another bleeding heart

HOLIDAY of GENERATOR REX by RHEA

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six

If she could read his mind, she would know that she was right. It would have been about his memory, his increasing desperation to get it back. There was so much he lost, and at this point he wasn’t sure if he would ever regain them. Though all of that will wait for her. Anything she needed it would come first. 

He’s only seen her like this once before, and it didn’t end well for him. So, knowing that it really was him making her act somewhat flustered, he couldn’t help but feel his own heart race. Though he holds his calm demeanor, hoping she doesn’t have any reason to ever check his pulse. 

When she kisses him, he was sure his brain just completely turned off. As she walks away his face turns a very bright red. He makes his way towards the hanger, but he is sure to cover his mouth with his hand, trying and failing to hide what he was feeling behind it. He’s not sure that she’s still even in the room when he speaks, but he still spoke as if she was still around. 

“I-I’ll see you in ten.” It was safe to say that he was excited… Excited to be with her. 

The attempt to maintain whatever the hell they were, before, before the amnesia, before the time Rex had gone missing, before, before, before. It had become so incredibly crowded in her head lately. Heels of palms cover her eyes, sliding against her now closed door.  She hopes he can’t tell how stressed she is. How desperately she’s trying to not fall apart. Everything had gone back to normal. no more outbreaks, no more chaos. Except Rebecca Holiday felt like she was in the middle of two storms, sternly pulled in every-which-way except where she wanted to go.  That same mentality, to just file it away for later investigation, tended to get her stuck on things. Clothes are haphazardly thrown on, it’s not so much about what she looks like so much as she doesn’t want to wear scrubs out with him. Out. Drinks. There’s that slow ribbon to wrap around her, an anchor, amidst chaos that makes her give a dry little laugh. She’s happy even if there’s such a grand uncertainty hanging itself at her door. He wants to remember, and it hurts her that she can’t help Six at all.  Heavily she exhales, hands clasped in front of her, as she tilts her head to look over the vehicle of choice. “ the bike? kinda feels like a Rex influence.. “

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six

He feels a bit of heat rise to his cheeks as she herself gets somewhat flustered. His initial instinct was to adjust his glasses, to draw attention to the eyes that she can’t read instead of his face. Though he was thankful regardless that she was currently looking away. She always had a knack for reading him like a book. 

Having to consider this as ‘we’ time, as well as trying to relax certainly was quite a big task for him. All that that he could fixate on was trying to keep her happy and safe. Her smile would be something he’d give his life for. Though he did have to consider, that they weren’t on the job at the moment, and really didn’t have to worry about any impending danger. Though there was always the smallest chance that something could… 

He let out a frustrated sigh. Why was this so hard? Relax Six, the two of them were just at a convention where many great minds all gathered, with what he believed to have the greatest mind standing next to him. Places more secure like Providence have had attacks make their way inside, could this be different?

He quickly realized he was winding himself up, this wasn’t what Rebecca was asking of him. There was always a chance that this would turn out uneventful and he could be stressing himself over nothing. He was here with Holiday, he would be next to her for essentially the entire time. He just had to remind himself of that. 

“What were you saying about the scientists who did the patent for my blades?” He hoped changing the subject would help… distract himself and her from the paranoia that was swirling through his head. 

A hand is placed firmly on his arm, gaze moving across the floor. An extremely poor attempt at gathering her thoughts at what she could possibly say to him. Especially because she, well, she was just really awful at admitting what she was thinking. And it’s not beneficial, it’s driving her mad, just to not say anything to him at all, but then, it’s a constant boring reminder in her own voice. She doesn’t want the chemistry to get all mixed up. For his feelings to not be genuine or, his own.  When her focus finally lands on his face, she finds the shape of lower lashes hidden behind green tint. There’s a little relief given when he starts to talk. And she’s almost thankful that they’re both so good at simply avoiding topics altogether.  “ Oh, ”   Try not to sound too disappointed why don’t you?   “ Oh, uhm, just, that they’re here, and I wanted to look into what new tech they had.. for you. “   A pause is given, and she quickly releases her hold on his shoulder.  “ -- In a professional sense. It would be good to have other options, or better retrieval systems in place for your blades.” Hair is carefully tucked behind her ear, and despite her momentary awkward release, her hand then takes his. Because she can’t stand to let him just keep stewing about what if ‘s so she’s going to quite literally have to drag him out of his own brain. Which is already difficult enough.  “ I know this isn’t quite your scene, but... “   The gesture is given towards the area they’d traversed quite a ways into. Ignoring small talk attempts. Specifically just to offer him up to the weapon trials & obstacle courses.  “ this might be. “

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agentsixs​:

He can’t help but grin himself when she laughs, especially with her little snort. Of course he doesn’t know what’s going on with the science of most of this, but it’s good that it makes her happy. 

“I’d like that.” He felt that he could risk being a little softer around her here. There wasn’t anyone they knew around, and they weren’t in any immediate danger. Though getting to hear something that he was familiar with did put him at ease. It would also be interesting to meet the people who worked hard to make a weapon as efficient as his own. 

