constant reinvention of the hopeful sort

we’ll be scraping the skies with our fingertips, screamin’ this is the life, we were born for this

[dianechen51]

• someone smart explain to me wtf the weather is doing. • mental health rn is ⚠️ so that’s real. • i need a haircut. recs? (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BteHd6qhZZe/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1adjj30le3mbs

[dianechen51]

okay so the most glaring thing of the year is obviously that i have ONE buttonup shirt that works for me. WOW this year. y’all, both personally and professionally i feel like i’ve made leaps and bounds, higher highs and lower lows. it’s been a ride. i’m doing this for myself - listing things that are milestones, things that i should see as steps toward where i want to be, being self-congratulatory. i don’t do it enough, and it holds me back. it’s because of how i grew up, that i cannot ever find myself satisfactory. so here goes. (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsERg9dBR1Q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1mhydzgkfgsot

[beautglow-deactivated20230625]

It’s that time of the year again

[bargalaxies]

congratulations to SANDRA OH for becoming the first-ever asian outstanding lead actress emmy nominee for her role as eve polastri in the bbc america original series killing eve!

[trashboat]

i go absolutely ape shit buck wild when people ask me if i want to run errands with them like Let’s Fucking Go. and my mind absolutely maxes out of dopamine when they ask if i wanna stop for coffee. and if someone took me to the park id go bonkers in funcking yonkers

[trashboat]

i got so high last night that i started ghostwriting for a golden retriever apparently

[sapphicbao]

X

[dianechen51]

honestly still not over this.

[dianechen51]

It’s my face in my show @herewewait, smushing another lady face!

[dianechen51]

If you’re at #clexacon2018, these are my panels! . . . . . . . . . . . . . #lgbtq #asiansinentertainment #queer #pocrepresentation #speaker #panelist #intersectionality #lostgirl #zoiepalmer #annasilk #rachelskarsten #doccubus #valkubus #dianechen #lesbian (at Tropicana Las Vegas)

[dianechen51]

Confession: the three times I was supposed to go to #kravmaga this week, I was either asleep or eating. (at New York, New York)

[dianechen51]

Ever heard of the Bury Your Gays trope? I was lucky enough to be interviewed for a documentary on LGBTQ representation in today’s media, amongst artists that I have admired for a long time. And I am thrilled to announce that Bury Your Tropes will be premiering at ClexaCon! Step by step we’re changing the entertainment industry for the better. Every artist is accountable. Let’s do the work. Original poster design by the inimitable @valentinemichaelsmith!

[officialjameelajamil]

What we need to learn from the Aziz Ansari clusterfuck

This is not actually an article about him, the claw, or anything to do with the night in question that we are all reading about this weekend. I wasn’t there. We haven’t heard his account, and so I have no right, nor inclination, to comment.

But it has indeed sparked an interesting conversation about consent, both technical and more importantly, emotional, and how vital it is to read the room and make sure the other person is not just willing, but damn well enthusiastic. Especially, in my opinion, if that person is the one to be penetrated. You want to enter them. You best ensure you are a welcome guest, not someone who just begged, pressured, guilt-tripped or harassed their way inside.

There are men I know who are respectful and patient in sexual scenarios, who I daresay are actually turned off if a woman isn’t very obviously enjoying herself. These men are sadly the exception, not the norm.

Our society has mislead men. We have allowed pornography to continuously promote that narrative that a woman is a hole for a man to enjoy when and how he feels like it. Very rarely is a woman’s needs paid much/any attention to in porn, and when it is, it’s often illustrated as the woman just happening to enjoy whatever the man does, even if she doesn’t at first, without fail, she always comes round to his brilliant idea, and is the good sport we all hoped she would be.

A lot of pornography is dedicated, quite literally, to the thrill being how much a woman literally didn’t want to have sex at all and how he did it, really violently, anyway. What is going on?  

Then we have music videos where the girls are always practically naked and performing rehearsed dance routines for the men, who are sitting there on their arses, sometimes in outdoor winter layers, doing nothing other than enjoying their needs being met.

Then you have music lyrics which went from, “Try a little tenderness,” to MURDER THAT PUSSY. BEAT THAT PUSSY UP. PUT THAT PUSSY IN A TOASTER. SHRED THE PUSSY AND PUT IT IN THE BIN. THROW THE PUSSY OUT THE WINDOW. FLUSH THE PUSSY DOWN THE TOILET.

(Poor old pussy having a terrible time.)

Our society, the internet, and even our most mainstream media, constantly perpetuate the idea that men do not need to worry about what our needs and boundaries are. They just need technical consent, however that consent is acquired.

CONSENT SHOULDN’T BE THE GOLD STANDARD. That should be the basic foundation. Built upon that foundation should be fun, mutual passion, equal arousal, interest and enthusiasm. And it is any man or woman’s right at ANY time to stop, for whatever reason.

