D I A R Y E X P O S E D

christine | melbourne

[iwrite-myheartt-deactivated2016]

If you show me you don’t give a shit, I’ll show you I’m better at it. Even if it kills me.

Never underestimate my ability to hide my feelings Dec 18, 2014 (via ctxbdvl)

[studying-towards-success-blog]

21 Tips to Become the Most Productive Person You Know

I wanted to help you create explosive productivity so you get big things done (and make your life matter). Here are 21 tips to get you to your best productivity.

#1. Check email in the afternoon so you protect the peak energy hours of your mornings for your best work. 

#2. Stop waiting for perfect conditions to launch a great project. Immediate action fuels a positive feedback loop that drives even more action. 

#3. Remember that big, brave goals release energy. So set them clearly and then revisit them every morning for 5 minutes. 

#4. Mess creates stress (I learned this from tennis icon Andre Agassi who said he wouldn’t let anyone touch his tennis bag because if it got disorganized, he’d get distracted). So clean out the clutter in your office to get more done. 

#5. Sell your TV. You’re just watching other people get successful versus doing the things that will get you to your dreams. 

#6. Say goodbye to the energy vampires in your life (the negative souls who steal your enthusiasm). 

#7. Run routines. When I studied the creative lives of massively productive people like Stephen King, John Grisham and Thomas Edison, I discovered they follow strict daily routines. (i.e., when they would get up, when they would start work, when they would exercise and when they would relax). Peak productivity’s not about luck. It’s about devotion. 

#8. Get up at 5 am. Win the battle of the bed. Put mind over mattress. This habit alone will strengthen your willpower so it serves you more dutifully in the key areas of your life. 

#9. Don’t do so many meetings. (I’ve trained the employees of our FORTUNE 500 clients on exactly how to do this – including having the few meetings they now do standing up – and it’s created breakthrough results for them). 

#10. Don’t say yes to every request. Most of us have a deep need to be liked. That translates into us saying yes to everything – which is the end of your elite productivity. 

#11. Outsource everything you can’t be BIW (Best in the World) at. Focus only on activities within what I call “Your Picasso Zone”. 

#12. Stop multi-tasking. New research confirms that all the distractions invading our lives are rewiring the way our brains work (and drop our IQ by 5 points!). Be one of the rare-air few who develops the mental and physical discipline to have a mono-maniacal focus on one thing for many hours. (It’s all about practice). 

#13. Get fit like Madonna. Getting to your absolute best physical condition will create explosive energy, renew your focus and multiply your creativity. 

#14. Workout 2X a day. This is just one of the little-known productivity tactics that I’ll walk you through in my new online training program YOUR PRODUCTIVITY UNLEASHED (details at the end of this post) but here’s the key: exercise is one of the greatest productivity tools in the world. So do 20 minutes first thing in the morning and then another workout around 6 or 7 pm to set you up for wow in the evening. 

#15. Drink more water. When you’re dehydrated, you’ll have far less energy. And get less done. 

#16. Work in 90 minute blocks with 10 minute intervals to recover and refuel (another game-changing move I personally use to do my best work).

#17. Write a Stop Doing List. Every productive person obsessively sets To Do Lists. But those who play at world-class also record what they commit to stop doing. Steve Jobs said that what made Apple Apple was not so much what they chose to build but all the projects they chose to ignore. #18. Use your commute time. If you’re commuting 30 minutes each way every day – get this: at the end of a year, you’ve spent 6 weeks of 8 hour days in your car. I encourage you to use that time to listen to fantastic books on audio + excellent podcasts and valuable learning programs. Remember, the fastest way to double your income is to triple your rate of learning. 

#19. Be a contrarian. Why buy your groceries at the time the store is busiest? Why go to movies on the most popular nights? Why hit the gym when the gym’s completely full? Do things at off-peak hours and you’ll save so many of them. 

#20. Get things right the first time. Most people are wildly distracted these days. And so they make mistakes. To unleash your productivity, become one of the special performers who have the mindset of doing what it takes to get it flawless first. This saves you days of having to fix problems. 