At the question at if he’s ever had a me day, he thought hard on it. Trying to place a single day, any day that he had spent for himself. Though the knew better. He was sure that even without some of his memories that he hasn’t taken a day like that in an extremely long time. Not even when he was with One. 

“It’s been a while.” He hopes by being vague it won’t sound as bad as it actually was. Though, with her, she’ll know. She seems to somehow always know with him. Likely due to the greater amount of time she’s spent with him than he can even remember. 

“Today’s about you doctor. You deserve it after everything you’ve done for us.” He wants more than anything to pull the conversation away from him. His past, even with the parts he can’t remember, is something he’d rather not talk about. He’d much rather learn about quantum…. whatever it was. 

“ us. that’s nice to hear. “  she replies a little too softly, caught on the emotion it brought, hair is pushed behind her ear. she doesn’t really focus on him, can’t bring herself to look him in the eye now, so she looks to the floor, and to other areas of the exhibit while holding her thoughts.

“ a while, isn’t unexpected from you though. “ being vague was always enough with him. and holiday isn’t one to really press the matter. she knows better, the phrasing and catch on certain words, inclinations, it meant he didn’t remember. another thing that pulls at heartstrings and makes her bite at her bottom lip slightly. all the work and research she’s done for them, it’s never going to be enough to fix everything that’s happened. no matter how badly she wants to remove the bad things. returning six’s memories, meant, everything. the good, and the bad. and while, it’s what he’d want before. now. . . well now she’s not certain. what if it’s just what SHE wanted to think he would want. and what if it changes everything again ? “ saito. “   she starts, lips pursed as arms fold awkwardly across chest. “ the whole point of you, coming with me, was to spend time with me. . this isn’t anything but a leisure trip. so. . . you, well you should treat it like one too. “ 

it’s left at that for a moment, energy gathered enough to stare up at him. she kind of hates how hard it is to see behind the tint of his lenses. especially when he has to look down and she can’t read his micro expressions under the shadows. she huffs, a little exhale that shifts her stance to be a bit more relaxed, releasing tension she’d been holding for a few hours now. 

 “ think of it, as we time. “

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@evoheal & @agentsixs ( she’s regretting not having a third cup of coffee )

hand moves to the side of her head, the throbbing will ebb away, and she’s faintly dizzy. way to go genius, let’s just knock those braincells out. she doesn’t have anyone to help her up, only two people she’d literally take a bullet for immediately beating the absolute bastard hell out of the evo that hurt her.

ah, her boys.    “  rex ? -- how are the nanites looking in there, can this thing be cured, or are we looking at containment ? “  the buzz of her earpiece tells her he’s fine, but the ringing makes it difficult to hear, in fact, they all look a little rough. she moves, finally, groaning and beginning a small jog over to the abandoned providence vehicle. “ what ? they’re not using it. “ comes her response over to six, who really, she just doesn’t have time for the questioning eyebrows over making sure rex doesn’t get slam dunked fourteen stories down into pavement.

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holiday walking in with like 6 new robot kids under her arms: six: what do you have all of them & holiday: a smoothie

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@sympnrx​ ( starter call )

“ don’t do that ! “ the concern is laced with visible aggression, and she all but sprints to the other, hands deftly scan keycard, and she goes to work sliding screens around, inputting what she needs to to stop the machine as it starts up. 

 “ it lets off an electromagnetic pulse at enough hertz to absolutely fry anyone with so much as a wrist watch on. . ESPECIALLY if you bust it, or just try to break into it, this entire site functions off of biometric scans, a stupid, idiotic idea, that would kill anyone stationed out here if something bad happened, but considering it’s used for really specif-- “ she cuts herself off, sighing softly to the teenager.  “ that was, a really bad start. “ another pause, eyes offering a kinder approach.  “ are you okay ? are you hurt ? -- my name is Doctor Holiday, I can do what I can to help if you need anything, okay ? “

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@xj-nine​ ( starter call )

“ you know, you’re really a super cool kid. . I can see who rex likes you, and i know - i know - kid thing probably sounds condescending, absolutely isn’t i promise. “ her smile doesn’t leave her face and she offers a little laugh as she further explains herself.  

“ i’m just SUPER old, especially if you ask any of the other kids that hang around here. “

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agentsixs​:

@doctorholidays liked for a starter!

It was for protection. And well, one other thing, but most things that Six felt and thought were on a need to know basis. No one needed to know. 

He arrived with Holiday to a science expo. He and her were essentially there to do whatever they pleased, but he still couldn’t help but treat this as a job. He kept his posture straight, keeping his eye out for anything that might be out of the ordinary, though he can’t seem but to help but just a few moments to look over at Holiday, he can only wonder what was going through her mind, and how well her three phds were helping her understand all of this. This wasn’t exactly in his field of expertise. 

