My Sadness Is My Own @dimensionhoppingrose - Tumblr Blog

*cough* so uh. how long’s it been, two, three years? Lol. So between Jodie!Doctor (how freaking cute is she?) and the surprisingly regular reviews I still get for APFUTD and AJTT, I thought I’d finally post what I had written for the third story in the series. It’s only two chapters and I don’t plan on going any further, but what the heck, sharing is caring.

Soooooooooooo yeah. Just thought I’d post that for anyone who might be interested lol.

#sam writes #well wrote #these have been sitting collecting dust for YEARS

Wow lookit me, chilling on my DHR dash. I was showing off my layout for this blog to a friend and had a sudden urge to look at my dash so five email guesses later here I am XD Really... really surprised anyone still follows me tbh. Also extremely surprised to find messages in my inbox that are clearly from after I left, and to all those who messaged me: thank you. Your words and the fact that you took the time to reach out knowing I don’t come back here much really just.... makes my heart go :D.

I’ve noticed an uptick on AO3 as far as reviews for APFUTD and AJTT and it honestly amazes me that after two? years? people are still finding that story. I guess I had a bit of an impact after all. Makes me feel pretty good.

So, yeah. Hi. If you’re desperate to follow me or see wtf I’m doing in other fandoms, I’m currently trapped by Steven Universe and Ducktales -- @aperfectpearl and @lenasmagic specifically. Be aware that I am an unashamed fangirl of Pearl and Lena and will defend them to the death. And I bite.

Peace out again, then. If you wanna talk, hit me up on either of those blogs - one’s a side blog off the other and I am ALWAYS THERE.

#Sam Chatters

I thought kudos was the best thing I came across. I have terrible anxiety, even writing this my hands are shaking and my heart is racing. I try to comment on fic but I just sit there and feel physically ill and cant push the submit button and end up deleting it. Kudos gave me a way to let an author know that I loved their story. Before I lurked and had no way of letting an author know I liked their work. Maybe take into consideration that some of those kudos are from others with severe anxiety.

Wow, I’m still getting crap. When did you send this? I’m legit curious because I don’t check this blog very often. I’m actually not even sure what post you’re messaging me about tbh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Anyways, not that you asked, but I also have severe anxiety, although it manifests in different ways. Such as I would never send a message like this to someone who is clearly stressed, depressed, and has low self-esteem. You’re too afraid to write a review but you can give me shit about wishing more people would let me know they read (in the past tense) my stories?

And yes, I see that you were anxious writing this, but you still hit send. It’s easier for you to send something giving someone a hard time than it is to brighten up someone’s day?

It amazes me how often I (used to) get these anons saying “I’m too anxious to review!” but somehow weren’t too anxious about sending me hate.

And I’m probably going to get more hate for posting this and being so bitchy in my answer, but please, take into consideration: you’re not the only one with problems. I’m lucky enough to be on medications now. 2-3 years ago? Not so much, and the lack of not only reviews, but also kudos, was devastating to me. But no one seems to care about the person on the other side of the screen.

So here’s a post I never thought I’d have to make...

I no longer involve myself in the Doctor Who fandom. No, this isn’t in protest of Jodie Whittaker or Thirteen being a woman -- god help me, she’s a fucking nerd and I love her. I stepped back from this fandom because it’s entirely toxic, and was having an adverse effect on my mental health.

Being a writer in the DW fandom was the worst -- whether anyone wants to admit it or not, this fandom had (probably still has) “favored” writers, and if you weren’t in that group, you were screwed. And that fucked with my head. A lot. And god forbid anyone bring it up -- there are still hateful anons here and there on this blog who gave me crap for wishing people would read or review my stories. I’m not going to get into the whole “writers should write for themselves not for reviews” thing -- I’ve written more than enough about that on this blog.

So why am I here posting about this after like a year of inactivity? Because I am still writing -- I’ve moved on to the Steven Universe fandom ( @aperfectpearl if you want to follow me) and post stories on on AO3, and today I got a “review” on my most recent story asking me if I would be willing to post one of my DW stories there.

