“People fear someone falling out of love with them, but no one usually questions what it’s like to be the one falling out. They can’t picture feeling that something must be horribly wrong with you because there’s no other plausible explanation for why your heart doesn’t flutter when you look at him like it used to. It was the position I never thought I would find myself in, yet here I was, looking at the man I supposedly loved and not feeling a thing. If there was anything there, it was negative. Annoyance, anger, sadness, the complete opposite of everything he used to make me feel. It wasn’t right to let him believe things were okay, so I told him. Watching his facial expression drift from a quiet seriousness into a brokenness I never thought I would cause, I wished I didn’t mean the words I said but I knew I did. I couldn’t keep running away, after all, where could I go when the person that used to feel like home no longer did?”
— Maxwell Diawuoh, Request: Telling the guy you love that you’re falling out of love for the same reason you fell in love with him.
i dont think i was ever /in love/ with her. i think i loved the idea of her. thats why we were together for two years. i thought it was a depression episode and it would get better and id feel like it was in the beginning. it did not. i broke her heart. i was her first boyfriend. i promised her i would stay but i lied. spending my life with her felt like a life not worth living. do not stay with someone when you are not happy. do not stay with someone to make them feel better. put yourself first.
