[ TW Suicidal Ideation, Gore, Horror, Sexual Content that is unrelated to the former ]
We arrived today outside of a cabin, Edward was holed up inside in true Edward fashion. When we got inside, he’d tied a noose from the rafters. Now, I don’t know if that was a fail-safe– something to end it if he started slipping into the Void, or if it was there– just like Roland’s shot gun– as a comfort.
These Dead Sun people don’t know shit about the Orb, and just as we were telling them what their leader should have already told them– It came. I think the Autarch gets faster every time it comes. Eilithe’s husband and..dog, whatever the fuck that thing is, they stayed up with the thing. Somehow survived too.
We stopped in a tent town, and if it hadn’t been for Sev and Kurel’s fucking mouths we could have saved a lot of people tonight. Well, I guess it wasn’t Sev’s mouth, it was her fucking gun and her lack of being able to speak.
Like all people followed by the Void, we settled on the church, and here I sit waiting for night to pass. There is a powerful presence here of Light, but I feel it being swallowed by darkness. And I cannot get WIllhelm’s last words out of my head.
“Beware the taint below.”
We’re chasing the Soul of the North. The orb has to be completed.
Roland’s checked out today- I think he’s waiting for something to break down the church’s doors but nothing ever comes. We slept a good portion of the day– at least Dead Sun did, so then we went about exploring the church. Dev found a load of shit–Peter was fucked off with the real weird priestess elf. Turns out she almost killed the priest that’s running this place.
He’s got to be connected to this place– because whatever that elf and Peter did, it fucked the Light around us. The whispers almost got to the half-elfie, she said she heard her mother.
Light and Tide, I wish I didn’t know what that felt like.
We found a map among the other things in the church, it’s hand drawn with not a lot of detail, but it has.. off shoots, with red ‘x’s. Whomever made this was looking for our relic when means it was probably one of ours.
I want to recall tonight’s events, exactly as I remember them.
We left the safety of the church’s light. Edward stayed behind because if any of us should survive it should be poor, sweet Eddie. Like we all decided, we headed West. The worst part seemed like it was going to be deciding whether to go left or right, we still had daylight– but Fate is a cruel bitch to Blackholm and I think now Dead Sun finally understands that.
I’d been having that dream, where the Ripper got at me like it did Sheila.It was too fast and it went straight for me– got me in the gut and if I hadn’t been so lucky as to get it with an arrow, it’d have tore my stomach out before the rest of them has a chance to get to me. It got that little Velly, and then it got Dev.
I’ve never seen one of those Illidari in full transformation like that. Some how Ro’s pup Grits pinned that thing down, but I think it was Peter’s torch that kept it immobile. That thing hates the light– any kind of light. Dev- or demon Dev ripped into that thing the way it has so many of my own. He’d have killed it, if the things didn’t crack out of it’s shell and slither away into the night.
We didn’t have time to wait for it to come back with three of us bleeding. Treated out wounds in a nearby house. Peter is a useful boy, I tell you that much. We found our way into the tunnels then.
There’s nothing ever good that comes from paintings of the dead. The first we saw was Luther Blackholm’s–and it said below it ‘four lefts make a right’. Like Ro said, Luther was nothing if he wasn’t paranoid. The very next portrait I saw? Gran’s. Looked like the mean old bitch I remembered, but I couldn’t look long- not with that feeling of dread in my stomach because I knew that something was wrong with them. My Gran’s painting said something ‘Right is never right’
The Demon elf and his..wife, if that’s what she is, found a picture of the old manor. Dev stared at it too long, which is baffling, in that he has no eyes. Peter got roped in and then shouted something about how they weren’t going to take his eyes, not yet. Dev says he saw me, Eddie, and Ro–in the painting of Blackholm manor.
Inside of that room, the stench was foul. It was only after that I learned the source of that was Bertrand West– which meant Clarice was somewhere dead nearby. Shame- because for all of the curse, I think they loved each other, but in my experience, loving someone only makes your death more violent.
The most important thing in that room was the horn- which Dev’s wife picked the lock on it’s case. Ro took it so delicately, but that didn’t matter- Dev was screaming about runes unraveling.
Then It came, Ro and I could feel it.
I never run faster than when that thing is behind me, and Ro was right there before he wasn’t. It came out of a fucking wall, like it was nothing but paper when it was heavy stone and wood. It hit Ro hard enough that he shifted.
Everything else happened so quickly, I told the others to run–Ro told me to run, but I couldn’t. And it wasn’t because of the horn, wasn’t because of the stone around his neck– it was because I didn’t want him to be the next name in the book.
I cannot say how, but we made it out. Eilithe’s husband and Velly ran off, I think they were hoping that giving the horn to Eilithe’s shadow- dogman thing would have worked in their favor, but the thing didn’t move. The Autarch attacked it- but the thing moved almost as fast as the Autarch. That has me wondering just what the fuck Eilithe is.
When the tunnel collapsed, I cannot lie, my heart sank. But in true Roland fashion, he came slinking out at the last minute holding a limp arm.
We’re celebrating a bright night, a victory against the Void. When we came out of those tunnels the moon was high and the air was lighter. And I’ll drink to that every time.
When we left the park tonight, we barely made it around the corner before he was shoving his hands down the back of my pants. Truth told, the last thing I should have been doing tonight was fucking Roland Murray, because there isn’t a man alive that fucks as hard as one that knows he’s going to die a painful death by his own hand or some Void creature’s.
I miss him every time we go in different directions, and both of us know that’s not good for the cause. Yet every time, we end up tangled in sheets, with one or both of us having narrowly escaped death. He’s the type of man that’s rough as he is gentle, there’s a certain tenderness to the rutting.I think if I was able, I’d love Roland more than I already do.
Those things that are out of my reach. I can’t begin to fathom how my mother or grandmother ended up with babies. The Void doesn’t give a fuck if your with child. It doesn’t care if you love him– it doesn’t care if you’re mid- throes of passion. It comes and it takes.
I’m looking over and Ro is finally sleeping like he should. I know he’d be pissed if I didn’t keep watch, but tonight was worth celebrating. And that means I’m going to curl up under his arm right after this and sleep.
If we’re lucky tomorrow will be another bright night. As many times as he’ll have me, I’ll reward him for what he did in those tunnels tonight. When he wakes up sore- I’ll be atop him for comfort, and I plan to talk him into taking at least a day off.
Even if the moon doesn’t show tomorrow, at least we’ll have had tonight in peace and ecstasy.
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