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Mindhunter (2019)

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This whole scene is the only time I’ve ever been happy with a psych in television. He is trying to explain to Nancy and Bill, the parents of a son who witness a murder, that trauma like this will have long term consequences. Trauma isn’t a one appointment and boom you’re cured. it’s working tirelessly on going back to the situation and recalling it so it’s not as scary and overbearing. Nancy doesn’t understand this and views the situation of what a lot of people back in this day an age and even people now, try and continue as though everything is normal don’t hyper analyze it and become touchy around them. However, when you do this it can make it all the more worse the person who’s dealing with the traumatic experience. it can then be lead to the idea that somethings wrong with them for feeling the pain and suffering ptsd can cause and even feel very ashamed to want help. Which can lead people to turn to unhealthy coping skills. So when the psychiatrist says no one simply forgets he’s right and this shows an actual great example of what should be done when someone goes through trauma. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

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Just some tea

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Friend, Please 2.6

Michaels POV

When we finally had to go back on the tour bus I dragged myself to the back of the bus not even bothering to unpack. I switch the tv on going through the channels boredly.  I finally settle with rick and morty.

Suddenly Luke burst through the door. He suddenly lands on the couch sitting directly next to me. “Hey buddy.” He says joyful. “What you doing back here all alone?”

“Minding my own goddamn business.” I mutter.

“Alis gonna be doing a twitcam we are all invited to join.” Luke says with a grin.

“So that means that you guys will be coming back here?” Luke nods enthusiastically. “Welp I guess I don’t really get a choice do I?”

“Nope.” Luke smirks a shit eating smirk. He then jumps up and runs to the front of the bus. Not even a minute later Alissa is walking into the back. She is talking to the screen.

“Okay guys so now I’m gonna be in the back so we all can talk.” She grins. I like her smile. Wait, shut up, you don’t like anything about her. Alissa makes her way to the couch sitting down in the same spot Luke was sitting in only moments ago “Michael's back here, and most likely the rest of the boys will be coming back here as well. Till then Michael and I will be here.” I smile when the laptop is set down in front of me and quickly shut off the tv.

“Hello internet folks.” I say waving. Alissa laughs at my statement.

“What should we do?” She asks turning to me. I shrug turning to the computer looking in the comments.

“Answer questions?” I say it comes out more like a question then anything.

“Sure” she responds.

“OH look at this one, what was your first kiss like.” She reads.

“Uhm well I did get this question asked before but pretty much no tongue with butt.” I laugh hesitantly. See the issue with this question is we were each others first kisses. My nerves heightened. Waiting for her response.

“Mine as well was no tongue with butt haha.” She laughs lowly.

I look to the comments people asking if we were each other's first kiss.

“Yes.” Alissa finally says. I stare at her in shock. “Yes, we were each other’s first kiss.” She then proceeds to laugh I sit there blushing completely shocked that she admitted that to our fans. “I mean come on we were in grade 6.” I then begin to chuckle along with her. After a minute of laughing Alissa finally turns to the comment section and this only causes her to laugh harder. I look as well and am shocked by all the comments asking if we dated are we dating how long we’ve been dating and I just smile. Finally I speak up.

“No we never dated. No we aren’t dating.” I laugh. “We were tired of not having our first kiss so we kinda just decided what the hell? Let’s just get it over with. So we kissed and that was it.”

“Exactly.” Alissa smiles at the camera and I look at her and can’t help but smile. “This is cute they want us to sing a duet.” Alissa says looking over to me.

“What song.” I say surprising her and myself.

“You’re serious?” She asks softly.

“I mean why not.” I shrug.

“Okay uhm hmm what should we sing guys.” She asks turning to the laptop again.

“Oh I like I will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie.” I say as we watch the comments flood in.

“Okay that works because I have it on my phone. Unless you wanna get your guitar.” she says.

“I’ll go get it.” I say quickly, hopping up and rushing to the front of the bus. As i make it to the front of the bus I see the boys sitting at the table eating.

“How's the livestream going.” Ashton asks as I rummage around grabbing my acoustic guitar.

“Good.” I mutter under my breath trying to hurry my way back however Calum puts his leg out to stop me.

“Why do you have your guitar?” he asks.

“Uhm well Alissa and I are gonna sing.” I mumble.

“Aww.” Luke smiles. “You two are gonna end up together I just know it.” He gleams.

“Yeah and we are gonna kick Calum's ass.” I laugh.

“Wait what?” He says confused.

“Why are you gonna kick my ass.” Calum says fear in his eyes.

“That's the joke I never could kick your ass Calum.” I laugh and he sighs in relief.

“Thank God.” He smiles, then pauses. “Wait then you and Ali will never be together?” he says sadly.

“And thus there is my point to saying I was gonna kick your ass.” I huff. “Now I’m going to go back.” I say turning away from the disappointed boys.

Once I approach the back Alissa is sitting smiling at her phone.

“You guys were so quick to make fanart of the guys and I.” she giggles as she continues to scroll through her phone I walk over to her and take my seat. “Michael look at this.” She smiles shoving her phone in my face I grab onto her wrist pushing it back slightly so I can actually look at the screen is a drawing of her and I in manga style dressed in what we wore to the vmas.  

Smiling I let go of her wrist grabbing my guitar from where it was leaning on the side of the couch. Placing it in my lap I start to fiddle with the strings. “So I will follow you into the dark?” I ask.

Alissa looks up from her phone and nods. “Yeah, okay let’s do it.” she smiles.

