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and let me just make this clear

how much do i not give a fuck?

why now? i never doubt it but my gutt says something…

im going to let it be but fuck i’m uneasy #buttfuck

i wanna disappear under a rock and come back up in maybe like 3 weeks

they say no one is coming to save you

(but do we not believe in love anymore)

is love not coming

is love not here and now

would i miss it if i was flying (or falling)

them changes

sun, tears, thoughts, palm, truth, teal

ruesdeluxe

im depressed… i just realized… im fucking depressed again. it snuck up on me… fuck.

i have so much bullshit i’m ignoring. i’m not a good friend to myself rn. teaching love thru self love. i must respect myself more. i’m noticing the themes coming up. i can’t tell anyone. at least it feels that way. i won’t b here too long. be strong jada. stronger. i don’t like ppl tell me my truth. my morals , my principles, my values. stfu kindly. u can know the world but if you’re not ready it’s not going to set correctly. jada FUCK OFF AND BE ANGRY. it’s the only way you’ll get out. not being meek as taught formerly

#golfverawangs #grabbaprincess #journal

when you talk to me talk to me with clarity and clear intentions. words matter. i’m not backing you if u ain’t speaking in this manner.

smoking listening to al green judy, on facetime with uriel. his cute snores. as i reflect on my future, i think about him. i pray that he finds within himself the break he needs to actualize his greatest potential. I want to get out of this rut i am in. i can’t escape it. i cant run from it. (i keep forgetting by michael mcdonald is playing and omg its so good). i want to find a new path for myself. i am a bit bored. i need more adventure. i’m too curious to remain stagnant. life isn’t worth anything if im not growing. y’know? i wonder at times, does he love me like he says? is the distance going to get to him? does he know that i adore him? are we on the same page? (endless love by piero piccioni is playing) kris bday was yesterday it crossed my mind vaguely. maybe it’s age but im finally ready to commit unlike with past lovers. the love i have with uriel i want forever. i feel so lucky to have not only found him but committed to him. i am in love. i didn’t think this it could happen. not ever again. 4430 miles away feels so short when we’re on the phone. uriel’s girlfriend. i love how it sounds. i want to get sexy for him, be nasty to him. i wanna listen to him vent. be there for him in anyway i can. 4:16 am.