multiply me times what you adore most

𝘴𝘩𝘦/𝘩𝘦𝘳, 𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘰𝘮

[andoutofharm]

The dark is generous and it is patient and it always wins – but in the heart of its strength lies its weakness: one lone candle is enough to hold it back. Love is more than a candle. Love can ignite the stars.

star wars: revenge of the sith (2005 film, novelization by michael stover) // a new hope // return of the jedi // demolition lovers (my chemical romance)

[hermannsthumb]

saw a post and it reminded me of my special little guys

[newmannheadcanons]

I've seen all the head canons under the sun for how the drift affects Newt and Hermann, and just Newt, but never any about how it'll affect just Hermann. What is your headcanon for that?

Oh man. This could take a while.

There are two levels to this: physical effects and mental effects. But first we gotta talk about how drifting actually works.

So Newt’s jerry-rigged helmet has like a three-pronged clamp that goes over your head and a thing that goes around your neck. I am not an engineer, I have no idea what these things are supposed to do, but the fact that Newt (building this under time constraints and out of junk in the lab) included the neck thing means it’s gotta have a more useful purpose than balancing the device on your shoulders.

After Newt drifts the first time he collapses and shakes and in general looks like he’s just had some kind of seizure. May I direct your attention to this map of the brain and this excerpt of wikipedia:

The cerebellum (Latin for “little brain”) is a region of the brain that plays an important role in motor control.

The neural bridge technology was developed to allow two pilots to work in synch, to move their bodies in synch in order to pilot a Jaeger together. That bit that sits on his shoulders and around his neck must tap into your cerebellum somehow, and that working in tandem with the top bit, the red three-pronged bit (which presumably taps into your frontal and/or parietal lobe to access your memories), allows two people to drift.

So… now that that’s out of the way.

I am on the “Hermann has MS” boat. The wikipedia page for MS summarizes it by saying that MS is an inflammatory disease in which the insulating covers of nerve cells in the brain and spinal cord are damaged. This damage disrupts the ability of parts of the nervous system to communicate. Now, I’m not a doctor. I’m also not very good at reading medical texts, so my research for this has been a bit sloppy. If anybody has any more information, please share it with me, because I’d hate to be responsible for the misrepresentation of this real life illness for the sake of my headcanon for a fictional character. With that disclaimer having been said… it seems to me that, if Hermann’s limp and that swallowing thing he does (see this post —> http://myfavoriteismike.tumblr.com/post/84500086835/i-have-this-headcanon ) are in fact a symptom of MS, then the section of his brain that is affected is, at least in part, his cerebellum. Which makes this whole thing so much worse to me, like wow, Hermann Gottlieb is a braver man than I could ever hope to be if he went into the drift knowing full well it was gonna (whether using electricity or chemicals or some kind of radiation or a combination of all three) mess with his already damaged brain.

I don’t think there’s any way he didn’t suffer some serious adverse effects post-movie. I don’t know what exactly I think happened to him, but I don’t think he could have just walked away from this unchanged physically and I really hope that his and Newt’s rockstar status as the scientists who saved the world allowed for really good care for him. I can just see them all in the shatterdome, having the “we cancelled the apocalypse!” party, and suddenly Hermann’s like “I don’t feel right” and then he kind of collapses and they have to rush him to a hospital and Newt’s like “this is bullshit we saved the damn world we’re gonna get the best specialist we can find for you, Hermann” and then there’s a lot of hospitals and surgeries and Newt sleeping in hard plastic waiting room chairs. I honestly don’t know what I think happens to Hermann but part of me feels like this fandom has a disturbing lack of an “Alone on the Water” type fic and would like to point out that this would be an excellent place to write one. (The rest of me finds the idea of hurting Hermann any more than he has already been hurt physically repugnant and begs you all to disregard that “Alone on the Water” comment.)

