I canāt believe I went through all of Season 2 assuming Nina was the stand-in for Crowley when you actually pay attention itās so CLEAR that sheās Aziraphale. I was tricked by her spiky, sarcastic, cynical outer shell and lulled into a false sense of security by Maggieās bubbly optimism and wholesome goodness, because on the surface they reflect the ineffable husbands perfectly, in their personalities, their aesthetics, even many of their actions and morals. but not, and this is the real key, when it comes to their ārelationshipā. but those first impressions really had me damn fooled.Ā
I missed the blatantness of Ninaās āweāre just friends. actually weāre not friends. we barely know each other.ā the same thing Aziraphale said in season 1.Ā the way he still struggles to quantify their friendship when Nina asks. Ninaās sarcasm when Crowley asks about rain and awnings because it worked for him (we all know it LMAO). hell, that whole convo the girls have in the rain is so AziraCrow (āI know. Iām not your typeāĀ āā¦You have no ideaā hits so much harder the second time, help meeeee.) āLindsayā maybe being symbolic of Heaven and Aziraphaleās toxic relationship with them and their abuse? (the handwritten text messages in red pen make me think of angry notes on paperwork, anyone else?) because Crowley has never actually cared about what Hell thinks of him, just not getting into trouble (or him or Aziraphale getting hurt). Maggie is always chasing Nina. NINA NEVER GOES IN THE RECORD STORE. Just like Crowley always goes to the bookstore, to Aziraphale, Zira NEVER WENT TO THE FLAT (apart from The Swap but that doesnāt count imo). Crowley has always chased Zira, not the other way around. Always there to rescue him, always going to him for company, always relying on their shared connection, always US.Ā OUR SIDE. All through season one, he comes to Zira every time to work together, never trying to work alongside Hell in any way that isnāt to save their skins or Earth, while Zira hides things from Crowley because he STILL thinks Heaven is ultimately good and will do the right thing if he can just show them. fix it from the inside.Ā
Maggie working up the courage to finally say something, to put herself out there, while Nina is utterly oblivious and then when she does realise Maggie has feelings, becoming standoffish, putting up that barrier, fighting it, denying it, ITS SO CROWLEY AND AZIRAPHALE IN THAT ORDER.Ā the way I was fooled into thinking Ninaās trust issues are Crowley because he does have trust issues ofc he does BUT Crowley has ALWAYS TRUSTED AZIRAPHALE. has always relied on him. has always been hurt when Aziraphale doesnāt immediately reciprocate the way he expects (the holy water request, the bandstand, theĀ āoff in the starsā etc). heās always the one putting himself forward. Aziraphale has always been the one to second guess everything, to fight their connection, their similarities, their friendship. the girls really made me think it was going to be okay when they sat Crowley down, even as my inner sirens were going haywire about Metatron interfering, they were telling Crowley he just needs to open up and itāll all work out BUT HEāS ALREADY AT THAT POINT. he may not say it, and by gosh is that part of their damn problem, but heās always SHOWN IT. heās not Nina who needs time to heal and recover from her broken trust, heās always been Maggie believing it doesnāt matter, theyāll end up together in the end anyway AND I WALKED RIGHT INTO THE TRAP THAT THIS MEANT THEY WERE GOING TO BE OKAYYYYYYYYYYY
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