Something that has been on my mind lately is how Aziraphale, in the bandstand, asked for Crowley to be forgiven (by God) for his lack of faith.
To which Crowley responded, "I won't be forgiven. Not ever. It's part of a demon's job description. Unforgivable, that's what I am."
And Aziraphale argues that he'd been an angel, but eventually, he realizes it was indeed a long time ago, and it kills him. Aziraphale knows it isn't fair that Crowley is unforgivable, and he disagrees with the "job description." He doesn't want to admit it, but many things happen at the bandstand, and one of them is him realizing just how much faith he has in Crowley. So much, that he finds himself disagreeing with God on something fundamental (for demons).
His faith in Crowley is bigger than his faith in God at this moment, and that scares him.
He's already having a crisis of faith.
This isn't to say it's his first one, don't be mistaken, but this specific moment of crisis is important. Aziraphale panics and completely calls off Their Side, because he needs to put all his faith in God for the time being. He cannot afford to question where to put his faith - in Crowley or in God.
(Like I said, many things happened in the bandstand. That was not the only reason Aziraphale called it off. But I believe it played its part.)
His next move is, after all, to talk to God because he has faith in Her and believes everything will be resolved if he just talks to Her.
Before he does that, though, when Crowley shows his lack of faith again (same thing as before), Aziraphale is the one forgiving him this time.
His stance on forgiveness changed since the bandstand - now he's taking it upon himself to forgive Crowley, who had previously said he's unforgivable. And before he says it, he looks at him as if he's remembering what Crowley said about being unforgivable. He's essentially saying, "God may not forgive you, God may say you're unforgivable, but I don't think you are, I forgive you."
It's ironic how that happens right before he's about to put all his faith in God, desperate to be proven right, just to be met with the Metatron's floating head, whose words are making him question his faith even further.
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