This is an ongoing list that will be updated as I read more !!
🔒 Ilya knows he has to get up, soon, but he doesn't feel up to the task today. Shane notices
🏒 What Does Heaven Know ‘Bout Fools Gold? | 4.8k
Ilya has his wisdom teeth removed. The sedatives have some unexpected effects, and Yuna feels like a mom again.
🏒 Am I Making You Feel Sick? | 4.8k
Ilya Rozanov used to know exactly what he wanted and how to get it. Now, after months of being on antidepressants, desire feels like a stranger to him, and not even Shane Hollander is able to bring it back.
🏒 Use My Skin to Bury Secrets In | 6.2k
It’s been weeks now since he’s been back and the Raiders’ first practice is tomorrow. He’s staring down at the barrel of a long, long few months of solitude. The thought shouldn’t be so daunting still, but it is. It is. It’s different now that Shane is his boyfriend, now that he knows what it’s like to spend long, uninterrupted days together and now that he knows what it is to feel the lack of them.
🏒 hit me where it hurts | 7.4k
Ilya takes a nasty hit on the ice, but it's nothing he hasn't brushed off before. Or at least, that's what he thought. Off the ice, Shane finds himself overwhelmed with the unexpected complications of Ilya's injury.
🏒 Is it the Same for You? | 8.0k
Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants.
🏒 Contingency Plans | 8.3k
Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing
🏒 Gone So Long, But Not So Far | 8.7k
a collection of moments where Shane takes care of Ilya during a depressive episode
🏒 Other Forms of Intimacy | 24.1k
Shane and Ilya taking care of each other.
🏒 I Wish You Could See How Perfect You Are | 4.0k
Ilya notices that Shane is not being himself lately and tries to figure out what’s wrong since he can’t handle seeing his beautiful boyfriend suffer in silence
🏒 This is Not Enough | 4.2k
Shane goes down a path of self loathing which can be seen through his performance on the ice, and Ilya will try and do everything in his power to make sure Shane is okay despite Shane's obvious attempt at distancing himself from the only person who truly understands him
🏒 Tripping on the Edge | 4.5k
after Shane trips during that fateful game, Ilya refuses to let him face the aftermath alone
five times Ilya helps Shane when he's overwhelmed and one time Shane returns the favor
🏒 It’s Too Close for Comfort | 7.7k
(My summary) Shane and Ilya get outed to the anti-doping officers when they arrive to Shane’s house for Ilya’s testing, and Shane has a panic attack.
🏒 All the Quiet Nights You Bear | 8.1k
Three times Ilya takes care of Shane and one time Shane takes care of him
🏒 Everything He Needs | 8.4k
Shane gets drugged at a club. Ilya takes care of him.
🏒 Our Captain, Their Problem | 8.6k
Ilya Rozanov has a "tiny car accident" (his words). Shane Hollander has a full-scale, system-shutdown panic attack about it. Meanwhile, a horrified Hayden is praying for someone to throw him in a lake and tell him that this is all just a big joke, or maybe for a meteor strike; he is really not picky. J.J., on the other hand, is trying to bleach the image of his sweet captain making out with Ilya fucking Rozanov from his brain.
🏒 How Will I Know (If He Really Loves Me) | 13k
5 times Ilya took care of Shane, and 1 time the favour was returned
🏒 Other Forms of Intimacy | 24.1k
Shane and Ilya taking care of each other.
🏒 The Distance Between Us | 24.7k
Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it. Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it. So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.
shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind
Ilya’s anger surges when Shane lies to him about his panic attacks and being in contact with Alexei, but all of that seems to fade as he watches his husband go down on the ice by their new teammate. (My summary)
The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have. Ilya has open hands
@OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:25 pm
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