Outside of her safety, he just hoped she was well, enjoying herself. Eventually he does decide to speak, if nothing else it was mostly to start some kind of conversation with her. 

“See anything… interesting?” 

there’s an unceremonious snort given, which really just causes her to start laughing more, she turns closer to him, hiding herself a bit from outside view as she does so. she’s not sure why it was so funny, probably something to do with the fact she’s looking over data statistics and he just has no clue what’s happening. but he’d insisted on coming, and drove them here. 

“ if you’re really interested i could go over everything with you, in a - in the least science-y way possible. . “ she’s doing her best to imitate rex, posture similar to his as she says the later part of the statement. it’s nice, regardless, to have him initiating things again. 

“ they do have some things on magnetism I was hoping to look into, the same people that helped create the patent for your blades. “  she does sound excited about it, about everything really, maybe it was more that she wasn’t being approached by anyone. a new haircut, someone with her. she felt a lot better, now that she thinks about it. though, she did like going to aquariums with rex and bev, if only because they ALL made faces into the glass.  “ when’s the last time you ever had a ‘me’ day ? “

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agentsixs​:

“It can wait.” In all honesty, Six would prefer to help her out with what she needed before he even touched any issue that he kept bottled up. To him, her and Rex came before anything else, no matter what it was. He places a hand on her shoulder, it was something that was both, odd to him but at the same time, it felt familiar somehow. He squeezes it slightly, forcing himself to push through that feeling and help her first. 

“Let’s get you out of the lab. Get something to drink maybe.” He hopeed that will help her ease her anxieties a bit. He crosses his arms, gripping his left arm with his left hand. His worry for her mixed with his own recent, and annoying swirl of anxiety welling up inside him. He wondered if his old self would have done better. If he would have said something different, maybe something more comforting? 

Damn it. 

There wasn’t any need to be worried about it. Holiday needed him right now, and that’s what he should be focused on. Focus Six. It was enough to him to ease the grip on his arm. The movement is barely noticeable, if at all. He just hopes it stays unnoticed. He just wanted to focus on her right now. Nothing else. Nothing else came before that. He just wished he knew what was going on inside of her head. 

oh, she can’t stand when he does that. the ‘it can wait’ she wants to fuss at him, to go off on a rant about how dumb it is that he can’t just tell her, when nothing else in their life never waits. but maybe she just hopes, it’s something about his memory, about his feelings. the hopeless romantic, hopelessly stuck on him, and she thinks, she will be forever. 

when HE suggests the drinks, her pulse rapidly rises, and she has to cover her watch with her hand, so it hopefully doesn’t start alerting him to the fact. “ oh, uhm, y-yes? “ a pause. “ sorry that sounds like i don’t want to go. . . meet me in the hangar in 10 minutes? so i can change. “ she assures him. it would take her half the time to throw something else on, but it would also let her catch her bearings, and steel herself for whatever else he wanted to talk about. that seemingly could wait.

“ sorry -- i was just, surprised. pleasantly so. nothing bad, i promise. “ of all the times to be telepathic, this conversation in her head rapid fire going from anxiety to rational thought would be the worst. it’s quick, and she doesn’t register that she’s done it, but she leans up, and places a kiss on his cheek, hand gripping to his crossed arms as she runs past him. she’s too focused on leaving, on not being here, and being somewhere, A N Y W H E R E , else with six.

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GOOD ANOTHER THING,

I write it so holiday CAN cook

she absolutely doesn’t join up with neo providence, she’s allotted far more funding on her own grounds. And travels to instruct others of what she knows to share it and help this shit from never happening again

She stays in contact with Rex at all times, that’s her son boy, she loves him more than anything, and would kill someone to protect him even years later

she supports him in whatever he’s up to, and will meme with him

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doctorholidays​:

starter call ?

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Six absolutely refusing to admit he’s pinning for Holiday after memory loss, because it never feels like a good enough time

vs.

Holiday refusing to admit how she feels because she doesn’t want to project her feelings onto him

Fight

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sometimes what fucks me up is thinking about the episodes where Beverly is at risk, Holiday willingly risks everything, and then turns around and does the same thing for Rex.

She’s always really conflicted when the choice is forced to be made, but she also justifies it by thinking Six will make the right calls to protect and help Rex, and that they’re just going to have to understand.

I think she also pretty much raised bev and that’s why she’s so desperate to get her sister back. I’m like. Kind of distraught Holiday got her sister and then we barely ever see her.

[drewsaturdays]

Worry about yourselves.

[rockingthegraveyard]

Break my stuff … and I will ruin you.

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i should also say HOLIDAY has a plethora of degrees the 3 PhD’s , at least 2 other Masters degrees, and she’s also an MD

I DO age her up a bit, she’s in her early to mid 40′s towards the end of genrex,  but her degrees are in:  BioChem, Genetics, and Molecular Biology.  She is also a studied Historian, and Geologist in her free time. 

THOUGH her favorite things are marine life, obsessed with fish