Ēva Devingelien

I write to respire and I sing but most are cacophonies ~

[devingelien]

for three hundred and sixty days or so, she lives the life she knows; quietly, without him.

then comes a day like this; when memory drifts back, gentle as breath, whispering of another time.

and for a moment, just one moment, her world feels full with him again.

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

he finds her in every corner and at every turn he takes, with his eyes closed and open, he’ll see her everywhere.

whereas she’s unable to find him anywhere, she could only see him when her eyes are closed and she’s being sent to a faraway dream.

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

first day of the tenth month, an explosion of colours has unraveled in front of my eyes; i am alive.

- Ēva Devingelien

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your DNA is engraved in every new connection I make; we’re onto the eleventh today, yet your touch lingers on me still.

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

my hands tremble at the thought of you, always itching to write you, to write of you, to write for you; endlessly, yet never reaching you.

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“after all this time, after a decade of loving you, after countless dreams of endlessly inhaling you; there we were, three days apart from one another, but I was finally exhaling you.”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“a newborn could never remember being loved for the first time. but here’s me who remembers being a newborn loved by you.”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“the perfect autumn occurs when the 1st of october arrives; and the perfection lingers on.”

- Ēva Devingelien

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“he’s had his black coffee, she’s had her white tea; but their kisses afterwards tasted nothing like black and white.”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“and with ache all over my body but love filling my soul; October has come to end.”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

a decade of…

the us of ten years; when everything started, ended, and got us reunited again, all on the tenth month.

[devingelien]

“on a day similar to this day, his heart prayers were listened to; he has been presented a soulmate for life to never forget.”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“only the fondness of his memory remains inside of her heart when the clock ticks the seventh day of the tenth month.”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“it’s october once again and this autumn’s candle has been ignited,

with the door of my heart the memories of you rushingly collided,

a decade of time passed us by, and still you visit me uninvited,

or am i the only one who believes the lie i told myself and you’ve always been invited?

all the messages sent by the universe have left me nothing but misguided,

shall i keep you? shall i leave you? do we both think what we have for one another is unrequited?

my state of being lies in the equilibrium of being blinded, undecided, and forever to you ‘bounded’,

your words living within me, surrounding me, inspiring me to make us a new story, so let’s rewrite it.

this autumn’s candle has been lit, so when will it be the time for us to be united?”

- Ēva Devingelien

[devingelien]

“we argue more than we kiss. so why are we still doing this?” in his desperation he whispered to her.

to which she grabbed his face closer to hers as she whispered back, “so let's make up for that, let's make out for that.”

and they sealed their deal with one final endless kiss.

- ēva to her adam

[devingelien]

“take care of your heart, my heart.”

- ēva to her adam

[devingelien]

this headache is real. evenmoreso is the heartache. is it a bless or a curse for both of them to bond over being a complete wreck?

- Ēva Devingelien