In any case, this drift was physically damaging for Hermann but he did it anyway because the alternative was letting Newt go through it alone a second time and he just couldn’t let that happen. Hermann really loves Newt, okay. Hermann loves Newt so much.

On the mental side of the coin… to use a probably overused metaphor: Hermann is order and Newt is chaos. That’s the nature of their personalities. Hermann says “politics and poetry, promises, these are lies” and that “mathematics is as close as we get to the handwriting of god”. I don’t really think he believes this, this is more of a self-defense mechanism, telling himself that he’d be wasting his time being anything other than rational organized logical guy, and he damn well knows that that’s everything Newt isn’t, and yet he drifts with him anyway. He knows Newt’s habits and behaviors and he knows how messy it must be in there, but he chooses to go have a walk through Newt’s brain. That “I’ll go with you” scene is so powerful to me because Hermann knows that he’s about to lose this self-imposed order, he’s gonna destroy his own forced perception of himself and Newt’s perception of him as well because who would ever guess that Hermann would volunteer to drift with Newt. And order and chaos are polar opposites, you know, and polar opposites cancel each other out. Hermann comes out of that drift a different person than when he went in, I am sure of this fact, and I wish people would write more about the thought process leading up to this decision and how heroic and brave and amazing it was to do that. You don’t force yourself to the point of “politics and poetry, promise, these are lies” without a lifetime of self-doubt and I don’t think there could be anything more terrifying for Hermann than knowing that you’re about to give up that shell and let someone else see you for what you really are and change you. But he does. He does that for Newt.

…I didn’t realize I had this many feelings about Hermann Gottlieb. But I do. I have many many feelings about Hermann Gottlieb.

[alhashimis]

FRIENDSHIP WEEK: DAY 3 Hugs & Kisses

Well, being a Derry Girl... it's a fucking state of mind.

The Derry Girls in Derry Girls (2018—2022)

[lousolversons]

You’re not serious figures. I love you, but you are not serious people. SUCCESSION HBO (2018 - 2023)

[andoutofharm]

patrick & pete + cryptophasia:

noun. Language that is private or impossible to understand, particularly the odd transmission trends which are occasionally formed between twins and are comprehendible only to them.

( pete’s twitter / interview on elvis duran (gifs and description by pigeoncowboys ) / patrick interview (source unknown) / interview with rolling stone (2018) / interview with zane lowe (2023, gifs by 1833outboy ) / kerrang issue 1554 / pete’s disloyal order of water buffaloes annotations / pete and patrick as the two halves of the new smiley face logo / pete's twitter)

[sappheerie]

my chem /fall out boy lyrics parallels. feels like reading the gospels and seeing the same events referenced in each one of them .

[deflect]

shit burn gorman says about newton/newmann

x , x , x

[missanthropicprinciple]

“a bit of love there”

“doing science”

[noshapes]

27 // fall out boy

[omegalomania]

Folie à Deux (French for “A Madness Shared by Two”) is the fourth studio album by American rock band Fall Out Boy, released on December 10, 2008.

Happy 12th anniversary, Folie à Deux!

[fivestarcunt]

Never not thinking about this

[10-4567gdqt-deactivated20180829]

Pacific Rim Gag Reel + Charlie Smiles (｡♥‿♥｡)

[pygmypouter]

their magic their quest their awfulness and strangeness etc etc etc you get the drill

[disloyalbuffalo]

One direction.. one dee .. 1d ...

[alhashimis]

The Gang F***s Up Abbott Elementary (S17E01) IT'S ALWAYS SUNNY IN PHILADELPHIA (2005—)

[disloyalbuffalo]

happyyyyyyy birthday pwentz .... i love sharing the burden of being a gemini with u ! thanks , as always , for making me who i am (insane) . much love! !!!

[rogers-carter]

Rinko Kikuchi as Mako Mori and Charlie Hunnam as Raleigh Becket PACIFIC RIM 2013 | dir. Guillermo Del Toro