again. You cut yourself as you try to put it back together. Why do you keep trying? You yearn to feel whole. Yearning to be good enough. You’ll live in a constant loop.  

On the inside, you’re dying. You’re slowly rotting from the inside out. It’ll eventually get to the point where you can’t get out of bed in the morning. Depression. That’s what the name this demon has earned over the years. It’s taken so many under its wicked wing, no one is truly safe from it. The greatest power Depression has is being able to manipulate your mind. This illusion that you are one of the shittiest human beings living on this fucked-up planet. Others compliment you, but you ignore it.

 “They’re lying to you,” Depression whispers in your ear. “No one truly loves you; you will never be good enough; why are you still alive?” Depression continues to wear you down until you’re nothing but another body.  

When it comes to feeling, you either feel nothing or everything at once. I’m not sure which is worse. To be so cold to everyone you meet or be so emotional that you can barely function. Emotions. The one thing that I find challenging. Whether I feel tremendous or insignificant or tender towards others, I can’t seem to express it like I’d like to. I guess the cliche saying, “Actions speak louder than words” benefits me when it comes to how I feel.  

Perhaps, others have this trouble too. They don’t know how to express themselves properly.  Perhaps, their demons make them blind. Yet, I will never know, for I am not inside their heads. All I can see is their masks. I stare and wonder what materials make up their mask. Wondering if they are stronger than mine. I hope it is, yet at the same time, I hope there isn’t a mask at all. For wearing that mask is heartbreaking. People don’t know who you really are until you let them see. Until you finally take that piece of material off of your face, people will never know who you truly are.

When one wears a mask, they become dependent upon it. It becomes apart of who they are. It’s what everyone thinks they are. Perfect. Flawless. Liar. No one should trust someone who wears a mask, because that mask fools them as much as it fools you.  

[poisoned-words]

So the boy you gave your everything to Walked away without looking back And you’re left to pick up the pieces he left behind 2 boys later and you’re getting good at pretending he’s not here But you’re still planning for ways to go back Still searching for a reason to call The boy you gave your everything to Gladly took it, knowing full well he wasn’t planning to stay He took and took and took until you were nothing but a ghost of what you use to be

(via poisoned-words)

[desin777]

Too Young

“She’s cool, but too young.” Those are the words that came out of his mouth about her.  Who knew that such a simple sentence could hurt so much and leave her with so many unanswered questions? Just five simple little words that come together and drive her absolutely insane. It’s bad enough that she is analytical and life at home isn’t the best in the world. You’d think that even after all the shit she’s been through that she can get passed this. That she’s been through worse, yet it’s eating her away slowly. The fact that this one boy that she had so many hopes for, put her down. Not because she wasn’t pretty, because she really was. Not because she has her occasional break downs that she doesn’t tell anyone about. No, it was because she was simply two years younger than him. It was something completely out of her control. Something so silly that this boy let her go for. He didn’t realize that age doesn’t matter. That age does not define who a person is or how they act. The fact is that he was 18.  She was 16. In his eyes, this barrier was too much to over come. Now, this girl sits on her bed. Wondering why she even tried. Thinking back to what her parents told her. “No one will ever love you”…”People pretend to like you to be nice”…”I’m so disappointed in you.” This girl was trying hard to keep those thoughts out of her head. She drowned her soul with blaring music. The tears were threatening to fall, yet she kept holding them back. She told herself that she’s stronger than that. That she’s been through far worse than this. She know that all the things that her parents told her aren’t true, yet at the moment it feels like it’s all true.  At this very moment, I’m falling apart. I hate that all of this is, in fact, my life. It’s just something that I have to deal with and get past.

[thegoodgirlwithatwist]

She wanted to whisper a million things to him—all the things she didn’t say—but she couldn’t. So instead she leaned forward and let her lips show him. His lips were hesitant at first, as if overthinking if he was going to regret doing it. And then they softened under hers. His hand came to the back of her neck, as her hands pressed over his chest. There was a lot of pain in that kiss. There was so much hurt and so much fear in it. She felt tears rolling down the both of their faces. But, in that kiss, there was even more want. They both wanted to smother out that pain, to not have so many horrible things in the all too recent past, to just be normal, to do the type of things they were supposed to be dealing with besides everything that happened.

(via thegoodgirlwithatwist)