So I just realised its been a week since it all happened. I'm not sure if I'm feeling better or worse but who knows its been a week. I was looking through my Spotify the other day and noticed your account linked to some playlists I followed. You know the 14 one side and 14 the other. It reminded me of when you made me a playlist called My Number One Type 1 and all the songs were about me going into a hypo and you helping me out of it ahahaha. That's where I found the song I'll be your pilot, which I listened to all the time until recently. I can't listen to it anymore, even the first opening melody makes me cry.
But thats besides the point, I found on that account (I know you created many for the free trial) another playlist, something along the lines of "I'm glad you're home cause the piece of my heart you took with you wasn't big enough" or something. And I wondered if it was meant for me, or was made with me in mind. Then I wondered when you had made it. Then I wondered if I was just being stupid and it was all coincidence. But then I saw some of the songs and although I don't know most, three stood out to me.
Here Comes A Thought, which is a beautiful song about relationship issues and from Steven Universe one of my favourite shows. I wonder if you added it because of me.
Hopes and Dreams from Undertale is a musical masterpiece and always makes me feel better from its pure energy. I don't think you added this because of me but I like it anyway.
And then by Ween, Ocean Man. And its the last song which I think if you sent me this playlist would be like one of our inside jokes where I would go feral because of how much that song agitated it ahahaha, but I was only playing. I never really minded it and we made it into a meme together and I kinda grew to like it. I'd like to think you added it because of me.
Ok I'm hungry now and I have no food so I'm gonna go shopping, until I slip into another depression cloud thought.



















