Active April. 25

21 | Minors DNI this is a vent blog, block don't report 4'10" hw: 180lbs; sw: 137; lw: 91; cw: 91.2 gw1: 95✅️; gw2: 92✅️; gw3: 88 gw4: 85; gw5: 82; ugw: 78

[diremooss]

Just gained 9 pounds from a 2 day binge🤪

Welp. Locking tf in ig

[diremooss]

Eating 400 calories and gaining is so demoralizing. I'm sure it's just water retention and I'll be back on track tomorrow or Tuesday but man! I was so looking forward to being under 91 today :(

[diremooss]

Every day, it gets harder to deny that it'll never be enough. I'll never hit the perfect weight or look in the mirror and decide that I'm thin enough.

I'm just so mad at myself that I've lost over 50lbs and am still cannot stop thinking about every part of my body that I hate.

[diremooss]

Oh my god. Are we finally about to be underweight for the first time in my entire life?!?

[diremooss]

Reasons to ⭐️ve outside of weight loss:

1. Saves money

2. More spare time

3. For the girlie's with chronic pain/inflammatory conditions: food is inflammatory. Though antioxidant rich foods mitigate this, calorie restriction alone can be really great for managing inflammation

4. No more feeling like a little 🐖 when eating in public

5. Feeling lighter when moving around

6. No more shame, only confidence and pride in your discipline

[blogofjov]

reblog if ur an 18+ 3d blog, I need more buddies and I wanna make sure everyone's a similar age to me 🎀

[diremooss]

21 teehee

[diremooss]

Locked tf in bc I give my thesis presentation on the 9th, and i wanna be 89lbs by then PLEASEEE

[diremooss]

It's not restricting, it's a ✨️protein sparing modified fast✨️

[diremooss]

No bc I need to hit my ugw by May so bad bc May 2024 I was literally ONE HUNDRED AND FORTY POUNDS. Down to 95 rn but holy shit the transformation would be insane if I could get into the low-mid 80s and I NEED that before and after

[diremooss]

Back when my weight never budged from 130lbs (bmi ~26.6), i always had this fear that id get to low 90s (bmi ~ 19) and still wouldn't have a flat stomach. Well, I was right. It's definitely the flattest it's ever been, but the notion that I still need to lose at least another 10lbs, pushing me into the low 80s and an actually underweight bmi is just so frustrating.

I want feel thin enough and for my stomach to not look so fat all the time but I need to be able to sustain it and be healthy enough that this endless pursuit of thinness doesn't kill me in the end.

The current plan is to diet hard, lose whatever I need to until I'm happy with my bf% and then just try to reverse diet again until I can build enough muscle to push me back to a healthy weight. I did it to some extent in november-january so i know it's possible to get results fairly quickly and not gain a ton of fat from it, I just have to make it through the dieting phase.

Taking it one day at a time and reminding myself that hunger is okay and is just my body's reminder that fat loss is happening.

[diremooss]

Anyone else pretend like they're in a wieiad video 24/7 to keep urself from binging? Feel like it's been the only thing keeping my on track recently😭

[diremooss]

Yall are NOT ready for me when I'm 90lbs. This god complex is already CRAZY

[diremooss]

Thank you Wellbutrin for killing my appetite, making me so thirst I have to drink 90 oz of water just to be hydrated enough, and all but killing my food noise!

Finally actually going somewhere again :D

[diremooss]

I love working and being a student and literally not having any time to eat!🥰

Istg If I'm not back to 105 by halloween I'm gonna scream

[diremooss]

Hehe my manager asked me if I lost weight today :3 I think I mightve lost 10 pounds since I lost saw her too weeee

[diremooss]

3d has been in a weird spot lately. Didn't make my august goal but I'm not particularly upset about it? I still lost nearly 10 pounds in August so I'm not too worried about the extra 5ish pounds setting me back too much.

But I've been medicated for the past 2ish months and I think it's been helping the food noise sm. I haven't been losing a huge amount of weight day to day but I'm under 125 finally and have been eating a lot less without much effort.

I just hope this is a new normal for me so I can just shed weight without constantly obsessing over it. Hoping to get to 115 by the end of the month weeeee.

[diremooss]

The tug of war of wanting to be a low but healthy weight so maintaining it won't be so horrible and wanting to look so thin you might just tip over and shatter at any given moment.