“Love of mine, someday you will die But I'll be close behind and I'll follow you into the dark” She softly sings

“No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight, waiting for the hint of a spark” I chime in.

“If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied And illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark” we both harmonize together.

“In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my tongue as she told me, son, fear is the heart of love, so I never went back” I sing.

“You and me we've seen everything to see From Bangkok to Calgary and the soles of your shoes are all worn down The time for sleep is now but it's nothing to cry about 'Cause we'll hold each other soon in the blackest of rooms” She smiles looking over to me. I stare at her.

“If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied And illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark” We both sing together looking at one and other.  Alissa is the first to look away.

“So that was I will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie. Jeez that’s a mouthful.” she says facing the screen however I’m still staring at her in awe. Her voice sounds amazing on its own without anything. Suddenly the back door burst open.

“You two sounded amaze balls.” Luke says walking over to sit with us. I glare at him but quickly look away as he sits down in the small space in between Alissa and I.

“Yeah like holy shit.” Calum follows in. He plops down in between my legs.

“Yeah you guys should just be a band.” Ashton says sitting in between Luke's legs.

“Oh really?” Alissa laughs. I smile.

“I guess that means I’d have to quit the band.” I laugh.

“Wait no you can’t leave me.” Luke says throwing his arms around my neck.

“Too late I quit. Alissa and I are forming a band.” I say removing his arms. He looks at me with a pout.

“Rip 5sos.” Alissa laughs. I smile at her. Surprisingly she smiles back.

After that we answer a couple more questions then, ended the stream. We then decided to head to bed.

“Night losers.” Calum shouts from his bunk.

“Goodnight kids.” Ashton responds.

Luke mutters some sort of goodnight.

“Hope you dumbasses have sweet dreams.” Alissa shouts from above me. I just sigh contently.

“Goodnight mother fuckers.”

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Friend, Please 2.5

Alissa’s POV:

As the boys make their way off the stage I turn back to Cole.

Cole and I met two years ago when he and I were in LA and he was taking auditions for musicians to photograph. I was his choice and we became very fast friends. He was one of the first people to really believe in me. We have in the past lazily dated however it never really worked out we both agreed we were both more friends than lovers.

“So is that Michael, the Michael,” He says nodding his head to the auburn haired man on the stage. “Who left you to go big?”

I squeeze his hand tighter at the word coming from his mouth. I remember the night I told Cole about Michael. I was drunk beyond belief and was already sad that day for reasons I have no recollections of. I bawled my eyes out on his shoulder. And he sat there listening the whole time. I felt so much better after the fact.

“Yes that’d be him.” I groan.

“Wait,” Cole holds my head in his hands. “You’re on tour with him?” He asks shocked.

I nod only slightly from my head being held still by Cole.

“How are you surviving?” He says slowly his thumb lightly sweeping across my cheek. This makes me grin. Only Cole would ask if I was surviving.

“Yeah I’m surviving.” I giggle and the corners of his mouth curve upward.

“You know you’re really pretty when you laugh.” he giggles. It's then I can smell the alcohol on his breath.

“You’re really pretty, period.” I retort. He laughs and leans in to kiss my cheek but before he can make a move we are rudely interrupted by the devil himself.

“You’re in my seat.” Michael sternly whispers. Cole looks up at him and smirks. He then turns to me and leans down and kisses the corner of my mouth. “Move dude.” Michael tenses.

Cole giggles and looks up from me towards Michael’s face. “Sorry pal, just visiting with an old

Friend.” Cole responds snarkily. He then turns back to me and mouths a simple good luck.

Cole then proceeds to stand up. “Bye Ali cat.” He waves then turns away leaving me with a fuming Michael.

“How do you know Cole Sprouse?” Calum asks as we walk out of the arena. The rest of the awards went smoothly however Michael stayed tense the entire duration of the show.

“He and I used to date.” I shrug unphased. The four boys all turn towards me in shock.

“You what?” Luke asks.

“Why is this such a surprise to you?” I question, “It’s not like I’ve never been with someone.”

“Well I guess we never would think you’d be okay with-with a, a smoker.” Calum tries finding reason.

“Well that is pretty convenient since I smoke as well.” I laugh. “You knew that Calum.” I roll my eyes.

“You what?” Michael finally spoke up. His whole face fuming.

“What you drink and I smoke weed,” his face looks slightly relieved. “And cowboy killers.” I say referring to my pack of Marlboro cigarettes.

“When did you become such a rebel?” Ashton asks curious.

“After you guys left.” I say with confidence. “I didn’t have to worry about being the responsible one of my friends.”

“We’re sorry, we did always keep you busy with our shenanigans.” Luke laughed as we got into the SUV.

“You sure as hell did.” I laugh along. Once we are all crammed inside I lean my head onto the window.

Only the second I was about to fall asleep, Michael nudges me. “What?” I ask annoyed.

“Uhm- we’re at the hotel.” Michael answers with a slight stutter. I slowly open my eyes to see that he and I are the only two in the SUV. The car door was propped open. I looked over to him. Michael’s eyes were already on me.

“Well let’s go then.” I say opening the left side door. However just as my leg swings out Michael tugs me into his chest. As he does a large truck zooms past us. I shudder at the idea of what could’ve happened.

After some moments of just Michael holding me he finally speaks up. “Are you alright?”

I slowly nod, “Yes, uh thanks.” I say sitting up.

“Uhm we should get inside.” Michael reminds me. I once again nod. He slowly releases me from his grip.

