wreak havoc

insane. hopelessly hopeful. addicted to self destruction. dying is my death wish. my dog is better than any person or song I have ever encountered. I wish I had a will to live. neurotic, extra terrestrial, super sexual, innocent disgrace.

[disillu5ion]

I am not a real person. don't waste your time on me.

[socialpsychopathblr]

[disillu5ion]

Or even lie on the bed next to me, nervous and afraid, fumble with your fingers on my skin like you’ve never read a map before, you can’t hurt me don’t worry, I trust you completely

[disillu5ion]

I need to be pushed up against a wall in a random public place and fucked like I’m gonna die tomorrow

[unrightful]

[heartbreakhur]

[vijara]

look: the right people will get it. the right people will see you and appreciate you for the person that you are. the right people won’t require you to dilute, censor, or edit yourself in order to be worthy of their time and affection. you don’t need to waste your time on people who are committed to misunderstanding you 

[prospects]

[m-angojpg]

[redwingjohnny]

[indigodreams]

redwingjohnny:

Sunrise Moon Walk

by Judy Grant 

[estcoast-dreamer-deactivated201]

[heartsnmagic]

[luthienne]

“I feel very small. I don’t understand. I have so much courage, fire, energy, for many things, yet I get so hurt, so wounded by small things.”

— Anaïs Nin, from Nearer the Moon: The Previously Unpublished Unexpurgated Diary, 1937-1939

[soft-princesa]

My own attitude stress me out sometimes. I be mad at me for being mad

[shakespearean-soprano-deactivat]

SEND ME A GREEK GOD

Aphrodite: what you find attractive in a person

Apollo: favourite piece of music

Ares: opinion on war

Artemis: favourite animal and why

Athena: share a piece of wisdom

Dionysus: red, white, or rosé?

Demeter: favourite season and why

Eros: describe your crush

Hades: do you believe in life after death?

Helios: opinion on tanning

Hephaestus: do you think disability can ruin a relationship?

Hera: opinion on feminism

Hermes: last text you sent

Hestia: describe your ideal house

Pan: opinion on gay rights

Persephone: is climate change really a thing or is everyone just overreacting?

Poseidon: list three fears

Zeus: three places you want to travel to

[bpdroses-deactivated20180617]

having fake confidence with bpd is wild because for one second you’re a flawless queen ready to drink the blood of your enemies and five seconds later you feel like a ant in a human world everything and everyone is too big and terrifying

[bitterdollie]

some bpd dissociation moods

- intense, uncontrollable sobbing when you get hit with that wave of unreality

- or screaming

- or both

- lying on the cold floor. that’s it. you’re just laying there, empty.

- doing something impulsive because you want to feel real/things to feel real

- i dont have a personality and nor do i have a body

- feeling more alone than you normally do because no one else is real

- stressing out for a few hours only to dissociate on continuum for the next couple weeks

- hopeless laughter as you sink further into the void