hi!! I was reading some of ur reacent requests and i loved them and i was wondering if i too could request something. I’m ace, just means asexual wich means i dont have a sexual desire towards other people ( but i do fall in love !! ) and although there are people who do have sex, I wouldn’t and i was wondering if you could write something with Lucio/Julian reacting to a non binary mc breaking down because they dont want to disappoint them??? Sorry if its weird i just love angst and my mennnnn
thanks, dear! here’s julian for ya :)
when he first found out, Julian was ecstatic that you trusted him so much
and also apologizing profusely for anything he’d done that would have made you uncomfortable
he’d never, ever make you do anything you didn’t want to
and he loved you all the same
but there were times you doubted yourself, doubted Julian’s love for you, doubted your worth
today was one of those days
you’d been watching Julian furiously scribble on a piece of parchment, heart swelling at how much you loved him
but you were also thinking about how much he deserved
he was such a wonderful man, took such wonderful care you and your house and anything else he could help out with
he was always at the shop on his free time, chatting you up or helping organize vials
he deserved everything he wanted
and you felt like you couldn’t give him that
you were sitting on a chair adjacent to where Julian worked, thankfully covered by the shadow his lamp created
you held your face in your hands, feeling the tears overflowing and trying your hardest to control your breaths
as you exhaled, Julian’s head popped up and whipped toward you
“Everything alright?” he asked
you let out a small “mhm”
you lifted your head and saw him squinting at you
you didn’t want him to see you crying
but he was already up off of his chair and making his way toward you
you swallowed hard as he knelt in front of you
“What’s wrong?” he asked, tucking a short strand of hair behind your ear
Julian huffed air out of his nose, “you can tell me, love.”
his voice was so soft and warm
you couldn’t help but fall forward to him
as he wrapped his arms around you, a sob escaped you
“shh,” Julian cooed, “it’s okay, it’s okay.”
he held you, squeezing every time your breath hitched, until you were calm enough to talk
“I just…” you began, “You deserve so, so much. Everything you could ever want, and I can’t give you that.”
Julian looked at you, confusion painted across his face, “what are you talking about?”
“I don’t want to disappoint you,” you cried.
“Disappoint? Love, what are you saying?”
Julian held you at arms length, staring into your eyes with fierce intensity, “Since the day we met you have never once disappointed me.”
“But-,” you started, and Julian shook his head.
“Not once,” he reaffirmed.
He brought you back close to him, running his fingers through your hair, “If I deserve anything I want, then I’ve already gotten what I deserve.”
“What?” you said, voice muffled by his shirt
“Love, all I want is you. Under any condition, under any circumstance, in every life and in every reality, all I want is you.”
You pulled away and stared at him
“Don’t ever think anything less. I love you always.”