princess files

bloggy bunny sharing her soul in out loud secret 🤫

[djswissmiss]

i feel not like me writing things here, so bye again lil bloggy boo. 👋🏽👋🏽👋🏽 take care okays?

[djswissmiss]

face mask, yummy drink (with straw), videogames (tonight) 🏝🌺🌸🪷🤙🏽

[djswissmiss]

🐶😮‍💨🫩 back to what i was doing --->

[djswissmiss]

thats what evil does. when it does stuff to hurt you and you are not as affected by it as it wanted you to be. it keep harass you and bully you obsessively picking on you so you forced to focus on it, force to pay attention to it, wont leave you alone. i was try to be strong and stay positive. but now i feelin extremely depressed all of a sudden.

[djswissmiss]

he keeps try to call me and now the phone carrier is alert me about it and disrupting my peace of mind and re-agitating me and so i try my best navigate tk whatever settings to silence those notifications too. oh dear, i hope that does it. it like he has dedicate a portion of his life now to antagonize me. i just gotta try to hang in therem i prayed to God and ask Him to make him stop. now i just try to hang in there. it'll get betterm it'll get better. 😔

[djswissmiss]

yay: woke ups with some eye crusties fusing my hurt eye together

bleh: compulsively removed it and now mi eye hurtin agains ._.

yay: had a period of time where things were quiet like almost peaceful

bleh: went to check my phone for important messages and saw that the guy who hurt me try to call me twice again and then started get attack by intrusive thoughts about it

yay: found a way to also block calls from private numbies since he start call me from private number cause i block the second number he kept try contact me from

double yay: also select mode to hide calls from block numbers so i wont even see, wont even know 🙂‍↔️ tehehe

triple yay: tummy was hurtin but now im poopins so im happy that is comin out o_o of me and not stay inside. I've struggle with constipation and tummy problems a lot so i so proud of my body when it poops properly and/or at all. yayyyyyy 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 body you doing such a good job baby!!!!

so i am unsettled but we sit here at a triple yay. i think things will be okay 🙂🤙🏽🌺🫎🐶

[djswissmiss]

best to not looks around lil buggy boo >_< !...

[djswissmiss]

im gonna go try to be a bit more merry. 🙂👋🏽 i have a lot to smile about and lil fwens to hug 👍🏽🐇🐶

[djswissmiss]

so many people making me feel unwelcome and thats okaym God is with me and anyone who has me around will be blessed. anyone who is truly and sincerely good to me will be blessed. so anyone rejecting me is depriving themselves of goodness, it not me being deprived of goodness. goodness is already with me and that is God. He's helping me and things are just really icky right now in a lot of ways but there are also many blessings so even though im scared and unsettled and uncomfy im gonna still keep try to be okay and try be positive vibes. He doesn't want me to feel down that I'm being rejected and excluded, he tell me, what He will include me in and provide for me is far greater than everything im being turned away from and pushed out of and excluded from. plus being rejected in those mean judgemental ways just shows how the person actually is inside and i wouldve ended up being near a icky hearted being who was only wear kindness as a mask so. a blessing not so in disguise to have those kinda peeps be mean to me.

[djswissmiss]

i writing these for you bloggy boo, bloggy poo. i thought i was pushing through and doing something i always wanted and was maybe meant to (well yeah for as long as i did but i guess not any longer past that) but things just dont feel right. i thought it was everything around me seeping through but im not so sures now. these are the last pictures i will post. i love photos but only when they are just for me and my fwens, i dont wanna post or share with anybody cause they are too precious and sacred and meaningful to me and then i dont take as much pictures or with my meanings way because of it feel like it for someone else. and its not. i can have that comfort in my heart that i tried all the way past what i could. it just is not for me. and maybe never was. i dont know if ill still post my words or if i just write those somewhere else. we'll see. maybe a different feeling later but for now i feel like i dont know. i just dont feel safe around people. even the ones who are nice, dont stay that way. im tired of being judged and shamed and used and lusted after emptily and depravedly and resented. just for existing. and i already have to deal with that with physical and spiritual beings much less digitalsphere citizens o_o. i dont know. i was do it out of love. for me and for anyone out there pass by who feel something in their heart for me even if it is silently. but. this world is just too rough and mean and ugly for me. it hard to even think basic thoughts or function even a little to take care of myself how overwhelming and depressing and stressful people make things. so bloggy boo, this is your bloggy bunny, maybe signing off for good. these picture remind me of a memory that not mine, even more powerfully than what was actual going on ---- in middle of typing i got a phone call with even more bad vibes (not the guy who hurt me but just weird vibes phone call about my housing situation im trying to sort out). and had to make another phone call after tht tht unsettled me. i just feel so much people shaming me judging me treating me suspiciously. and im not doing anything wrong. and just so much negative attacks one after the other it feels. i feel scared. i dont really remember what i was gonna say next. but. these pictures were from a day/night where a miracle happen. and even though my feelings about it were dulled and hijacked. still is special. so, i put my last picture post of not the sacred ones but still special. and with that 🫡😊🪷🌸🌺🩷 i think im just learning it doesnt matter where you are in life or how beautiful. evil is in this world and is gonna pick on me and harass me and, there is just absolutely no escaping the pain in a lot of ways. but maybe it being so extra crazy now means something special is about to happen. maybe I'll get to be free soon

[djswissmiss]

i cant take much more of this but its okay because God is holding my hand and my friends sweetly smiling at me

[djswissmiss]

i feel sick and scared with how mean and uncaring people are being to me but I'm grateful i have somewhere to be away from them for the moment and i have my friends around me and smiles at me helping my heart and my mouth to curve upwards even if its gently. also i cant remember if its last night or this morning because I haven't really slept in a while but that guy who raped me who i blocked and then blocked again when text me from a new number apparently called me either last night or this morning the call filter thingy let me know and i just remember think like wow. he is really not stopping trying to harass me and be extra weird. but i think thats another blessing because it show me I can move on from even awful things and the ones who do the awful things as callous and uncaring towards you as they are, they don't be mean to you because you dont matter at all, it like you matter so much to them but in a negative way cause it like. why else would this person not leave me alone...so in a way it like show me hey look princess, you're gonna be okay. this person just trying to make it where you're not okay. because evil try to break me through him i guess and is angry im not behaving in a way that would "make sense" based on what happen. but it like, im already broken bunny. all i can do is try be as okay as can be. im really grateful for block features so i can still use my phone without being tormented

[djswissmiss]

i thought my phone battery was superpowers cause it would last me for days, but i must just have overestimated how much i was actually using my phone because now that I'm using it definitely so much more than before that battery is going down like a gas station slushie on a hot day before you even get the chance to take the first sip 😅 and i would know, that just happen to me today. had to double back to the machine and top up because excuse me where did you go???

[djswissmiss]

i'm in love. i know thoughts wiggle in. people wiggle in. ideas wiggle in. but it's really me and you in my heart.

[djswissmiss]

thank you my best friend lovie pie for be there with me >_< that was woooooo. thankfully i had the softest snazziest most gentle wipes in my lil pink purse so i feel so clean right now even after ummm poopgate. 🙄🥴😳

[djswissmiss]

i ate so many different things that could be the culprit of whats going on right now I'm not even sure what more than the fluffies i should not continue to eat >_< but thankfully thankfully we will be somewhere later we can poops if that is what this day becomes ._. and thankfully thankfully we have somrwheres to properly place our poopies right now too. I'm courtesy flushing like its my job 👍🏽 and i think I'm doing a really good job actually

[djswissmiss]

i know what will help >_< i will update when we gets it papa