It's my soul. It isn't yours anymore

Nineteen. Canadian.Variety Blog. Semi-Hiatus

[despondent-soul]

Allow yourself to let go of toxic people. It will be hard, but you can do it.

I am so happy now that you’re gone. (via despondent-soul)

[despondent-soul]

Allow yourself to let go of toxic people. It will be hard, but you can do it.

I am so happy now that you’re gone. (via despondent-soul)

[brokenheartedcubscout]

[despondent-soul]

Allow yourself to let go of toxic people. It will be hard, but you can do it.

I am so happy now that you’re gone. (via despondent-soul)

[sheismysquishy]

Anxiety is panicking about being late and then sitting in the parking lot for 20 minutes because you are so early

[place0fperfecti0n]

I’m not sure why things happened the way they did, I’m not sure why we met on the first of may and I’m not sure why i ended up in mo. sometimes i still think about it all. but i do not regret it, that year taught me more about life, love, and most importantly myself than i ever thought it would. i became a better version of myself because of it. you taught me what i want in someone, and what i should expect from someone, i hope my future wife has some of the qualities i loved about you. you taught me to look for someone who will cover my room in sticky notes, or buy a huge bear just bc I’m sad, you taught me to look for someone who will hold me as i sob uncontrollably on the bathroom floor, and not look at me any differently because of it. in a way because of you, i learned what it was like to love someone with a mental illness, i watched you love me through it, and in a way it taught me how to love myself through it. i didn’t know it at the time, but i do now. some days i was so sad i didn’t even have the energy to wash my own hair and so you did it for me, i would shake and so you would hold me every night. when i thought i couldn’t ever smile again you sang to me in the car. i am not sure why things ever happened the way that they did, but a tiny piece of me is happy that they did. i have washed my hair without the help of your fingertips 74 times, i have slept tangled in blankets rather than in you for 63 nights, i have driven countless miles with an empty passenger seat, i have listened to hundreds of songs without your voice belting the lyrics. i never wanted things to end the way they did. I’m not sure why things happened the way they did, but I am thankful that they did. Hurting me is the best thing you ever did for me, partially because of you i have learned to love myself, you hurting me forced me to learn to love me without the help from you. I am a stronger me than we ever were an us.

And so I thank you, thankyou for hurting me, thankyou for making me that much stronger. (via place0fperfecti0n)

[poems-and-words]

[poems-and-words]

Book of the day: After You’d Gone by Maggie O'Farrell

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[despondent-soul]

Allow yourself to let go of toxic people. It will be hard, but you can do it.

I am so happy now that you’re gone. (via despondent-soul)

[despondent-soul]

Allow yourself to let go of toxic people. It will be hard, but you can do it.

I am so happy now that you’re gone. (via despondent-soul)

[deeplifequotes]

Love yourself first, because that’s who you’ll be spending the rest of your life with.

Unknown (via deeplifequotes)

[as-z-goes]

No one will ever understand how fast I shut down when people start yelling

[memeleanor]

I literally fucking despise that 200k note post that’s like “everything that people tell you is a lie college is not any better than high school” like why would you post or reblog something like that to an audience of high schoolers who most likely are already worried and un-optimistic for their futures????? This website creates so much unnecessary stress for so many people already

[harryedward]

College is better than high school because: You get to choose your own classes and what time you want to go to them. There is usually more diversity so a greater chance you’ll make friends. Class is cancelled emails. There are really cool events. You’ll probably have more school pride. You get to wear whatever you want. Everyone is usually chill. There’s millions of clubs. Lots of parties. Lots of opportunities. The reason people say those things is because they haven’t made the most out of college. You aren’t gonna have fun in college unless you allow yourself to have fun. Like yes there’s a lot of work and yes it can be hard and stressful, but college is what you make it. It’s all up to you to have a good time or a bad one.

[zaynskid]

^^ yes yes yes and also: the fact that you’re choosing your own classes means you care more about most of them so the work doesn’t feel tedious or pointless!! you get breaks between class so you’re not sprinting from one desk to the next!! and you can eat on your own schedule. teachers generally respect you and treat you as an equal! you don’t have to wake up and get ready for your day at the crack of dawn (cannot express how much this improves the quality of life). there’s almost always something to do or somewhere to go on the weekends, you spend wayyy less time in the classroom and get to work independently, and the freedom to make your own decisions is exhilarating. i hated high school so much that i almost didn’t go to college – applied super last minute and now i’m finishing my freshman year and happier than i’ve been in years. hang in there highschoolers!!! i promise it can get so much better. 

[labias]

Not to sound vain or anything but I love when people say my name first before they talk to me or message me I love when people say my name it’s like music to my ears and heart and soul

[despondent-soul]

someone: so, what do you do?

me: i spend hours mentally preparing to do small tasks that are essential to the bare minimum of survival.

[petalsoftie-blog]

side effects of being numb due to mental illness:

not crying for weeks and weeks on end til one day breaking down over something not actually worth getting upset for

not being able to tell if your feelings for people are platonic or romantic or if you’re just lonely 

instead of caring too much not caring at all about anything 

not being able to process anything going on in your life and when you try your brain stalling out

losing your train of thought every five seconds so when you try to have a conversation having to pause and remember what you were trying to say 

word vomiting 

mind ‘STATIC’

[neutralmilkh0e]

[straightboyfriend]

i need a tall boyfriend so he can get things for me off tall places

[straightboyfriend]

i changed my mind boys are demons ill buy a ladder