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[diefor]

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[diefor]

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[cryfor]

@diefor said "i won't lose you again."

her heart beats erratically as she slowly sits up from mitsuki’s smoke infused couch. the couch her and mitsuki had sex on last night after their friend’s wedding. then proceeded to spend the rest of the night curled up in each other’s arms as they slept. the smell of cigarettes clings to the blanket pressing against her bare skin as well as her hair. aya finds it a little too comforting and that realization scares her somewhat. she knew she still harbored feelings for her ex girlfriend, but didn’t realize all it would take to reconnect was seeing each other again face to face.

if she wasn’t naked under the blanket she would have stood up. instead she casts a look of disbelief at mitsuki’s way and scoffs. “it took you eight years to decide that? it took a night of sex with me for you to decide that?”

of course aya felt the same, but upon waking up she intended to keep those feelings to herself. not just because she feared mitsuki didn’t feel the same, but because she’s afraid of getting her heart broken by the same girl who destroyed it the first time. it’s been eight years since they’ve been together, surely they weren’t even the same people anymore. but last night…aya definitely felt like she was with the mitsuki she knew and loved all those years ago.

[diefor]

the smell of cigarettes was dull to mitsuki's senses. it was a scent she was far too familiar with, and in that moment it was secondary to aya's perfume — something soft and feminine that always made mitsuki feel a little weak. she had been lying awake for a while now. eyes glued to the ceiling, arms wrapped aya, and her mind swimming with far too many thoughts for her to comprehend. all she knew is that something finally felt right. like everything she had felt was missing from her had returned all at once.

i won't lose you again . . . the words had been spoken barely above a whisper. like it was a promise she was making just for herself and hadn't expected aya to hear. contrary to what aya had assumed, it hadn't taken eight years and one night back in bed with her for mitsuki to decide that she had made a mistake. it was that very day when things came to end that mitsuki had realized just how royally she had fucked everything up.

the breakup had been amicable. long distance wasn't working out for either of them and between mitsuki's busy schedule and the time difference, it felt like they barely spoke to each other. so they decided to end it before they started to resent each other. at least if they couldn't be together, they could at least keep their friendship. that same night when she went to bed in her shitty apartment in southern california is when it finally dawned on her that this was all her fault.

even if it were amicable, she new that her decision to move to america without aya was what truly ruined things between them. even if her career were to take off and she made a name for herself here, nothing would ease the guilt she felt and fill that hole beneath her ribcage. she could have swallowed her pride and called aya that very night — pour her heart out, beg for forgiveness. but she couldn't bring herself to face the fact that she had broken aya's heart. her own heartache she could handle, but knowing she had caused aya so much pain was something she couldn't handle.

❝ no, ❞ she replied as an arm stretched out, blindly searching the pack of cigarettes she left on the side table next to the couch. when mitsuki found them, she pulled one out, lighting it and taking a long drag before speaking again. ❝ it took me stepping onto that plane eight years ago. ❞

[diefor]

honestly... mitsuki would love getting high and listening to music. she was meant to be the stoner butch bf.

[miriunasaka]

the guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all / january 2027

[girlfriendfemme]

love when a femme is all dolled up & their butch is lowkey just dressed like adam sandler

[rilkeanheartfemme]

bossy femme x yes ma'am butch

[diefor]

EVERYONE LOCK IN

[diefor]

SHE'S SO HANDSOME

[diefor]

"i think i like your hands" "i'll show them to you whenever you want"

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  platonic  ships  are  just  as  important  as  romantic  ones!  so  here’s  some  dialogue  prompts  for  all  your  friendship  needs!  feel  free  to  change  as  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ remind me why we’re friends again? ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ do you think we’re friends in every universe? ❜