That hurt a lot on a couple levels. First off, I was excited to see a review on one of my stories, only to find out that it was someone asking about a dw fic. Second, I’ve purposely separated myself from the DW fandom (I’m holding on to dimensionhoppingrose as my AO3 name out of nostalgia, but I’m seriously considering changing that as well) because most of my experiences in the fandom were Not Good, and I want to forget about it. Sometimes I still get reviews for A Place For Us To Dream and A Journey Through Time, and I won’t lie, that tickles me slightly, but the idea of posting another story in the DW fandom just to get limited reviews/kudos/etc. just.... hurts.

So no, none of my DW stories will be cross-posted to AO3, unless they were posted there pre-mental break (to be fair, it wasn’t just the fandom shit, I was in a bad place at the time, and I’ve gotten a lot better since I started medication, but the fandom is a reminder of all that). And posting a comment on a story just to ask if I’ll post another story that I wrote for a fandom I’m not longer in (because I was ignored so much) hurts. Don’t do that to anyone.

Thank you, and good night.

#announcement

samwrites

A reminder! I’m on Twitter, and trying to post updates (and cat pictures) as often as I can. Join the fun! Or follow for the cat pictures.

samwrites

Well..

It has certainly been a hot minute. My deepest apologies, things have been rather crazy. I got married! So that’s a thing. Books are all with editors, and I’m hoping desperately that one of them will be done soon, so I can get things moving again, and hopefully start generating more content.

In the mean time, I’ve also taken to podcast reviewing, so if that’s something you’re interested in, please check out my blog Sam Does Podcasts. And I’ll be back, hopefully soon, with a new update!

#and you know maybe help me advertise?#I'm doing my best to get my secondary writing job going again

szajnie-deactivated20220907

After hours

#FMA #this is how they ended up change my mind #Queue Don't Just Give Up

jynandor

#billie piper #david tennant #Queue Don't Just Give Up

thechekhov

I can teach you how to be small… in the real way. And I know that we can be small… in the real way.

#su fanart #Queue Don't Just Give Up

carol-danverse

#doctor who #dw spoilers #Queue Don't Just Give Up

bbcamerica

The Universe is Calling. First look at brand new Doctor Who.

#doctor who #dw spoilers #Queue Don't Just Give Up

buttonheart

Lapis in a suit!

#su fanart #Queue Don't Just Give Up

cardansgreenbriars-deactivated2

Paris holds the key to her past. Yes, Princess, i’ve found you at last. No more pretend, you’ll be gone, that’s the end.

Anastasia (1997) dir. Don Bluth & Gary Goldman

#anastasia #Queue Don't Just Give Up

Hi, my name is Sam and I”m here to rant about fanfiction.

I’ve been writing and posting fanfiction since 2005. Don’t ask how old I am. I’ve posted on ff.net, on AO3, a small bit on LiveJournal, and on Tumblr. And all across the platforms, one thing is the same:

The people who feel the need to call out every little typo they see.

Listen. Listen. Fanfic authors are human beings. They’re people who are doing something for fun because they’re invested in a fandom. Every author I know, at the very least, always reads their stories over two, three, four times before posting and, still miss typos.

You are not doing anyone a favor by pointing out typos.

Some fanfic authors may be professional writers in their real lives. Some may be doing it just for fun. It doesn’t matter. Pointing out typos is not helpful, and no matter how well you think your intentions are, there’s another person on the other side of that review reading it and seeing, “Look at all these mistakes you made, you’re not good enough.”

Pointing out typos is not feedback. You are not doing anyone, least of all the author, a favor.

Fanfiction is a hobby. Let authors have fun. If the typos prevent you from being able to enjoy the story, then... well, don’t stay. But don’t kick the author’s ego either. If they ask you to edit, then cool, edit your heart out. But let the poor human authors on the other side of the screen be.

#fanfic rant #Yes this is what I came back here for #I just got a guy giving me shit for asking people NOT point out typos because it's kind of shitty #just #ugh