Kuya Alex

1990 // Filipino-American

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I’ve been away for like 3 years in hibernation . Parang ganon .

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Nervous.. a friend asked me to join his OPM band. I have been unsure of myself as either vocalist or keyboardist. Isa pa, unting unti nakakalimutan ko yung tagalog ko, since di ako nagtatagalog palagi tulad nung dati. Bat gising pa ako. 2am na dito whew.

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If I see some PH tumblristas posting about their cute couple relationships, instead of going “naol” I go “aweeee” cuz c’mon masaya naman ako para sainyo. Tis adorable to see.

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I just want everyone around me to be happy.

Yun lang.

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Sometimes di ko na kilala yung self ko lol. Like enebe, sino ka?! Hahaha

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Need some song recos, para lang mag soundtrip. I wanna iyak and feel human rn lol

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If ever you try to invite a close friend or crush to hang out and they say they are busy, siguro idodown mo yung self mo. If you have pride, you can say, "Actually, siyanga pala, di bale na, I have to catch up with my tumblr kuya pala." Then ayun, you can save face and vent to me naman. It hurts to be turned down because people get "busy" daw. It happens and it is part of adulting. But andito lang akong handang makinig.

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You can’t make someone love you back. You can still love them anyway because you care for them beyond all honesty that can ever exist in your heart. Love is one-way choice out of your care for the other person without asking for reciprocity. Relationships happen when the love goes both ways mutually. But love always moves. There can always be love to give.

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We aren’t meant for each other in this life as it is. If I can still make you smile and laugh, happy ako dyan. And once you meet the right guy, I won’t have to worry anymore. But I will always be here.

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Happy lang talaga ako if happy ka sa buhay mo. In some way, I can still care for you. Knowing that I am not the right fit for you and vice-versa. Relationships aren’t easy. Beyond superficiality and physical attraction, relationships can bring out the worst in us. And after the storms, you see the people you simply cannot live without no matter how many arguments. Ganyan talaga tayo. Tao lang tayo.

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Moira x Jason. Y’all tell me kung anong tingin nyo sa nangyari tas ako nalang makikinig. Yan parin ang trending dito samin sa States, specifically sa Filipino community namin. Open naman ako sa kahit anong perspective na meron kayo.

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I wanna say na ang pangit ko na. Pero may nagsabi sakin na kailangan ko maging nicer sa self ko.

So ano gawin ko. Self-deprecation in moderation?

It’s not humble. It’s merely being unkind to yourself. But yun na nga. Trying to overcome the tendency. Yung mindstate na ganito yung tingin ko sa self ko.

32 ka na, Alex. Di mo pa natutunan?

Hindi pa siguro.

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Out of hibernation . Ang tagal ko na di nagpost dito .

Kailangan ko ng catharsis .

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lunatical-skillage replied to your audio post: This really helps me with my insomnia. 

This song is so addicting lol…

I know right? I’ve been listening to this for days. lol

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Oh kani pud, i had a writing/poetry tumblr called lunatical-skillage. Mao na akong blog sa una katong 2013. I was only 23 yrs old katong time guysss!! 31 na jud ko im so old na hahahah. And i had crushes on some female writers/poets lol

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kasakit. ingna nalang ko ug unsay angay buhaton kay lisod kaayo nga maghulat hangtod makatulog daun mumata nga ibalik ang buhaton.

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kung pwede lang gani tika ingnan ug unsa.

miskang lisod kaayo, aynalang kabalaka.

kung dili makatug, basta safe tang duha.

daun murealise nga dili kanang ikaw ray isa.

naa pa kay mga kauban

diris kalibutan.

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malinaw replied to your post: malinaw replied to your post: malinaw …

oh wow .. that is kinda sad .. if it were me, i’d have to find some kind of replacement for pizza o.O at least you’re well now hopefully !

Food poisoning made me lose most of my appetite. It made me crave milk tea though. lol. Thanks bai :D

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For anyone who doesn’t know, ako nga pala si Malinaw. This was my old username back in 2012/2013 but I deacted many times due to depression/anxiety and social media burnout pero oks na ako I think(?) lol

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안녕 난 지금 피곤해 haggard pa more hahah