My Life - My Story

Hi, I'm Dirix. I want to express myself by this blog. I hope you'll enjoy it. All this posts are my memories, wishes. This Blog is my Diary... (PS. Not all of this pics belong to me, plz give me info if you don't accept me to reblog it)

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<3 one of the best presents ever <3

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Happy anniversary for me

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To moja 10 rocznica na Tumblrze 🥳

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Never had this much free space on my pc

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I got christmas present from my Otter <3

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<3 So lovely

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I never knew I can feel this empty after not being able to cook for him. Even tho I'm not best in cooking.

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It so nice when she tryes ^^

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Yeeey, I got my taxes back <3

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I made it. I hit 35k savings. And also - 13 days till my planes. So, 35k like i wanned, like i planed, and also 3k plane tickets, 1k for my place when I'm gone, 1k for luggage, and 1k for insurance. I'm proud of myself. Coz now it means like I own almost 45k.

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Never knew I can feel this way.

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I wish to never be born.

I hate my day,

I hate my life

I hate the place I'm in right now,

I hate country I live in,

I hate people who pretend to be my friends.

I can't believe from sth so happy, It changed into pure hate and tears.

I had real panic attack,

Meds don't work,

I took stuff for hearth problems coz it hurts me so much,

I feel so sad and lonely.

Idk what to do even.

But I so don't wanna give up on my flights since I was working so hard for getting this all planed and fix tickets...

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Ugh, first situation like this. I woke up to this mail, grrrr, well I need to fix it soon.

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I work so fucking hard. I'm proud of myself. And still, it not good enough. My goal is 35k. But I still, need to give mum back for glasses, and buy insurance, and for 5 months will be spending money for apartment. But we shall see. I hope it wont eat my savings that bad. I wanna be able to stay in US, and start life there, where I belong.

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I made it. After all this shit time on earth, I got brave enought. I bought tickets. Will do trip of my life. After 6 years, I'm flying to USA again. This time to beautiful Florida - To my lovely Boy 14.01.2022r

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My biggest paycheck in life so far. I wish to earn even more. But we shall see. This one is from new job. Epione. Paycheck of December 2021.