“Ugh yeah,” I say sitting up and ripping my seatbelt off.

Michael scoots out quickly and rushes out of the car. Although, much to my lack of luck, we are swarmed with paps and fans.

Michael walks quickly through. I laugh at his urgency. I however don't mind taking my time.

“Alissa are you and Calum together.” I break out laughing.

“Sorry to burst your bubble guys but I am very very single.” I laugh.

“What about Cole?” One asks.

“Yes we were together but we decided we were more friends than a real relationship.”

“When are you going to release the album.”

“I have a couple more songs to record but, on Monday I'm doing my weekly twitcam where I can answer any other questions.” I reply as I make it to the entrance of the hotel. Michael is standing there impatiently holding the door.

“What took you guys so long.” Ashton asks as we enter the elevator.

“Dumbass here almost got hit by a car.” Michael points towards me with his thumb.

“Sorry I didn't see a car since I was half asleep.” I spit back.

“Whatever, I’d thank me if I were you. I saved your life.” Michael scoffs.

I laugh. “Thank you my oh so brave knight.”

Calum and Luke snicker at my comment.

“You know what fuck you.” Michael rolls his eyes.

“Aw it looks like I struck a nerve.” I smirk. Michael just huffs turning his body to face the door of the elevator. I take this as a small victory.

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[simonghostrileys]

Incredibly fucking slow at it 🤧

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i fixed it

[dirtycliffoblurbs]

2.4 Friend, Please

A/N: things are heating up guys I’m excited to jump back on here. I hope all of you lovely people are doing well I know I’m very inconsistent but hey I’m trying.

Michael’s POV

Biggest ship? More like bullshit. How can the fans think her and I would be good together. Yeah we both dye our hair, and like the same music, and we were best friends for over fifteen years. But that doesn’t mean shit, does it? No.

“Let’s get back to our seats, yeah?” Ashton interrupts my mindless thinking. We all shuffle our way back to the floor.  

Once we are seated again Alissa yawns and shuffles about in her seat. Huffing out a breath, “Are you tired?” I whisper slowly.

“Yeah, actually. Pretty much coming down from the high of winning and now I’m exhausted.” She responds rather calmly. Surprisingly she smiles towards me.

“You could sleep maybe.” I suggest with a shrug.

“Well I am in a onesie.” She laughs. I break out into a grin.

“You can, I will wake you up if the camera faces us or something.” I say quickly.

“Okay thanks.” She shuffles around again, until she gives in to her instincts and lays her head on my shoulder.

“You know one of these days you two are gonna get married?” Calum laughs quietly looking down at Alissa’s head on me and my arm around her.

“Shut up,” I whine. “She hates me. And I can’t go back.”

“That’s true, but, you can try to restart.” He smiles kindly.

“Yeah, right.” I grumble getting tired of listening to him.

“I’m just saying you shouldn’t give up on someone you love.” My stomach turns inside out and I’m at a loss of breath.

I don't even notice how my arm is tightening around Alissa till she shifts and groans slightly. Faster than instantly, I release my arm. She however has different plans and nuzzles closer into me. She always was quick to fall asleep. I readjust my arm to securely rest on her.

After a while we have another commercial break,  I hear a voice sweetly speak “Awwe who knew you two had a thing together?” Looking up I see Ashley standing in front of us. I straighten up at the sight of the pop star known as Hasley.

“We don’t.” I mutter.

“You sure ‘bout that bud.” She gestures to Alissa’s frame cuddled into my own.

“Damn sure.” I mumble. Ashley rolls her eyes but smiles all the same. Alissa begins to stir in her seat. I look down at her to see she is waking up.

“Mmm what time is it?” She mutters lifting her hand up to her eyes. Carefully she rubs her eyes.

“Ten thirty.” Ashley answers before I even pull my phone out. Alissa’s eyes go wide at the sound of her voice.

“Holy fuck,” She whispers looking up at Ashley.

“Hi there, I’m Ashley.” Ashley puts her hand out for Alissa.

“He-ey, I’m Alissa.” The two shake hands.

“I know who you are sweets.” Ashley laughs.

“Holy fuck.” Alissa bites her lip a red blush crawling up her skin.

“Well I’ll leave you two lovebirds alone.” Ashley giggles.

“We aren’t together.” Alissa quickly removes herself off of me and crosses her arms.

“See, I told you so.” I whine to Ashley, whose eyebrow is arched up.

“Oh, I’m sorry you two just seem so cute together.” She quickly requips.

“Told you so.” Calum smacks me out of the blue. I glare at him.

“Oh would you both stop, I swear you’re worse than the fans when it comes to ships.” I growl.

“Agreed.” Alissa nods.

“Okay, okay. Well I best get back to my seat. It was lovely meeting you Alissa.” Ashley smiles and waves goodbye before walking away.

“I swear to god if one more person asks if we’re dating I’m ripping your head off.” Alissa turns to me.

“What? Why?” I ask wide eyed.

“Because then you’re dead and they won’t ship me with a dead guy.” She says as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world.

“Oh of course cause that’s so very, logical of you.” I laugh dryly.

“Oh just shut up.” she huffs.

“Great come back dollface.” I gauk.

“Whatever.” She groans then turns away to lean on Ashton. My heart feels a twinge of hurt as she rests her head on his shoulder.

“Jealous now?” Calum giggles. “Geez you’re in deep.”

“I swear to fuck, you annoy me way too much.” I groan.

“You love me,” he laughs. “And you know it.” He says pinching my cheek.

“Fuck off.”