#21. Get lost. Don’t be so available to everyone. I often spend hours at a time in the cafeteria of a university close to our headquarters. I turn off my devices and think, create, plan and write. Zero interruptions. Pure focus. Massive results. I truly hope these 21 productivity tips have been valuable to you. And that I’ve been of service. Your productivity is your life made visible. Please protect it. Stay productive.

See more at: http://www.robinsharma.com/blog/09/become-the-most-productive-person-you-know/#sthash.8b8nnYDA.dpuf

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Small Ways To Improve Your Life

make your bed to immediately make your room look more put together

water first, then coffee or tea

pray or meditate, even just for ten minutes, to set the tone for your day

browse the news headlines ( & read the articles that interest you when you’ve got time)

wear something you feel b o m b in

listen to music while doing your daily activities-commuting, cleaning, cooking, exercising

smile at at least two people

smile at YOURSELF

call or message someone you love

eat food that makes you feel radiant

make lists of things you need to accomplish for the day

stretch for 10 minutes

record in your phone the positive thoughts you have so you can remember them

carry water with you (always always always)

shut off your phone for an hour and have some ME time

take a hot shower or bath at the end of a stressful day

try to make plans to spend time with someone at least once a week

think about 3 things you are grateful for at the end of each day

do something calming, relaxing, and non-electronic 30 minutes before you sleep

sleep pants-less

[diaryexposed]

2014 - 2018

Dec 2018 (drafted but never posted)

I had to break up with someone who I thought I’d spend my life with. 

I never thought I’d actually have to do it but I had no choice.  It wasn’t something I planned to do or something I hoped would happen but it had to happen. I’m glad it did. At the time, I was left in the blue, I wasn’t sure what was happening and I genuinely was sick and tired of this person being “tired” all the time. I didn’t understand what was happening until after I disconnected myself from all his social media platforms. Our friends have been noticing how distant we were becoming and were concerned for us but I just thought perhaps this was just a small phase. I thought we’d get over it and it’ll get better.  In our relationship, I was always hopeful things will get better and at times, it did. However, the amount of times I was manipulated, disrespected and used - countless. His family would contact me - worried about him but he’s not my problem, I don’t even know who he is anymore. Nor do I care for he has no care for me.  Not even one trinklet of respect to at least tell me what was going on.  This psychopath has no empathy, no moral compass and clearly no dignity. As much as I wished this person well - him and his new partner are as digusting as each other and deserve each other. They’re so oblivious by how they are perceived, it’s sad but hilarious all at the same time.

Months before, I felt quite distant from this person. Something was off but I just didn’t know what it was. (Now I know that he cheated on me)  I believed everything this person told me, which now I know were all lies. I don’t think I’ve been this disrespected in my entire life and because this person is egotistic and unapologetic, they will never admit that they’re at fault. Isn’t it so dissapointing to put all your trust into someone and have them not appreciate it one bit? All the times I’ve supported him, were unappreciated. The daily car rides, empty promises, lack of care and disgusting attitude towards family. All the lies. That’s the thing, he always lied. He continues to lie about what really happened and it’s a shame that he is unhappy. So unhappy that he continues to lie - even to his new partner. He is so ungrateful of his reality and does not even respect his life hence he lies his way through everything. 

You hope they’ll be better and everything will eventually work out, until it doesn’t and you realise you can’t let someone drown you anymore. Months before, I found out something that really tampered with my trust towards this person and they did nothing to redeem themselves. They did nothing to try to gain their trust back, even though I was so forgiving and sooo sooo easy on them.  Watching porn is fine but talking and looking at sex workers is not okay. It’s unacceptable. Cheating is not okay. What’s worse is changing the narrative and having the audacity to tell everyone that it was the other way around. Now that’s cowardly and purely fucked. It get’s worse though, she then continues to cyberbully me - like I give a damn? Like who has the time to do such obssessive things like that. I understand that people enter and exit your life for a reason. I know feelings change, just as people do and it’s very natural however, being malice and disrespectful is something I will not tolerate.  To see how things have turned out now, he’s actually a joke. Hiding behind his new girlfriend, feeding her lies :)  I’m glad I have nothing to do with that coward, worthless, pathetic and honestly embarassing child anymore. I wish they would leave me alone. Stop harassing me and continue on with their small little selves. He obviously has so much time on his hands - lying to himself and to everyone around him. Little does he know how everyone else perceives him and it’s unfortunate that these two don’t know any better. They can try to ruin me as much as they can but I am in my own lane. I don’t have time to care what these imbeciles are up to. They can continue watching me, I hope I can inspire them or entertain them because the bullying is just a reflection of them - not me. 

