[diaryofascottishgirl]

Breakfast:

A bowl of ready break with unsweetened soya milk and then a pear. Roughly around 300 calories, I think. My app isn't working.

[diaryofascottishgirl]

So I decided to return once again, and looking through my old posts was quite a shock. I've put on a stone since then so to see a photo of myself with a flat tummy and me thinking I was still fat really got to me. Now that I've put more weight on, I've realised just how much I had progressed before. Shame. I want to get back to how I was. Stat.

[gym-fit]

[diaryofascottishgirl]

Day 2.

I ate a lot for lunch today! I came back from the gym and I was famished, it was all healthy stuff though.

At the gym I attended a half hour ab class, then followed it with 45 minutes on cardio and 15 minutes on weights.

[gym-fit]

[myafit]

[femalefitnessmadness]

[diaryofascottishgirl]

I'm back! And I'm back on track. For the first time ever, I've joined a gym. I've realised that running just wasn't doing it for me. Here's are todays stats.

[coffee-intensifies-deactivated2]

Which phrase would you rather hear:

Welcome to Camp Half-Blood.

Yer a wizard.

I’m the Doctor.

The name is Sherlock Holmes.

???

[redact-a-blog]

what would blended cucumber taste like

[fyoras-holy-butthole-blog]

isn’t that an actor

[fitspoholic]

[healthiness-happiness]

[diaryofascottishgirl]

I hate myself.

I came so far, my body was improving as was my health, then I crashed and never recovered. The past month I have been binging every. single. day. And the worst of it? I've gotten into the habit of purging because I'm so disappointed in myself. I look disgusting. I feel disgusting.

I need to stop.

I need help.

But first, I need to purge.

[the-more-u-know]

[thisisavision]

Really cool little infographic.

[bestbrit-deactivated20180825]

Agreed! Hopefully this puts it in perspective for people who think eating one “bad” meal (fries and a Big Mac for example) will instantly make them gain weight. 

[fit-is-healthy]

LOOK AT THIS

[diaryofascottishgirl]

I'm so disgusted with myself. I've been horrible to my body.

I've been eating 800 calories a day, soup for lunch and whatever for dinner. And ... for the first time yesterday, I purged. Because I was eating so little, I binged big time yesterday but then I panicked so I brought it back up.

I'm actually scared of myself, scared at how I'm becoming with this whole weight loss thing. But I can't stop. I NEED to lose weight. I just can't go down that purging route.

Ugh.

[healthyabby-blog]

[healthyabby-blog]