“Nah man.” He giggles with joy at the reaction he’s receiving from me.

“Rip my head off.” I mutter.

“Calum leave the poor boy alone,” Luke finally buts in.

“Thank you.” I smile gratefully.

“Only reason I said to is cause you’re annoying and I want to hear what Dave Grohl has to say.” He points to the left side of the stage.

“Oh fuck,” Calum groans.

“Silence.” Luke shoves him. “Or I will kill you.”

“Sorry.” He mutters.

Looking up at the stage I watch Dave ramble about how the next award is for best male pop rock band. We’re nominated, however we’re up against Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, and Neck Deep.  

“And the winner is,” here we go, “5 Seconds of Summer.” wait, what? Suddenly we are all standing. We quickly move to exit the row, however we each are stopped by Alissa. She squeezes each of us. I move towards her, her face contorts to a shy smile. Her arms softly wrap around my waist and I shudder to myself. I squeeze her tightly.

Before I realize it, she is letting go and we are walking to the stage. And Ashton is talking into the microphone.

“Thank you guys, We couldn’t of done this without our fans.” He exclaims excitedly. He moves away for Calum to speak.

My eyes wander into the crowd, my sight catches on the sight of Alissa who is now talking to Cole Sprouse, who’s just a little too close for my comfort.

“Yeah they are really are the best thing that ever happened to us.”  Calum then shoves me in front of the microphone.

“Yeah, uh thanks.” I murmur into the mic, my eyes never leaving the two. Cole’s hand was resting on Alissa hand. I grimace internally. I quickly move away and Luke takes over.

I tune what he is saying completely, glare intensely at Alissa and Cole’s hands. She then squeezes his hand for some, probably stupid, reason. I huff a breath to out, moving my hair out of my eyes thankfully.

“Dude lets go,” Calum then once again knocks me out of my glare. “Off the stage.”

“Got it.” I breathe softly.

“Are you alright man?”  Calum asks walking next to me.

“Did you see that Cole Sprouse was talking to Alissa?” I ask turning my head to face him.

“You seriously care?” He shoots.

“Well, I mean,” I pause to think about what I’m saying, I have no reason to act like this. She isn’t mine let alone a friend. “No I am just observing.” I say with all the confidence I can muster.

“Mmhm” He grins.

I ignore his knowing eyes and look straight ahead staring daggers at Alissa and Cole. Her eyes travel to mine and she quickly looks back at Cole and smiles happily at him. The fire in my stomach churns.

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2.3 Friend, Please

Alissa’s POV

Running into the Arena I bump straight into someone’s back side. “Erhm sorry.” I mutter quietly.

“Your fine love.” a familiar Irish accent speaks.

“Wait hold up are you,”  The stranger turns around facing me.

“Niall,” The Irish stud smiles holding his hand for out for me to what I presume shake. “Niall Horan.” I take his hand, however he leans down and presses a sly kiss to my middle and ring knuckles.

“I know who you are.” I blush looking back up at the boy that is no more than a few centimeters taller than me.

“Same to you Ms.May” My eyes widen. Niall fucking Horan knows my name.

“Aw Ali cat did you meet a lovely friend Nialler.” Calum suddenly knocks me back into reality.  Wrapping his arm around my neck. I blush looking Niall in the eye.

“Well we best get to our seats, yeah.” Niall says looking down at his watch.

“After you, Al.” Calum shoves me.  

“Well it was nice to meet you.” Niall laughs as I stumble.

“You too.” I gulp.

“Boys behave.” Niall stares up at the three other boys.

“Okay mom.” Luke speaks up. With that Niall strolls off to find his seat. “Our seats are row four, left side stage, seats seven, eight, nine, ten, and eleven.”

“We’re sitting together?”  I ask cocking my brow. The blonde nods.  “Well okay let’s go.”

Once we approach the seats Ashton is already there waiting. “Took you long enough.” he laughs.

“Well little Alli Walli ran into Niall.” Calum sing songs. I shake my head taking my seat where my name is neatly printed on a white slip of paper. I grab my bag and quickly ask Luke where the bathroom is.

“Down to the left.” Michael whispers. I quickly nod rushing to the bathroom.

Once in the stall I shed my two piece and boots. Throwing a band tee on then my onesie. Shoving the rest of the outfit into my bag. I toss on some vans and make my way back to our seats.

“Well what you staring at.” I ask quizzically.

“How great you look in Michael's tee shirt.” Luke laughs. I feel the color drain from my face.

“What?” Michael turns at the sound of his name.

“Your shirt on Ali cat.” Calum points down at the black Sum 41 tee.

“Holy shit.” Michael studies the shirt draped over my body. “That is my shirt.”

“Well then.” I cough. “I can take it off, and give it back.” I say turning to return to the bathroom to change. Before I can take a single step before I hear the pounding sound of music.  

“Just sit down we can deal with it later.” Ashton pulls me into my seat quickly.

“Welcome to the stage Selena Gomez.” An announcer's voice bellows.

“Ugh she’s so hot.” Calum and I say in sync. I blush looking over to see the kiwi boy giggling.

“She is.” Calum whispers bending over Michael, who of course, is seated besides me.

“Well duh she has the face of a goddess.” I gush.

“Guys, can you please get out of my lap so I can see the, ‘Goddess’ perform with you two in the way.” Michael shoves Calums face out of the way but doesn’t touch me. Calum pouts but faces the stage. I follow in suit.

