Stars Around Moon @distant-star-above-blog - Tumblr Blog

If you can't bother assessing the status of our relationship, at least assess yourself.

Do not make promises: 1) if it just meant comforting me with your words knowing you would break them 2) just to make a good impression 3) you can't keep 4) because I get really serious remembering them 5) you just sound stupid repeating it over and over and breaking it just the same 6) then pretend you don't know about them 7) if you won't take responsibility for your words 8) because I am so tired of hearing lies or half the version of truth 9) It feels so bad to be fooled over and over again 10) I have grown tired of excuses.

I am so tired of immature and childish arguments. I don't know what to make of pointless fights.

Note to self:

i have never felt this sad oh my goodness it is so painful i can physically feel my chest aching and my bones shattering i miss laughing so hard to the point that my stomach hurts and i can barely pause to catch my breath i miss screaming from the top of my lungs not because of anger but because of euphoria i miss my mom so much why is that when i feel sad all the negative thoughts rush to my mind what's happening to me

please help

why am i depressed oh my god i don't want to go to school for a while but the works and quizzes are piling up. i do not know what to do. am i sick or am i just stressed and depressed. i feel so weak oh my god

This is so freaking amazingly weird. I was almost finished composing directly from tumblr what I had published before this post when I felt the need to go to the bathroom. I was composing the piece in my phone with my earphones on without playing any music on. I just basically plugged in the earphones to the phone because I was planning to watch a movie later. So I locked the screen and then left my phone to where I was lying then I had gone to the bathroom. What I came to next is so weird. I picked up the earphones and plugged it in my ears only to find out that the music Photograph by Ed Sheeran is playing. "When it gets hard you know it can get hard sometimes..." those are the words I heard then I bursted into tears. My god. This is so weird but the song played until the end, that's when I realized it isn't just a song made for a lover but a song from a mother. Oh god the lyrics just fitted perfectly. I do not know how it played in the first place oh my god. This is astonishing. "It is the only thing that we take us when we die" "wait for me to come home" for whatever reason, I believe this didn't just happen for nothing. oh my god. July 9, 2015 1:34 am.

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When I was a kid I remember crying at night when the lights are off and everyone had fallen asleep. I cry just so my sobbing would break the silence at night and my mom would hear me and ask me what's wrong. I remember just how easily I would utter what I wanted to let out, just as easily how words flow from my mind finding its way out my tongue. I remember someone actually saying things that sounded so true and genuine. You could tell from her reassuring tone that everything will be fine. Then I would drift to sleep again forgetting what I was crying about that night, forgetting the feeling carried with it. But laying awake ten years from that memory was never the same. In fact it seemed to me that the world has turned its back. Tonight I cry when the lights are off and everyone had fallen asleep. I cry so silently so as to not break the silence when dreadful nights arrive, so not a single soul would hear me. Perhaps only a single soul could and would actually hear me. A soul where my own had been casted from. A soul keeping me alive tens years before this similar tear-full night. Perhaps I was crying so silently not because I wanted not to be heard. Perhaps the soul I wanted myself to hear me has already drifted away, farther than the noise of my sobbing could reach. So this is how it feels.

where am i going what am i doing how am i doing who am i now i am trapped in a void i know im covered in scars i dont show i am trapped in a void i know i am fading i am fading real slow

couple of years ago me: i have to be a good role model now me: oh wait i forgot im a piece of shit

*some additional side problems *some major financial problems *personal problems *behavioral problems *wants vs. have-to's *loses sanity *world falls apart oh im pretty sure im ok eh im fine oh ugh... lol