[redlipstickresurrected]

Julia Soboleva (Latvian, b. Latvia, based Manchester, England) - The Healing Can Begin, Paintings, Mixed Media

[dipnoous]

i can't believe you did this... you embarassed me

[lilnyachty]

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[dipnoous]

then text me... wtf

[dipnoous]

i can't believe you did this... you embarassed me

[craigslistmirrors]

[won-der-land89]

[dipnoous]

i love interacting with different types of freaks we are so diverse this guy i went to school with that i havent talkrd to in over a year just said "savagery" and that the intensity of school was making him a strong badass oh my god

[dipnoous]

im falling apart i hate being alive.

[dipnoous]

talk to him in four hours and find out what's happening and maybe he can explain to me why I feel the way I do and why am acting the way I do and help me so I can trust people again and stop worrying so much I wish I could be friends with people again

[dipnoous]

it's not to the point of suicide gallery where I I'm actively trying to hurt myself but I think I've running My car into a wall or some thing and if I didn't die how much everyone would hold it against me for the rest of my life.  it would traumatize the few people I have close to me. i'm just tired and part of me wishes that I could get to the point where I didn't didn't think about the consequences

[dipnoous]

she was saying you've been doing so well and it's like you have no idea what's going on in my life you have no idea what I'm thinking about. when I do give you that and so she tells me it's normal because she has the exact same thing. not wanting to interact with anyone because people are always out to get us sore hate us is not normal but she thinks it is. i'm worried I'm gonna get to a point of disillusion where I think the same things as she does but I still have a slight grip on reality. I don't know what to do anymore I'm really tired I'm really sick of it I can't sleep. 

[dipnoous]

I really just don't wanna deal with this anymore being belittled being misunderstood being told that I am faking or lying or some thing and that my problems are in actually real why is my mom so cold to me I don't understand I really can't take it anymore and I'm not gonna do anything but I wish I could just crawl into a hole and never come out ever again I don't wanna talk to anyone I don't want any new friends and honestly being alone is more comforting than being around people. my brother told me I've always been awkward my mom just keeps dismissing me I wish I could just die. 

[dipnoous]

I thought I was doing well when I was not focusing on things but everything is coming up and it's 4 AM on the first day of 2021 and I feel like dying. told my mom I was getting evaluated and she told me that they were just gonna put me into a vegetative state with medication. made me really upset she never understands she's so cold and it's obvious the same things I have going on she also has going on and she just doesn't know it's not right

[aonoco]

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[by-grace-of-god]

The mystery of icon-preserving bees

For a decade, a beekeeper near Athens, has kept a tradition: every spring, he slips icons of Christ, the Holy Virgin and different saints in his beehives, in order to bless his bees and his yearly honey production. And every year, the very same mysterious phenomenon occurs: bees make their honeycomb cells around the pious images, meticulously avoiding covering them. 

[dipnoous]

I don't think I ever want to be in another situation sexually with another person in my life never again. I don't want people to see me vulnerably .  i'm in my 20s in a little friends I do have talk about sex a lot. I think it's really funny since I'm basically asexual and I don't mind hearing about it and honestly the drama at all is kind of funny because it's never really super serious.  The last sexual experience I had made me a paranoid for weeks. happened a few months ago and I no longer trust that person. I never really did. my Tarot cards told me to be wary about deception this semester and they were completely right as they usually are. tossed me to the side like I was nothing and then started talking about another person they were interested in the next time I saw them. i'm so much happier when I'm occupied and there's no one around and I can just accomplish what I need to get done. so I think I'm over people except for the small few friends that I consider to be trustworthy and that I truly love. otherwise the gate is closed. i'll talk through the crack in the door but I'm not gonna let anybody in. not for a long time. The people I consider closest to me took six years to get inside. I hope I can find someone special . I need to find another alien. 

[dipnoous]

I was diagnosed and I was younger with depression with psychotic features. after I got out of a abusive situation I psychotic features decreased. I think it was clearly stress induced. I feel different from everyone else and I've never really fit in. I wasn't really bullied but I just made sure not to draw too much attention to myself. when I Got in the high school I started dying my hair a bunch of fun colors and I really enjoy that.  it draws some attention to me that's fine because I don't really go out anyways. The last time I went to the mall had had a really bad experience. I got a terrible migraine and almost had an anxiety attack. I was there was my best friend and someone that I don't really consider a good friend they've made me really upset in the past. they just kept talking. and I just sat there paranoid like everyone was staring at me. I don't think that's really irrational because I wear all black and had bright green hair at the time.