The show continued with ‘big surprises’ Ariana kissed Selena, Kanye and Kim announced her love for her husband by making out. And, finally it was the boys turn to announce the winner of best new female artist. I was nominated but figured I wouldn’t be winning. Walking to the front of the mic Ashton began to read the screen.

“This year there were several new artists to come onto the scene.”

“One of the nominees is our friend Ali.” Luke continued.

“Let’s take a look at the rest of the nominees.” Calum followed. Slowly the names dragged out.  Finally the speaker stopped. Queuing Michael to speak.

“And the winner is..” The boy ripped open the envelope and smiled.

“ALLISSA MAY.” The boys screamed. I stood up shocked. Stunned I ran up to the podium.

“Holy fuck.” I screamed jumping into Luke’s arms. “I won like actually?” The rest of them surrounded us hugging me.

“Yeah now give a damn good speech.” He smiled resting me onto the ground.

“Okay.” I smiled at them taking the moonman. Turning I went to the mic.

“Okay uh, I can’t swear on live TV but Holy flip flops. I honestly can’t frick fracking believe this, Uh thanks to all the fans and uh management and all that jazz but ugh like Oh shit, I mean ship, I said ship. Thanks to all my exes for giving me the experiences to write about. And thanks to that guy who helped me tune my uke. God I don’t know what to say. Ship I got like twelve seconds left. Thank you to the catering staff on tour and to five seconds of summer for taking me on tour. AND THANK YOU, J-Kwon for writing Tipsy that shits a fucking bop. Oh oops Okay uh bye.” I blush and jump onto Calum’s back. “Onward my noble steed.” I point to the exit.

Once we are backstage Calum sets me down. “I don’t think I’ve ever heard someone thank J-Kwon for tipsy.” Calum howls.

“Literally I couldn’t even think straight.” I smile.

“Well you did it.” Luke smiles.

“I did.” I confirm mostly to myself than anyone else.

“Ali Calum.” A stage man comes up to us. “Can you do an impromptu duet?”

“Why them?” Michael asks before I even processes the crew members.

“You two are the biggest ship.” The crew member laughs pointing to Michael and I. “Gotta give them something to keep at bay.”

“We don’t have anything prepared?” Calum asks confused.

“Well duh you’ll lip sync?”

“You must have never met me before,” I stand in front of the boys facing the stage hand. “I’m Alissa and I will not fucking lip sync ever unless I am on RuPaul’s drag race. Do you understand?” I growl.

“Crystal doll face I’ll get Camila and Shawn to sing.” He huffs shoving past us. “Bitch.” With that I smile.

“Sorry Cal I really would want to do a duet but like not now.” I turn facing the black haired boy.

“No I get it,” He fake pouts, “You totally hate me.”

“Exactly.” I smirk.

“Did you guys just ignore the fact Michael and you are quote the biggest ship?” Ashton laughs.

“Yes.” Michael and I say in unison. Great.

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Hi

It’s come to my attention this cute little account has 255 people following. Thank you all you precious cuties

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Silly boy C.H

Calum would probably be eating you out while watching tv. You’d be so caught up in the feeling of his tongue lapping up and down and his fingers gliding in and out of you it would fully shock you when he’d slightly sit up and look at you with a grin. “What the fuck, cal?” You’d groan and he’d just smile “babe the tv is making me laugh sorry” he’d giggle along his words. You’d slam the power button on the remote to the point of almost breaking. But it’d get calum right back in between your thighs.

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Naps M.C.

Okay but not even in like a sexual way all I want is to take a nap with Michaels head in between my legs. Like just having him lay there and everytime he or I would shifted he’d like press a soft kiss to my thigh or just gently graze his teeth with his thigh. Like imagine just lying in bed after a long morning just to rest with a perfectly created human laying his pretty little head on your pelvic bones. And his scruff rubbing against the soft skin of your inner thigh would be the legit downfall of you. Wowwee I’m in love.

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2.2 Friend, Please

a/n: listen y’all do you even read this? like seriously I might just give up. Just write blurbs. Seriously y’all. anyway here is 2.2.

One month later…

Michael’s POV

Tour has been amazing as always. However it can be tiring. And thankfully we have a week off. The boys decided that we should all just rent a condo and stay there and sense the MTV music awards would be in LA as well, of course the three of them being the three of them said Alissa should be staying as well.

Luke, Calum, Ashton, And I sit in the living room waiting on Alissa to come down stairs to leave. Tonight was the night of the award show. Looking around I see that Calum is wearing a black bomber with skinnies, Luke is wearing dress shirt with skinnies, and Ash is wearing a rolling stones tee, with you guessed it skinnies. Looking down at myself I am pleased with my attire. I am wearing my jean jacket with a Iron Maiden shirt, snapback, and yes skinnies.

“Wow.” I heard Calum whisper suddenly. Looking up from my lap I see Alissa in a two piece black dress thingy. The top is lace and has lace sleeves the skirt matches. On her thighs were a pair of thigh high stockings her feet covered by a pair of busted up combat boots.  She looked stunning. My jaw dropped at the sight.

“Take a picture boys it will last longer.” She laughs. She scans each of us up and down. “You guys clean up pretty well too.”

“What can we say we’re twenty year old guys, and you look hot as fuck.” Ashton says giggling. Her eyes widen at his remark.

“I don’t know if that was a compliment,” Luke speaks, “But you look absolutely fit.”

She smiles at the shaggy haired boy's remark. “Thank you pooky.” She glimpse down at her phone checking the time. “We better get going.” Alissa then turns and picks up her bag.

“What’s in that? Rocks?” Calum scoffs.