It’s been years yet they continue to bother me. I hope the next time I reflect on my year, they would’ve found another hobby - rather than harassing me thinking it’ll hurt me.

[diaryexposed]

Practice

I’m going to be making more posts on here - to practice and to further my writing. I haven’t done this for a while and it’s therapeutic expressing my thoughts here. 

[diaryexposed]

2022

Wow, it's been a hot minute since I've been on tumblr and I doubt anyone that I used to speak to are still on here. From dealing with the most disgusting person I've ever met to another horrible bitch who won't stop talking about me. I've found peace and success through my new relationships and my blessing of a family/future family in-laws. I'm at a point in my life where the noise does not faze me, in fact, it inspires me to push on further and be better than those who constantly try to pull me back. I'm so confident in my relationship, he treats me like an absolute princess and he makes me feel like a queen, every single day. There isn't a day that goes by where I am not grateful for him and for all the small gestures he does for me. I have never met someone who is so supportive, loving and caring as he is. The most important part is that he's present and he listens. I've never had that. I felt like I was always asking for more but I was barely getting the bare minimum. To many more accomplishments and goals fulfilled. 2022 has already been incredible, I cannot wait for more exciting events to come.

[drakomalfoyyy-deactivated202006]

if i don’t talk to myself who will

[wordsthat-speak]

My heart didn’t break into a thousand pieces after he left. Instead, I realized all the things he didn’t do. He didn’t want to hear my stories. He didn’t ask me questions. He didn’t hug me out of the blue to make me feel good. His hugs were always a preamble to something else, and after he was gone, I wondered if he ever knew me at all.

Diane Les Becquets (via fleurlungs)

[perrfectly]

You ruin your life by desensitizing yourself. We are all afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us. Caring is not synonymous with crazy. Expressing to someone how special they are to you will make you vulnerable. There is no denying that. However, that is nothing to be ashamed of. There is something breathtakingly beautiful in the moments of smaller magic that occur when you strip down and are honest with those who are important to you. Let that girl know that she inspires you. Tell your mother you love her in front of your friends. Express, express, express. Open yourself up, do not harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how you love. There is courage in that.

Bianca Sparacino (via perrfectly)

[quotemadness]

As I grow older, I pay less attention to what people say. I just watch what they do.

Andrew Carnegie (via quotemadness)

[ramblingsofacrazyheart]

There’s nothing sexier than a generous man…with his time and attention and affection. His heart and mind and soul. His true self.

ramblingsofacrazyheart♡ (via ramblingsofacrazyheart)

[meganmayday]

I can put up with a lot but don’t fucking lie to me.

[noorshirazie]

may he devote himself to you with all the gentleness he shows me. lean on him when you feel you cannot carry yourself any further. let him help you remember how to walk again.

Noor Shirazie, to my future child. (via analyticalangel)

[chaucit0-deactivated20210105]

So much working, reading, thinking, living to do! A lifetime is not long enough.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via shesmydulcinea)

[thequotejournals]

Very few of us are what we seem.

Agatha Christie (via astonishingly)

[thequotejournals]

I promise you, no one judges me more harshly than I do myself; I caused a brilliant wreckage. Some say I fell from grace; they’re being kind. I didn’t fall – I dove.

Sue Monk Kidd, The Mermaid Chair (via wordsnquotes)

[frequents]

Love doesn’t hurt. Expectations do.

life (via frequents)