We also need to reassure women that their fear of being thought of as “difficult” “awkward” or god forbid, “frigid,” should be completely eradicated, effective immediately. These are stereotypes created by the patriarchy, about women, to rather astonishingly, douse women in shame for feeling ownership over their own bodies and moving at a pace they are comfortable with. If you think that he won’t call you again because you weren’t ready to meet his sexual needs on his schedule, then HE DOESN’T LIKE YOU VERY MUCH. Women have traditionally been taught to please, to placate and to avoid embarrassing a man. This has to stop, and it has to come from us. If a man asks you to put his penis in your mouth, and you don’t want to, but you do it because you want him to call you again, you are doing yourself a disservice and have to accept some responsibility. If he is not actively pressuring you, but you feel pressured by his eagerness, desperation, or the fear of his disappointment, then it is frankly on YOU to say no and act in honour of your needs. (Obviously in a situation where you feel in any danger at all, this is a completely different case.)

It is fairly modern for women to be allowed to choose who they marry. It is very modern for women to be “allowed” to have casual sex. It is extremely modern for women to ask to have their needs met and for that to be considered an achievement for a man. WHAT EVEN IS FAKING AN ORGASM? What does that say about women’s attitudes towards their role in the bedroom? “I’m going to congratulate him for something he didn’t take the time or make the effort to do?!”  Women’s magazines forever, constantly writing about “how to please him” Very few men’s magazines with titles about “how to give her the orgasm of her life.”

The subliminal messaging is thorough and it is constant.

If a woman is not enjoying herself thoroughly, throughout your entire sexual engagement, and is not delighted about all the things your are doing together, then STOP. YOU ARE FAILING. This should not be your idea of fun. This is not sex. This is just a wank, you are using another body for, regardless of her needs or desires.

Women must learn that “no” is a right, not a privilege.

I hope one day more young women in the public eye, in music videos and on instagram, use their platforms, when being sexual, to promote a balanced approach to arousal, one that promotes pleasure for both parties involved.

I hope men stop singing about putting pussies in blenders and making Pussy humus out of them, or whatever.

I hope the men (who don’t already) actually realise and come to terms with the fact that porn is a bullshit fantasy and learning sex from pornography is like learning how to drive from The Fast and the Furious. A terrible idea.

And I also hope men start to understand one day, that women have been oppressed since the beginning of time. We are only just starting to find our voices and demand equality. Do not abuse our conditioning to bend to your whims. Especially in the bedroom.

“erm…Ok” shouldn’t be encouragement enough for you.

You can and must do better.

[genghiskhanghis]

give rosa diaz a girlfriend 2k16

[genghiskhanghis]

THEY GAVE ROSA DIAZ A GIRLFRIEND 2K17

[dianechen51]

#tbt to the last time I wasn’t sick which was literally the beginning of October at the IAWTV Awards in LA. (Baby’s first Getty 📸) I was once again reminded what an awesome thing it is that I love to do; and that weekend I returned to NYC to snag an acting award from good ol’ @brooklynwebfest! Tides are turning, we’re coming and we won’t stop. Let’s keep listening and demanding actions where there were once only whispers. (Also I hit 1k followers 🤷🏻‍♀️) (at New York, New York)

[dianechen51]

the future. the future storytelling of blackbrownyellowindigenousqueerradical stories will be created by them and us and YES. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #theater #asiansonstage #asianamericanartists #femme #kink #bdsm #queerthenarrative (at Rattlestick Playwrights Theater)

[dianechen51]

In today's edition of art I want to uplift and fellow artists and people that I support with all my heart: @ear360 & @chelseaalisonmoore's film @girl_talk_film_ . This film is a labor of love and a dearly needed one - awareness and justice for intersectionality in the world of lgbtq people today. I'm so proud of Erica and Chelsea, and the entire crew behind this film, for dedicating their voices to stories we DO. NOT. SEE. ENOUGH. I'm also proud to be a part of it. Please - take a look at their seed&spark campaign, follow, support, get this out there. I mean...look at those faces. 🌈 (at New York, New York)

[dianechen51]

☀️🌊🏖👓💙 📸: @ear360 (at Asbury Park, New Jersey)

[dianechen51]

This weekend has been full of questions, trials & tribulations, self-examination and attempts at self-love through it all. A weekend spent celebrating the best in indie theater, finding my place in it as an artist, and thinking on what allyship and complicity mean coming from me. What it means for me to able to celebrate, to experience guilt, all at once. How I can speak up more, despite how terrifying the thought is. How yesterday, today, tomorrow and tomorrow after that require us all to do better. But hey. @ear360 got me these beautiful orchids, and even when I forget to breathe they're here. Still here. If anyone wants to talk, please reach out. Much love.

[dianechen51]

#unfiltered #babealert (at Sandy Hook)