atelophobia bliss

Trying not to fall under one hour a day.

[hiyorelia]

I wish I could give my life to someone who actually wants to live it. I feel like it's not fair. There are People who are about to die, though want to keep living so badly.. I wish I could just switch places with them.

[davykesey]

[lauramakabresku]

God's grace wanders at night among the fields of the soul

[ronyogason]

• by Laura Makabrescu

[the-moon-whisperer]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[n6mcv]

“self-harm is a way of dealing with deep emotional pain. Hurting myself made me feel better when it was the only way I knew how to cope with feelings like anxiety, sadness, self-loathing, emptiness, guilt, and rage. It’s an outward expression of inner pain-pain that often has its roots in early life.”

[imthegirlthat]

[suicidal-society]

I don’t even want to kill myself anymore I want to just drop dead, maybe get hit by a train. I want people to forget about me just as fast as they did when I was around.

[suicidal-society]

It’s quite sad because it feels like if it were anyone else you would comfort them, be there for them but you won’t for me.

[outcastsuggestion]

i’m so discouraged. i thought things would have changed by now. but i’m stuck. and it feels like i’ll be stuck forever.

[outcastsuggestion]

i feel so stuck. everyone else is living their life and i'm frozen, watching it all happen.

[1617]

sleeping doesn’t help this type of tired anymore

[shoelace4-48-deactivated2022061]

i pretend like i dont need anyone because i dont have anyone

[kizzbitch]

when you want to die and hate your life and then your brain goes:

CONGRATULATIONS!!! you are now the worlds most ungrateful, unappreciative and self-absorbed bitch to live!!!

[dizzieelodd]

It’s hard isn’t it.

When you know what you could do, to make things better.

That it might hurt a couple of people to begin with, but they’d get over it.

They’d soon realise without, they can actually move on with their life. Not be in financial fear, be able to literally move away and not worry. To live their life, how they should. Without me.

It’s nearly 10 years since my first attempt and every single day since I whisper prays, hoping today will be the day I’d have the courage to try again. I wonder if I should do it myself, 3rd time lucky is supposedly a thing. Or wait till there’s a free car and hope the impact would work its magic. But then there’s the risk of others by doing that. At least alone, I’m hurting nobody but myself.

They say to talk about things, let it out and don’t hold it in. But what’s the point? People try to fake the kindness so they come off good, but nobody really cares; understandably everyone has their own worries and can’t be expected to pick up the slack when someone so replaceable, is feeling a bit low.

They say “you have loads to live for” but when you can give 10+ reasons why they would still be better off without you, does that statement still stand?

I don’t know how do it, when to do it and will it even be a success this time?

Urg.

It’s hard isn’t it.

[imsoofuckingsad]

do i really have to be alive every day

[sickdelights-deactivated2023091]

Don't ask me "wyd" i really just be in my room going insane and being a danger to myself