During the last class, I've presented my 4D piece. An visual and audio experience of someone, more specifically a child, going through the process of developing schizophrenia. In terms to how it relates makes to "deracinate", it is also the process of their brain disassociating them from reality. Things become unfamiliar, and they can not what is real or what is fake, so much so that it becomes a world that they only live in.
As previously mentioned in other writings, the audio portion was proven to be the most strong part of my 4D piece, though I had some suggestions to refine the video so that I can finally call it done.
As the due date draws near, slowly I am putting on the finishing touches on my projects. The word deracinate means to "up root", I've have taken a more metaphorical approach towards it for the majority of my works.
Schizophrenia is my main topic of interests, but it is more or less the slow disassociation from reality that people affected by it has to face if left untreated. If deracinate is more associated with colonialism and segration, think of it as your mind displacing you from reality and your familiarity from of the world.
The 2D piece, is my introduction to it, the children book. The ink blot tests were commonly used to test schizophrenia, most people see one thing while some don't. Like how people from different cultures, will have different customs for certain things, but it seem strange towards others who are out side of it.
The 3D piece, the puzzle blocks, is a little bit more experimental to me. I'm more familiar with digital and 2D formats of designed so creating something more tangible isn't my strongest area. I've tried to recreate the experience of having schizophrenia with the easy task of solving a couple of block puzzles though slowly they becomes unsolvable while a "audio companion" is trying to direct you in how to solve the puzzles in a more or less condescending manner. The theme of "corporate sanitization" is consistent while I was creating this piece.
Aspects of schizophrenia, includes being unable to function properly as you may used to, and hearing voices. Emulating it through corporate dystopianisn seems to be a good way for me to translate it to a broader audience, as well the flaws within it through the little imperfections in this piece. It's clean, it's inhuman, emotionless, it's a one size fits all experience, mostly. There is this idea that technology will shape our future, and it will one day take over of our jobs, necessities. I don't like the idea of technology controlling our lives, and telling us what to do as if it knows what I want to do with my life and feelings. Though big tech companies always pride themselves to be "perfect" when there is a lot wrong with them when it comes to their products, and as well as their ethics.
I've already explained my intentions for the 4D piece earlier for this writing initiative. Though my choice for using abstract sounds, and images brings a surreal-ness that makes you feel out of placed and brings chills to your skin. I think we need to be uncomfortable when learning things such as schizophrenia in order to understand it, being discomforted is another form of displacement. But also the video is suppose to show the process of the disconnect from reality.
For how much I was focusing on the abstractness of the subject I'm handling while trying to not sensationalize or over saturate it, a tear away calendar is my reflective piece. Everything has become a blur during this whole semester, so I've combined my entire process from start to finish in one calendar. It is the most literal thing that I've created when relating it to "deracinate". I'm never one to to have a clear plan on what I'm doing, otherwise I will lead myself towards disappointment, the calendar is a more physical representation of my mind within these last months; the struggles, the successes, and the new things I've learned along the way. I think it's a great way to end it off. Now I need to finish up the last few things that I need to do.
snowghoul
kianamaiart
gummygunk
tangentwithtanner
areudirty
germansingergirl
jbbartram-illu
titsay
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