Giu Speranza

[dinogiuli]

What do you do when you wanna have sex with someone who you CLEARLY see has manipulation issues and when you tell him you dont like sending nudes he is like “oh but you dont trust me then?” and to cover up adds “I think you’re beautiful and whatever you do makes me hot. Now, you just need to start accepting all your beauties, because you have so many.” Oh PLEASE like I am confident with myself and hell yes i am beautiful I just don’t trust social media and the internet to keep my pictures safe from anything that is not safe. Honestly maybe I am a bit paranoid about your information and thus pictures forever staying in the cloud of the internet, and THAT freaks me out. But I am not buying his bullshit and if youre wondering if I called him out, hell yes I did and he said “Im not manipulating you, I am begging you” although it stinks manipulation. Don’t worry friends im not thinking of having anything serious with him and I am still not gonna send him pictures.

[chryseos]

cropped version of the piece for @laurent-ofvere‘s fic

bcus tumblr didnt let me post the entire one

full image is on twitter: chryseos1

[dinogiuli]

IN LOVEEEE

[dinogiuli]

Well it’s been a year and more since I used tumblr, i guess i wasnt ready for it’s greatness coming into my life so soon. I don’t know if im ready now so maybe I’ll keep this small diary of mine or maybe it will be updated every year or so.

Anyways, let’s just say I finished high school at MUWCI (India) and now i am lucky to be going to university in the US more specifically Bennington College and it has been a rollercoster. Making friends seemed somewhat easy this time and my first semester I had a blast. Second semester though... that was more dramatic and less fun. Emotions all around college were high (sort of..) and my lovely group of friends started to slowly grow apart. People have always told me that friends in your first semester arent always going to stay but it never happened to me. I always managed to stay and grow with my “first term/semester/year” friends, obviously i made new friends in later years but i never grew apart from my first friends. However, this time im having trouble making them see that our problems can easily be solved if they just talk to each other honestly. That usually works for when I have a disagreement or “problems” with any friend. But this second uni semester was just a try and fail. Again and again I wasnt being listened and that made me more sad than angry. But enough about sad messy semesters. I am currently finishing summer break about to make the best of of this third semester having no expectations at all (except for the fact that my best friend from highschool will be studying in Bennigton as well and I cannot wait to see him again)

[dinogiuli]

Tired but...CINDER

Of course just when I finish one of the hardest assignments I’ve ever had they give me ANOTHER one. WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT.

One of the good things that happened this week was that I started reading again, it’s been so long honestly I almost forgot what it feels like just to be in the book’s world, to disconnec from the people that are around me, to want to keep reading until late but being too tired and looking forward for tomorrow to read more, to just go through tumblr and find amazing fanart. I missed all that and what a better to read after a long time than Cinder (which has been in my TBR list for so long). 

[dinogiuli]

The only thing that is helping me to get this week done 

[dinogiuli]

This is actually one of the few things that make me smile so I just would like to say that this was taken in Shimla (somewhere in the north of India) and that it’s the most indian thing I’ve seen in the 7 months or so that I’ve been here.

[dinogiuli]

When you try your best and you can't succed

Coldplay

Im actually feeling so unproductive at the moment. I feel like I could have done so much by now and I barely did them. I feel like it’s been a horrible day even if I didn’t show it. I feel like I could scream at the top of my guts If I wasn’t around people all the time. I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO LAUGH UNTIL I CAN’T STOP BREATHING and just enjoy the rest of my day. Unfortunatly I don’t think any of that will happen.

[dinogiuli]

First Holi. 

There is a first time for everything and on monday 13 of March I got to experience my first Holi. I can say without a doubt that this would have never been something that I would have done only 1 years ago. This was also not something that I expected to make me so happy and content. Because this is my first tumblr post as well I’ll keep it short but with this memory is where I would like to start my “journal” here in MUWCI (Mahindra United World College) 

“Life is too important to be taken seriously” -Oscar Wilde

Love, Giuli