alive but not living

maybe living isn't for everyone ht: 5’9 sw:82kg cw:63kg gw:59kg ugw:55kg

[idciyrc]

[classicthinspo]

Fave

[skumbags]

[ptsd-poetry]

I’ve worked hard for this anger. But I need to let it go. 

[openyoureyesyoukilledme]

[dis-tortedperfection]

03-30-19

weight: unknown

[yoursunshineandrain-deactivated]

Goals

[im-starving-but-fat]

In the mood to never eat again.

[and-there-is-no-hope]

“Perfectionism is self-abuse of the highest order.”

— Ann Wilson Schaff

[empty-and-lonely]

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[ibelongwith-you]

[dis-tortedperfection]

My roommate texted my mom that i was spiralling and now I’ve been forced to come live at home and put into refeeding.

I’m not sick enough for this this isn’t fucking fair i don’t want help

[dis-tortedperfection]

two people at work, both a coworker and a regular customer, today told me i looked like i lost a lot of weight and oh boy the feeling of that... euphoric and also humiliating

[selfdeprecatingmeme]

trauma didnt make me soft it’s made me angry and empty

[scntrx-deactivated20191108]

[dis-tortedperfection]

what is it about laxatives that make them SO FUCKING ADDICTIVE every time i tell myself it’s the last time but it never is