“No, it’s my after carpet clothes.” She smiles. “I don’t like wearing all this,” she gestures to her outfit. “For a whole night. So I bring a onesie to change into.” She says holding up the Jack Skellington onesie hood.

“That is amazing.” Luke says shocked.

“Seriously, though we gotta go, limo is here.” I speak up. Hearing the beeping of a car we all shuffled out.

Arriving to the entrance of the red carpet the boys and I get out first. Being the last out, Alissa shoves her bag into my hands. Grabbing it I turn around to her and put my hand out. Which she takes. Standing she fixs her dress that had ridden up slightly do to sitting.

“Thank you” She says as she sweeps the hair out of her eyes.

“Urm,” I look to see her hair got stuck in the dress. “Turn around.” Surprisingly she does as I ask.  Lifting her aqua hair it reveals a tattoo of the moon cycle which looks to go all the way down her spine. I suck my teeth at the sight. “When’d you get it.” I ask.

“What? Oh, Uh two months after you left.” She says almost shyly. Turn to me she looks to the ground.

“Oh.”

“We should ugh, go.” She straightens up looking towards the carpet.

“Uh of course,” I say turning quickly.  As I begin to step I feel a tap on my shoulder.

“Michael, my bag.” Alissa turns me and takes her bag.

“Sorry.” I shuffle away as fast as possible.

“What was that all about.” Ashton whispers once I catch up to the boys.

“She has a tattoo.” I breathe out.

“Which one are you talking about?” Calum asks as we approach the flashing pen house of paps.

“She has more?” I ask shocked. Where, how does he know, did everyone know but me?

“She has like five now.” Calum laughs. “I’ll show you later. Let’s go.” with that we step over the threshold into the bright lights.

“Ally.” A woman cries trying to get a photo.  Looking over to Alissa she looks dead frozen. Without thinking I leave the boys to see her.

“Hey, Alissa.” I stand in front of the paps facing her stilled body. “Alissa. Look at me up here.” I say to her putting a hand on her arm I shake her slightly. She slowly blinks. She looks up at me still dazed. “Hey it’s okay you’re on a red carpet walk with me. We can name colors?” I used to use this as a distraction when she had panic attacks cause it would ground her.

“Okay.” She agrees nodding. I turn my body to be next to hers facing the direction of the entrance to Madison Square Garden, but still slightly to the lights.

“I’ll go first blue.” Looking down she is focused on the floor.

“Michael Alissa are you two together?” A reporter shouts. Alissa’s body stiffens immediately. I turn to the reporter.

“No, she’s not my girlfriend. She is my friend that’s it. Besides girls have cooties still” I groan. I hear Alissa giggle at my statement. I smile down at her. The paps take my outburst and leave us be.  

“Yellow.” Alissa smiles now facing the cameras. “Now get back to your band before I slit your throat.” She says through her smile. I just shake my head and jog off towards the boys.

“Okay now what was, that about?” Calum laughs I stand next to him and smile to the camera.

“Shut up. She was having a panic attack.” I roll my eyes internally. After a while of photos we are standing still.  

“Can we get a shot with you guys and Alissa?” A pap asks kindly.

“Alli!” Ashton yells. She turns to us and rolls her eyes with a smile.

“Yes Ashton?” she shouts back.

“Come here.” He cries. She laughs and runs to us. Even in her formal attire she acts as informal as it gets. Like me.

“What is it?” She asks as she approaches Ashton.

“Picture.” Luke points to the camera people.

“Oh okay, come here Luke.” She says motioning him forward.

“No, no with all of us.” Ashton laughs.

“Oh okay. Like homecoming?” She asks.

“I mean okay. Come here then.” Calum smirks. With that she sprints and jumps into Calum's arms bridal style.

“Wait that one?” Luke asks but still grabs her feet. “Wait where do I go.” Ashton asks.

“Here.” Calum says nodding his head to her torso.

“Oh god.” She laughs. Her laugh dies as if she realizes what I did the second she said homecoming

I slowly step to her and hold her shoulders in one hand and slowly cradle her head. I keep my eyes trained on the thin crescent at the small space on the back of her neck.

“Michael.” She shifts her head making me look up at her. She motions to the cameras.

“Oh yeah oops.” I smile as falsely real as I can. I look up to the cameras and smile widely.  

“Can we go in now?” Alissa asks.

“Please.” I beg.

“Fine let’s go.” Calum, Ashton, and Luke let go leaving me to hold Ali up. I shove her up into Calum’s chest thankfully he notices and catches her.

“If you wanted a hug you could've asked.” Calum laughs holding her tightly.

“No. Off. Need. Bag.” Alissa huffs. I turn to my side and watch Ashton pick up her bag and quickly runs into the arena, shouting.

“Come and get it.”

Alissa push’s Calum away and runs after him.

“I’m going to kill you Fletcher.”

“I guess that’s our queue.” Calum Laughs motioning us to follow in.

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Lovely

A/n: yikes I’m back on my bulshit of blurbs and lovely by Billie Eilish and Khalid are really hitting me so uhm here’s this.

Ashton had always been guarded. He didn’t trust most people when it came to relationships. He was always in his head about situations or interactions that would happen between people. His brain slowly deteriorating due to overthinking. That is until he you walked in during one of his writing sessions. You slowly broke down the pieces of his walls. You stacked the bricks in his mind away. You got him to open up, truly talk about the thoughts running through him. He finally being unlocked to trust others. Thanks to you he embraced being vulnerable. He welcomed fear with open arms. You gave him the key he lost to help himself.

