feeling a little unlike myself.

INACTIVE (jan 2019 - sept 2020) hi im leah, 21. trying to reconcile my existence with the inherent horrors of personhood.

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dark dumb academia: sleeping through your alarm, not remembering anybodys names, forgetting everything you ever read as soon as you set foot into a lecture hall, getting lost on campus, accidentally addressing a professor by their first name, pulling on a door that clearly says 'push', missing the last bus home bc you were petting the campus cat

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yeah we gay.. keep scrolling

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heres some tags for the [redacted] project

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my prof: if you got like three pages, thats fine

me, with 12 pages of notes on paradise lost:

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here’s a list of CANON quotes that make my head absolutely spin with madness:

“Die Prinzen dieser Welt träumten davon, ein Gesicht wie Will Reckless zu haben.”

“Das feine, helle Haar, die blauen Augen, der weiche, fast weibliche Mund, er hatte sogar Wimpern wie ein Mädchen. Und man hätte Honiggläser mit seiner Sanftmut füllen können.”

“...aber beim Anblick der Jade in Will Reckless’ Haut überlief Nerron zum ersten Mal das ehrfürchtige Schaudern, das andere ihm beschrieben hatten”

“Der Welpe suchte seinen Blick, mit Augen, die gescheckt waren von Gold. Er bewegte sich anders, als er auf die Füße kam, geschmeidig wie ein Goyl.”

“Aber er wollte nicht denken. Er wollte ihn nur ansehen.”

“Die Jade war Schuld. Nerron spürte die Ehrfurcht, die er bei ihrem Anblick empfunden hatte immer noch.”

“Der Welpe machte keinen Versuch ihn aufzuhalten, aber als Nerron sich irgendwann umsah, blickte er ihm immer noch nach.”

“Von beiden Brüdern betrogen. Warum verzieh er diesem so viel leichter? Warum ritt er dem Welpen weiter nach […]?”

“Die Jade. Nerron hasste es, dass er das Wort nur denken musste, um die Ehrfurcht und die Sehnsucht zu spüren. Nach was? Nach was, verflucht?”

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:(

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We need more representation for people in their third year of college with no friends

[kuutamosonaatti]

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where does the immense need for unending validation from professors come from

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doctor faustus is just good omens which is just paradise lost which is just dante’s inferno which is just the chilling adventures of sabrina which is just riverdale. everything is exactly the same

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august reading

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:)

[fortuneaday]

[A white fortune cookie paper with black text on the front and an icon of a bee. It reads: An excellent message will be sent to you sometime this week.]

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also im :/ bc i know one of my profs will probably be on campus tmrrw as well and id love to talk to them but i feel annoying and just... bad already.

[seekingsecondbreakfast]

“The Triumph Of Achilles”, Louise Glück

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any piece of media: okay so get this. there are these two characters, right? one of them is associated with cool colours, the other one with warm colours. and the characters have opposing character traits. one of them is hot headed, impulsive and upbeat. the other one is reserved, guarded and careful.

me: yeah, im listening.

any piece of media: great, so now get this: they start out as rivals that eventually become lovers after realising how much they care about each other.

me, frothing at the mouth: [unintelligible]

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hmmm so one of my former school friends used to joke that she couldnt remember my birthday (but always did). this year is the first year she actually forgot. hurts a little more than expected.