Hi tumblr long time no see. I think nobody uses this anymore ( at least nobody I know)
So I can write that here :
I don’t know what to do anymore I really feel like shit. I’m falling into old habits like self harm .... I’m so stressed atm. University is so damn hart. I mean it’s really interesting and I like being a student but I have to write exams next month and that’s going to be a disaster. I should study but I don’t do it. I just sit there and stare into my books for hours ... what will people think if I drop of the university.. they will think that I’m stupid and a loser. I could take a break but then I have to start over in a year with new people. I’m bad at meeting new people, it’s so stressful. I’m glad that i have met some nice people there i don’t wanna loose them.
The worst thing is that I have the feeling that I have nobody to talk to. Some people don’t care or they have other problems. I don’t want to be a burden for anyone. I can’t talk to my husband, he has so much work atm and is so stressed himself. My mother has really Stress because it’s possible that she’s losing her house ( it stressed me out too) and my friends have their own life.
Stress at the university. Stress in the Family. Im anyways in pain because of my legs ... I hate every moment of my life