❛ you’re interesting and different and i like that. ❜

❛ i feel like i can tell you anything. ❜

❛ please don’t ever become a stranger. ❜

❛ i like being alone but i’d rather be alone with you. ❜

❛ you’re important to me, you little shit. ❜

❛ i can always count on you. ❜

❛ here, you can borrow my jacket. ❜

❛ i am this close away from strangling you. ❜

❛ no offense, but you look terrible. ❜

❛ do you think we’ll ever stop being friends? ❜

❛ i found this cool rock that made me think of you. ❜

❛ you can sleep over, it’ll be like when we were kids. ❜

❛ here’s a spare key so you don’t have to keep coming in through the window. ❜

❛ that sounds dangerous. i’m in! ❜

❛ we’re still friends, right? ❜

❛ i don’t have a date, so do you wanna be my plus one? ❜

❛ i heard you were feeling sick, so i made you some soup. ❜

❛ i already said i’m paying. you can buy next time, okay? ❜

❛ you’re the best, you know that? ❜

❛ i’m not hitting you, it’s called platonic bdsm. ❜

❛ you’re more family to me than my own family is. ❜

❛ because i like you. because you’re my friend. ❜

❛ i feel like i can be myself around you. ❜

❛ alright, who am i beating up? ❜

❛ you are literally too stupid to insult. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ who needs them. we can have fun on our own. ❜

❛ you deserve every good thing that comes your way. ❜

❛ don’t worry, i’ve got your back! ❜

❛ you’re like, the strongest person i know. ❜

❛ friends don’t lie. ❜

❛ don’t make me regret giving you the aux cord. ❜

❛ you can come over any time. it’s not a problem. ❜

❛ i’m glad to have met you. ❜

❛ you remember the day we became friends? ❜

❛ i know, i know. i’m the best. ❜

❛ no one hurts you and gets away with it. ❜

❛ because you love me! duh! ❜

❛ why do you keep me around? ❜

❛ you’re not getting rid of me that easily. ❜

❛ what would you do without me, huh? ❜

❛ thanks. i really needed this. ❜

❛ what are best friends for? ❜

[diefor]

AAA NEW CHAPTER

[diefor]

if i could be your first real heartache, i would do it over again. ♫

headcanon-based mitsuki koga from sumiko arai's the guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all. / written by bunny (31, they/them).

[cryptid-corpse]

I am the boyfriend that looks like a girlfriend that the killers were talking about.

[diefor]

the amount of playlists i've made for mitsuki is insane. ​we got:

character playlist — songs that either remind me of her or i just think she'd listen to.

mitsuaya playlist — self explanatory.

yearning playlist — my gf and i have plotted that mitsuki had a crush on aya before aya had even started coming to the cd shop. so this is the official playlist mitsuki made for yearning.

me to her playlist — i like to think mitsuki's music has a pale waves vibe to it, so this a collection of pale waves songs that sound like something she would write and release under her pseudonym me to her.

[diefor]

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[cryfor]

“so,” she starts almost nervously, not fully committed yet to the idea she has in mind. “i’m thinking of getting a tattoo. i want something small, but needles kinda make me nervous.” getting her belly-button pierced a couple of years ago made her lightheaded so she isn’t sure how it’ll be having a needle repeatedly probe her skin with ink. the only thing that kept her somewhat calm and grounded was mitsuki being there holding her hand. “if i get one will you come and hold my hand?” // @diefor

[diefor]

"really?" mitsuki had been sitting at the edge of their bed, softly strumming on her guitar until aya had broken the silence. the question had her placing her guitar back in its stand, ready to give aya her full attention. mitsuki scooted further back onto the bed before flopping down next to aya. it was no secret that aya had an aversion to needles, so her wanting a tattoo had come as a bit of a surprise to mitsuki. maybe all the times aya had tagged along to mitsuki's tattoo appointments had slowly opened her up to the idea. "of course," she paused, reaching for aya's hand as reassurance, "i think if you can handle getting your belly button pierced, you'll do fine with a smaller tattoo. what are you thinking of getting?"