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2.1 Friend, Please

Michael’s POV:

Once we finally get onto the bus I make my way to the bag bunk grabbing some pjs going into the bathroom I strip down my sweaty clothes and toss on the pajamas. I then proceed to the back lounge. Heaving my body onto the middle couch I switch the TV on to some random cartoon. Luke must have used the TV last.

Walking into the back a moment's later Calum stands in front of me blocking the view of the reruns of Spongebob.

“Move over.” Calum groans tossing my legs onto the floor.

“Hey, watch it.” I glare at him.

“Boo hoo.” He giggles. I roll my eyes, but laugh all the same. Calum plops down on the couch next to me.

Looking up Luke, Ash, and Alissa trail in. Luke and Ashton sit on the couch to the right of us and Alissa sits in between Calums legs.

I watch as Calum starts to play with Alissa’s hair, the way I used to do whenever we hung out. I tore my eyes away from the sight not wanting to watch them anymore then I had to.

“Can we watch criminal minds?” Luke asks with pleading eyes.

“ Are you sure you can handle it?” Alissa laughs.

“Of course I can.”

“I mean okay” I say with a yawn.

“Thank you bubby.” He smiles widely. Then smirks at Alissa.

“Yeah yeah.” I huff quietly.

After a couple of hours Ashton and Luke are dead asleep toppled on top of each other. Calum had gone to his bunk about a half hour ago. So Alissa and I were the only two awake. Sitting silently as the TV plays on, Alissa makes her way on to the couch. Now sitting only a foot between us, she grabs the blanket off of the armrest, laying it over her body nuzzling into the pillow next to her. She quickly begins to toss and turn trying to get comfortable.

“Ugh I give up.” She huffs out pulling the pillow out from under her head. Suddenly she shoves it onto the side of my lap. Before I can ask what she’s doing she lies down with her head against the side of my thigh I stiffen at the feeling of contact from her.

“Relax.” She says nudging her head on my thigh sleepy. Instantly I let the tension in my body release.

She quietly keeps her eyes trained on the TV. I can’t help but stare down at her aquamarine locks. Her face is so calm and content. Not a trace of exhaustion.

Slowly I rest my hand against my thigh, just touching the crown of her head. Alissa doesn’t seem to care or notice it, so I choose to leave it there. Gradually I start to run my fingers through her roots of her hair. How the hell is her hair this soft with the amount of dye in her hair?

“Aloe Vera.” She hums out.

“Did I-I uh say that out loud?” I ask timidly halting my hands movements.

“No I can just read your mind, of course you did dumbass.” She laughs tiredly, observing the two sleeping boys to the right of us.

“Oh,” I hum softly. Suddenly her head nudge at my arm.

“Rub.” she whines rubbing her head against my arm.  Looking down I see she has her eyes open facing the TV.

I lift my hand up and ghost my hand over her temple, shifting the hair that had fallen back behind her ears.

Alissa’s POV:

I feel Michael’s hand sweep my hair out of my face, and I can’t help but bite my lip from the feelings rising in me. A wave of anger, sadness, guilt, and joy surged through my veins.

This used to be so normal. Late nights laying on each others couches. Just enjoying one and others company. We sometimes would just sit there not even with the TV on, without our phones, no laptop, nothing but our breathing to keep us company.

Looking slightly up I see Michael already looking down at me. Only for a moment do we keep the gaze. But before I can even process the fact he is he looks straight at the TV.

Frozen in my spot I study his jaw structure. The slight stubble that had grown. The small creases and lines near his mouth from that once permanent grin, now replaced with a slight frown. I see the way his under eyes have become droopy from the lack of sleep and the stress of five years on tour. Even though his cheeks still resemble a rosy tint.

His hand still coaxing through my hair. I feel my eyes become heavy, I try to strain them to stay open and watch as Matthew Gray Gubler fight off the unsub. However my eyes betray me as I fall into a dream state.

The next morning…

“Should we wake them up?”

“No look at him he’s never stayed asleep this long in years.”

“But when they do wake up there’ll be hell to pay for not waking them up sooner.”

“Shut up both of you and look, Ali’s waking up.”

Fluttering my eyes open Luke’s face is look straight at me. Looking up Calum and Ash are staring at me as well.

“What time is it?” I ask reaching up and rubbing my eyes.

“Noonish.” Ashton speaks up.

“Shit why’d you let me sleep.” I squeal sitting up with lightning speed. Suddenly a loud groan comes out from the right of me.

“What the fuck man.” Michael growls clutching his side.

“Wait.”

“Told you we should’ve woke them up.” Luke mutters.

“What are you talking about.” Michael asks confused.

“Well you two may, or may not of, fell asleep next to each other on the couch.” Calum says shakily.

“What do you mean fell asleep next to each other.” I ask pointly.

“What he means is you fell asleep with your head on Michael's lap.” Ashton huffs, He then turns to Calum, “Jesus you’re acting like this could start a world war. What’s so bad if they fell asleep next to one and other. It’s not like you guys had sex.” Ashton says with a groan.

“But they’re mad at eachother.” Calum says nervously.

“That doesn’t mean they can bring us into it. If they want to act like toddlers about this then let it run its course.” Ashton says calmly to Calum.

“Ugh guys, we’re still right here you know?” Michael stammers.

“Good then maybe you should listen. Now get over it and don’t whine about us letting you two sleep. We all know you two have barely slept, we just want you guys to be at your best. Now get up we’ve got soundcheck in an hour and a half.” Ash grumbles out.

