SHE'S SO SOLID

you deserve a little grace. be kind to yourself.

[docmckay]

I'M A 42-YEAR-OLD R2. SO I HAVE MY OWN HATERS. TRUST ME. doctor bangs cassie mckay from hbo's the pitt. rushing through the emergency department, bangs askew, you thrive in the chaos - organized, predictable in its unpredictability, in a way your life never used to be. you see yourself in each of your patients, will go to great lengths to help them; maybe if you can, you’ll be able to forgive yourself for not being stronger for not being able to help yourself. CARRD & PROMPTS.

a quick (somewhat inconsequential, but important to me) psa for muses interacting with my cassie: never call cassie "cass". she realizes it's the go-to nickname for her name (even though people think cassie is already a nickname, which it isn't) so she doesn't blame people who call her by it without knowing. but once you do know, don't. that name is associated with a part of her life and memories she's trying to move on and heal from, and also she just. doesn't like it? you can literally call her anything you want as long as it's not that. she'll even accept full-naming her with names that aren't actually hers. wanna call her cassandra/cassidy/catherine for the bit? sure, go ahead; just never cass.

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐀 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑬𝑷𝑯𝑶𝑵𝑬 .    (  a  collection  of  texting prompts.  feel free to change phrasing.  potentially mature content within.  )

[ TXT ] : why are you still awake?

[ TXT ] : hey, where did you go?

[ TXT ] : it's getting bad again.

[ TXT ] : guess i'll just sit in bed. alone. by myself.

[ TXT ] : you can't ignore me forever.

[ TXT ] : i can't stop thinking about you.

[ TXT ] : just saw i called you last night. how'd that go?

[ TXT ] : i really need someone right now.

[ TXT ] : we need to make plans asap.

[ TXT ] : have you seen the news?

[ TXT ] : you were blackout drunk.

[ TXT ] : testing to see if you blocked my number...

[ TXT ] : do you know anything about doing stitches?

[ TXT ] : just please let me know you're okay.

[ TXT ] : did you forget we had plans?

[ TXT ] : i know you see my messages, your read receipts are on.

[ TXT ] : meet me at [ location ], it's important.

[ TXT ] : do you need comfort, to vent, or a solution?

[ TXT ] : is there anything i should bring?

[ TXT ] : call me. please, it's important.

[ TXT ] : i can't sleep.

[ TXT ] : have you eaten today?

[ TXT ] : you are always going to be my priority.

[ TXT ] : i haven't seen you around in awhile.

[ TXT ] : i had a dream about you last night.

[ TXT ] : the names are gonna get mean if you don't text me back.

[ TXT ] : at the risk of sounding cliche, what are you wearing?

[ TXT ] : just say the word and i'll drop everything.

[ TXT ] : do you seriously not remember?

[ TXT ] : come to the front door.

[ TXT ] : have you been drinking?

[ TXT ] : how do you feel after last night?

[ TXT ] : are you up? please be up.

[ TXT ] : you looked beautiful today.

[ TXT ] : i have so much to tell you.

[ TXT ] : no one's heard from you. are you okay?

[ TXT ] : who is this?

[ TXT ] : are you taking care of yourself?

[ TXT ] : thought i'd reach out and see how you're doing.

[ TXT ] : i miss the taste of your lips.

[ TXT ] : that kiss was really nice.

[ TXT ] : stop acting so high and mighty.

[ TXT ] : i left my [ item ] at your place.

[ TXT ] : are we still fighting?

[ TXT ] : i need help and i can't go to the hospital.

[ TXT ] : are you thinking about me too?

[ TXT ] : call me, i wanna hear your voice.

[ TXT ] : i don't want to talk to you.

[ TXT ] : what do you have to lose?

[ TXT ] : you don't have to ask, i'm already on my way.

[ TXT ] : i want to take a nap on you.

[ TXT ] : even if you called 6 months later at 3am, i'd answer.

[ TXT ] : what's my name in your phone?

[ TXT ] : how's trying to forget about me going?

[ TXT ] : i have nobody else to ask.

[ TXT ] : what do you mean you're at the hospital??

[ TXT ] : sorry, i think you have the wrong number.

[ TXT ] : good morning! you up yet?

[ TXT ] : do i sense sarcasm in your tone?

[ TXT ] : you start your day at 2pm?

[ TXT ] : you need MY help?

[ TXT ] : stop texting me.

[ TXT ] : i'll leave that up to your imagination.

[ TXT ] : are you asking me to sneak out?

[ TXT ] : when will i see you again?

[ TXT ] : if you come over, i'll order us a pizza.

[ TXT ] : are we ever going to talk about it?

[ TXT ] : can you come get me out of here?

[ TXT ] : you mean like ... a BODY - body?

[ TXT ] : it's just been one thing after another lately.

[ TXT ] : forgiving and forgetting is harder than it sounds.

[ TXT ] : i want your legs wrapped around my head.

[ TXT ] : call me when you wake up.

[ TXT ] : what are you doing that's more important than me?

[ TXT ] : i'm out of town right now.

[docmckay]

concept: orphan black au where cassie’s just one of many clones, people who have the same face but completely different lives.

[docmckay]

concept: orphan black au where cassie’s just one of many clones, people who have the same face but completely different lives.

[nephilaesthetic]

Send a 📱for 5 unsent text messages, and 1 sent message from my muse!

