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So I once received access to photoshop 6 via a friend on here. I love it and still use it to this day. What I'm wondering is if any of my fantastic friends know how to get the latest ps as I'm excited to try it but can't afford their crazy price for usage. Monthly fees, really?anyone able to assist?

#ooc #i need it #i wanna play with new features #please and thank you

I honestly don't know anymore.

I feel lost and alone and hated in my own life.

Why am I so unlovable?

#ooc #shit just hit the fan #and im so damn lost #im drowning out here #and he doesnt even care

Daddy Clark is my favorite Superman atm not gonna lie.

Also, I had my baby for anyone of my friends that still see my posts. She's adorable and perfect and I love her very much. If we're friends, toss me a msg if you wanna see a pic of this cuteness.

Or just msg me to say hi, cause I miss you guys.

xoxo

#ooc #daddy clark with tylers face #is fucking perfect okay #also i love my daughter so much #shes a week old and im excited for more

Hi, I love you guys. I hope everyone is well so far in this new year.

We're getting closer to April which means baby is almost here. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. Kev can't find shit for work with this court case going on, so he's helping where he can in other ways. My hours got cut at work which means I'm even more pressed while trying to find a place for us to live. We have an amazing landlord at this private rental but it's a travel trailer, that's way to small for us four plus baby when she comes.

I just wish we could find something I could afford but I'm afraid even if we do, I'll be stuck floundering should the judge/jury take dumbass' side and sends Kev to jail. I don't know what I'll do if that happens. Ugh. Message me on discord and I will respond, I need some attention from my people here when ever you guys get the chance. Smooches. ❤️

#ooc #you guys are the best #hit me up here for my discord #if you dont already have it #ill check back periodically #and if anyone wants to donate to our baby savings let me know

I just love being homeless and spending all our money on hotels, holding out breath waiting to find out if we got the apartment we applied for. Which who knows, given his mother may have screwed us by having him arrested. Those charges may be what get our denial. Fun times. 👌

I'm just done existing.

#ooc #she screwed us over so bad #and wants to bad mouth him #and what a pos he is #yet she chose an alcoholic abusive ahole #over her own family #good times

As messed up as it's made our living situation. I'm proud of one thing right now. At 31 years old, thinking I'd never have a chance to physically have my own child, I am pregnant. I know some that know me may have their own opinions on my relationship, and I've ranted about our problems to friends before, but we're doing so much better as a couple now. And this little peach (which is about how big she is) is honestly making it better. I understand the hardships ahead, but I'm ready for them. Those on here that knew, thank you for the love and support you've already given. I couldn't have asked for better people in my life. ❤️

#ooc #i love the friends ive made here #i know im not around really at all #and im sorry my muse to write has disappeared #but im still HERE #if anyone wants to talk #or ask for my discord #im here.#i love you guys so much #youve saved me from some dark days #and continue to do so every time we talk #or i read our old rps #youre the best of people #thank you.

So boyfriend's mom went and got him arrested, for defending himself against her pos bf's drunk ass. Yeahhh. She found out something we weren't ready for her too, and immediately went off on Kev about how "immature" we are and how she's tired of taking care of him. Like lady, we might live in your house but we're working to take care of ourselves. And we were making progress too, which she just threw a wrench in because there's a no contact order and Kev can't go back to the house.

So we have to find somewhere else to go and it's already been a difficult ass process, trying to clear what debts I can with my dad's help and find housing that'll work for us. We just needed more time and she's sped up that clock. I hope she knows what she's losing by choosing that man over her own son. Life just can't get enough of beating us up when we're down. Any time we get even a little ahead, some shit happens and I'm tired of it. I really am.

#ooc #got too much to deal with already #and next to no money to do it with #and now we're basically homeless #cause im not staying where kev isnt welcome #and we're taking the girls #we just need to find a place #or a friend #to put us up for a bit #ugh. save me.

How the fuck you going to be an alcoholic, abusive, piece of shit - and still get away with obvious assault? When the other person was DEFENDING themselves, and ends up being the one carted off to jail. Nah. You should have been cuffed and arrested, not him.

You're a piece of absolute garbage and I hope karma finds you with your pants down. You've ruined our lives and I hope that bitch standing by you, and not her own blood, understands just what you've ruined for her.

#ooc #i stg i hate the system #when a drunk can get no charges #but the person defending themselves #gets multiple #YOU attacked HIM #not the other way around #but here we are #how tf is that fair?

Really feeling that Kylo Ren vibe today.

I know what I have to do, but I don't know if I have the strength to do it.

#ooc #im so lost #and feeling it more every day #i hate this feeling #i juat want my little bean of happiness #but how do i pick one #knowing ill lose the other

nightprompts

my writing partner: hey i kinda ship our muses!

me, an angst writer: haha are you sure about that?

#ooc #;about the mun #basically me with every ship #i can make it cute #but also the angst is real bruh

I just need to vent.

And scream in to the void.

Then I'll be okay.

Maybe I should go to therapy.

#ooc #shit has gotten crazy #i have twovawesome supportive coworkers #but theyre still practically strangers #and my own family cant listen for shit #they only look down on me in everything i do

compatiissante:

“in my defense, my main priority was coming home and staring at the ceiling until my body finally decided to let me sleep.”

“ i’m hurt love, not even a bit of consideration for me? i’ve gone and bought you snacks and even a few new things you might like. least you could’ve done is brought me a little sip of someone. “

#compatiissante #c: kol #how's life sweetie