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2.0 Friend, Please

Michaels POV:

Looking over to the side of the stage the stage hands work effortlessly to transition the sets. Their movements seem in sync with one and other, like they are apart one single made machine. I lean my back against one of the platform walls tugging my hands down my face trying to calm myself.

Shaking my head I chuckle to myself. Who would’ve thought a girl I left behind would still have this strong of an affect on me. I swear if this is how the tour is going to be like, I don’t know how I’m going to make it.

“Mate.” Ashton smacks my back.

“Huh, oh what’s up?” I ask blinking. He rolls his eyes at my surprised.

“Bro are you going to be alright?” Ashton asks.

“What? Of course I can.” I shake my head in surprise.

“Okay, I just don’t want you to flip your shit” He says lessening his harden tone.

“Ash, I’m alright.” I smile looking into his eyes.

“Okay man. We better get our earpieces set up.” he motions for me to walk over to the earpieces.

Once our earpieces are in Calum and Luke both come up to us.

“Hey man.” Luke says smiling. “You good?” He asks.

“Yes, god guys chill out.”  I say dragging  my hands down my face.

“Oh stop teasing the boy he’s just in love.” Calum whines.

“Oh my fucking christ, shut the fuck up I don’t love her.” I growl shoving my earpiece in.

“Leave it guys.” Ashton mutters.

“Alright alright. We’ll be nice.” Luke giggles.

“Okay boys you ready?” The stage right manager asks. We all exchange nods and she smiles. “Alright, you’re on in 5.” She says holding her hand up for emphasis.

“Gotcha.” Calum tips his head to her.

“Let’s go.” I grab my guitar swinging the strap over my shoulder.

“Wait guys.” I hear a small voice from behind me. Turning around quickly I am met with the face of Alissa frantically running towards us. “Guys. You forgot to tell we where I can stand to see the show.” She huffs out a breath blowing her bangs away.

“Oh uh.” Calum mumbles. “Here?” He asks us.

“If you go down the little walk way right there.” I point down the hall. “ And you go to the first door on the left you can get out to the seats.”

“Wait I can do that?” She asks with a wide grin.

“Well we’ll need to send someone with you.” Ashton says hesitantly.

“I’m a big girl Ash.” she says patting his chest. “I can handle it.”

“But, if you get lost,”

“Here Alissa take this.” I hand her my set list. She raises her eyebrow at me. “Be back by Hey Everybody.”

“Thank you.” She says softly.  “Well I’m gonna go.” She says turning to walk away. “Uh good luck guys break a leg.”

“Thank you.” Ashton waves her goodbye.

“You guys are on in.” The stage manager interrupts, “30 seconds, get going.” She says shooing us onto the stage.

We walk onto the stage and the old familiar screams howl. I take my stance in front of my microphone. Smiling as the lights go up I look towards Luke.

“Good evening Manchester.” He half yells into the mic. “We are 5 Seconds of Summer. Let’s get this this show on the road, yeah?” He smiles.

Looking to my feet then back up I freeze. “Uhm, heh, guys what’s the first song?” I ask feeling blood rush to my cheeks.

“Oh yeah you gave Ali yours.” Calum laughs.

“Well she wanted to see the show.” I defend. “We couldn’t just let her run wild.”

“Oi, I thought she said she was a ‘big girl?’” Ashton asks.

“She is going to be pissed at you three, when we see her.” Luke giggles. The crowd is screaming in encouragement.

“Well maybe we should sing something, yeah?” Calum asks. “This is a little something we call She’s Kinda Hot.” He shouts.

I start to strum the beginning riff. Luke starts up.

After Hey Everybody it was my turn to talk. “Hi guys, how is everyone?” I ask laughing. The crowd starts yelling. “Alright, alright, how did everyone like Alissa May?” I ask tilting my head. More yelling. “Right,”

“We love that girl,” Luke interrupts. I look over to the side of the stage to see Alissa’s head thrown back laughing. I smile contently at her. She’s so pret- wait what am I saying. I shake my head trying to bring myself out of my thoughts.

“Michael?” I hear Calum yell.

“Huh what? Oh uhm, what was I saying?” Luke laughs.

“How would we know?” Calum asks laughing as well.

“I dunno.” I laugh. “Well the next song we’re going to sing goes a little something like this.” I start to play the beginning of She Looks so Perfect.  

As we exit the stage I rip out my ear pieces and smile.

“That was a good show yeah” Ashton says jumping around.

“Yes Ash,” Calum says putting a hand on his shoulder to hold him in place. “It was a great show.”

The four of us are escorted to the back to the dressing rooms.

“Guy’s” Alissa runs towards us now in a loose fitting David Bowie shirt and a pair of sport shorts. Her shirt goes down past the shorts end making her look like she isn’t wearing pants.

She latches her arms around Calum’s unsuspecting neck.

“You guys were amazing.” She says swaying her and Calum back and forth once he hugs her back.  

“That’s what we should be telling you.” Ashton returns grabbing a hold of her and petting her head.

“Thank you.” she says in a mousy voice.

“We should get to the bus now chick and dicks.” Luke says shoving me. I nudge his hand off but give him a quick smile.

“Shall we.” I asks ushering him to the door. He returns my smile and slides past me towards the bus.

“Why thank you my good man.” Luke holds back a laugh.

“Who would've thought Michael could be a gentleman.” Alissa giggles. I turn my head towards her and glare. She just smirks and gives me the finger. This is going to be a long ass night.