[mythshire]

⋆｡‧˚ʚ 𝐂𝐎𝐃𝐄 𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐄 ɞ˚‧｡⋆ ··· a collection of medical tension, hospital corridors, life & death stakes sentence starters. genre: medical drama, hurt and comfort, high stakes. 

• You shouldn't be working this shift—you're running on fumes. • I need you to trust me right now, okay? Can you do that? • When was the last time you actually slept? • Your hands are shaking. Let me take over. • I can't lose another patient today. I can't. • You're not fine. Don't lie to me, I can read your vitals from here. • We did everything we could. Sometimes that's not enough. • I'm calling it. Time of death— • No, no, no. Come on. Stay with me. • You need to step back. You're too close to this case. • I saw what happened in there. Are you okay? • The family's asking for you. I think you should talk to them. • How long have you been covering up these symptoms? • I don't know how to tell them their kid didn't make it. • Your shift ended three hours ago. Go home. • I've never seen you panic like that before. • We have a code blue! • You can't save everyone. You know that, right? • I need two units of O-neg!  • Why didn't you tell me you were hurt? • I found you passed out in the supply closet. • You remember that patient from six months ago? They're back. • I think I'm having a panic attack.  • Congratulations, Doctor. First solo surgery, right? • The board's asking questions about what happened during that code. • I can't feel my hands anymore. • Someone needs to tell the attending they made the wrong call. • I'm not supposed to be treating family, but here we are. • Your patient in bed seven? That's my sister. • They're crashing—get the crash cart! • I need you to walk me through what went wrong. • You stayed with them. All night. Why? • I haven't eaten in fourteen hours and I'm starting to see double. • The transplant list just got longer and our donor didn't make it. • You can't keep taking the hard cases. It's killing you. • I heard you crying in the stairwell. • This is exactly the kind of case that ended your last relationship. • Your ex just got admitted to our floor. • I'm sorry, there's nothing more we can do. It's palliative now. • You need to scrub out. Now. • I pulled a double and now I can't remember if I already gave that medication. • The family wants to sue. They're naming you specifically. • I know we said no relationships between attendings and residents, but— • You operated on them for eleven hours straight. • I'm not cleared to come back yet, but I'm here anyway. • Whose blood is that on your coat? • The on-call room is not for sleeping anymore, apparently. • You've been charting for three hours. Go take a break. • I made a mistake in there. A big one. • Your first loss always hits different, doesn't it? • They left AMA and now they're back, worse than before.

[kittyhelpsstuff]

Send 🏳️‍🌈 + A muse to get a headcanon about a facet of their queer identity

Could be their orientation, gander identity, how involved they are in their community, if they're poly, or a lot of other things

[docmckay]

we're getting red hair bangs mckay for season three chat we are SO back

[docmckay]

finally took my mcat after months of studying worst experience of my fucking life so now i’m free to be so annoying about one cassie mckay again ♥️

[docmckay]

i keep saying i'm going to try to be active, and i keep failing spectacularly. but! in three weeks i'll have taken my mcat, and it'll be cassie's birthday (may 15th, mark ur calendars) so i'm really hoping to really be back and writing by then. you can catch me on discord though (rosemarywitch) or wire (heymckay for cassie, baranalhashimi for baran, and gentlyrepose for everyone else) though i'm also really slow to respond there as well </3

[docmckay]

apparently one of the samira scenes that got cut was one of her and cassie before they both head up to the roof to watch the fireworks. and just. i wanna know what they talked about. was cassie asking if samira was okay? she doesn't want to pry, but from the little she'd seen (and from all the gossip she'd heard) samira's day seemed to get worse and worse as the hours wore on. did she offer a sympathetic listening ear, if ever or whenever samira would find herself in need of one? or was it simply a shared moment of recognition, of bone-deep physical tiredness and emotional exhaustion. release the samira cut, i'm not even joking.

[docmckay]

it’s always like. so hard to figure out whether i’ve been shadowbanned or i’m just uninteresting and unfunny

[docmckay]

anyway. cassie leaves the hospital after her shift, and only manages one of the three b’s. she’s too tired for the bath or book, so she showers (what is supposed to be a quick task, but she ends up zoning out under the spray until the water runs cold), pours herself a bowl of cereal (mini wheats, oat milk), and lays in bed, staring at the ceiling. for how exhausted she is, rest doesn’t come easy. it’s over an hour later when sleep finally overtakes her, after she’s (finally, at last) able to have a good cry.

[docmckay]

cassie i just wish i could cry again mckay getting her wish but god, at what cost like. this is absolutely the face of someone holding back tears. there's a cruel sort of irony, that she now has to bite her lip to prevent the tears from falling - when she had spent so many nights staring at her bedroom ceiling, dry-eyed, just wishing she could cry (wishing for relief from the callous hollowness she feels overtaking her day by day).

[docmckay]

people in the cassie tag really don't know what butch is do they?

[docmckay]

concept: cassie is a ghost haunting ptmc. your muse is either a fellow ghost OR a living who can see her … and that’s all i’ve got so far

[docmckay]

[ TXT ] : you need MY help?

[ text : doctor abbot ] is it really that surprising?

[ text : doctor abbot ] i mean, i know i'm not usually night shift and robby's my attending 99% of the time.

[ text : doctor abbot ] but i really do value your opinion ... so yeah, i need your help.