DON'T LEAVE . . . I CAN'T LET YOU.

IS YOUR LIFE REAL — OR JUST PRETEND?

[dollsolace]

#DOLLSOLACE. A PRIVATE, SELECTIVE AND MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE ROLEPLAY BLOG FEATURING LORD DONNA BENEVIENTO. CANON DIVERGENT AND HEAVILY HEADCANON DRIVEN. WILL CONTAIN POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING TOPICS. OC &&. CROSSOVER FRIENDLY. -- MUNNED BY CARCASS, IT/ITS, TWENTY3. PERSONAL BLOGS AND THOSE UNDER 20 DNI.

01. MUTUALS ONLY, HEAVILY SELECTIVE. I CURATE MY SPACE VERY HEAVILY, SO BLOGS I DON'T SEE MYSELF, OR DONNA, INTERACTING WITH WILL BE HARD-BLOCKED TO AVOID ANY CONFUSION THAT SOFT-BLOCKING MAY BRING. THIS IS NOT PERSONAL, PLEASE DO NOT TAKE OFFENCE AND PLEASE HARD-BLOCK ME IF YOU'D RATHER ME NOT FOLLOW AS I HAVE INCREDIBLY POOR MEMORY AND MAY MISTAKENLY REFOLLOW. CURATE YOUR SPACE HOW YOU SEE FIT.

02. DO NOT FOLLOW IF YOU'RE BELOW THE AGE OF 20. DON'T BE A SHITTY PERSON. DNI IF YOU'RE RACIST, HOMOPHOBIC, TRANSPHOBIC, A ZIONIST, ANTISEMITIC, TRUMP SUPPORTER YOU GET THE GIST. I DON'T CARE FOR PETTY DRAMA THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. IF I'M INTERACTING WITH A GENUINELY HARMFUL PERSON PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

03. PRETTY LOW EFFORT. I DON'T REALLY BOTHER WITH ICONS OR FORMATTING BUT OF COURSE I DON'T CARE HOW YOU DO YOUR THING! PRIMARILY WRITTEN IN THIRD PERSON WITH THE OCCASIONAL SECOND PERSON THREAD. FORMATTING TENDS TO BE LIMITED TO BOLD / ITALICS AND THAT'S ABOUT IT.

04. SPORADIC ACTIVITY. THIS IS A HOBBY AND NOT A JOB. THE MOTIVATION TO WRITE COMES AND GOES, AND SOMETIMES I CAN WORK AT A SNAILS PACE, SO PLEASE DON'T PROD FOR REPLIES OR STARTERS. HOWEVER, I AM ALWAYS OPEN FOR PLOTTING THROUGH IMS. WILL GIVE OUT DISCORD SPARINGLY FOR THE TIME BEING. I STRUGGLE A LOT WITH OOC INTERACTIONS THAT DON'T PERTAIN TO PLOTTING OR ANYTHING RELATING TO OUR MUSES, SO FORGIVE ME FOR ANY INITIAL AWKWARDNESS!

05. HEAVY TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR VIOLENCE, GORE, DEATH, DOLLS, HALLUCINATIONS, PARASITES, SUICIDAL IDEATIONS AND OTHER THEMES THAT REVOLVE AROUND RESIDENT EVIL AND DONNA SPECIFICALLY. IF YOU NEED ANYTHING TAGGING, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! TRIGGERS WILL BE LISTED AS ' / TRIGGER TW '

BLOGROLL; FRANK + JILL + EMILY

[kosmogrl]

who am I without my out of the blue daily breakdowns

[starfellsins]

dry humping during causal conversation but the convo gradually fizzles out because you both are getting close and desperate

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝟐 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  dialogue prompts taken from the silent hill 2 remake, developed by bloober team. trigger warning for dark themes. feel free to change as you seem fit. )

❛ in my restless dreams, i see that town. ❜

❛ hey, it's okay. i didn't mean to scare you. ❜

❛ i'm kind of lost. ❜

❛ i guess i don't really care if it's dangerous or not. i'm going either way. ❜

❛ what happened to this town? ❜

❛ whatever it is, it's not human. ❜

❛ i didn't do anything! he was like that when i got here. ❜

❛ you wanna come with? maybe together we can find a way out of this town. ❜

❛ sorry, but i can't leave. not yet. ❜

❛ are you afraid? ❜

❛ did you find the person that you were looking for? ❜

❛ don't worry, i'm not crazy. least, i don't think so. ❜

❛ should i go with you? this town really is dangerous. ❜

❛ what's a big dumb-dumb like you doing here anyway? ❜

❛ hey, that's not very nice. didn't your parents teach you any manners? ❜

❛ do i look like your girlfriend? ❜

❛ i can't believe it. your face, your voice... you could be— ❜

❛ i don't look like a ghost, do i? see? warm. ❜

❛ i can show you if you want. unless you have somewhere else to be? something else to do? ❜

❛ hey, easy there. i'm just messing with you. ❜

❛ you're coming with me? can't you just tell me where it is? ❜

❛ what, you were just gonna leave me here? alone? with all these monsters around? ❜

❛ is it because i remind you of... her? ❜

❛ this place we're going to, what is it, exactly? ❜

❛ you ever stay in a place like this? the walls are so thin you can hear everything. love, hate, jealousy... ❜

❛ i think you just saved my life back there. ❜

❛ hey. you think i'd look good in this one? ❜

❛ this room... there's something wrong with it. i think we should leave. ❜

❛ oh, loosen up. it sure beats running around with those monsters out there. ❜

❛ what will you tell her if... when you find her? ❜

❛ oh, c'mon. don't give me that look. i was just kidding. ❜

❛ can we stay? just for a little while? ❜

❛ this place, this whole thing, it's like a nightmare. i just wanted to get away from it, even for a second. ❜

❛ here. something to take the edge off. ❜

❛ we should probably get going. ❜

❛ we could come back later, if you want. you know, in case we need a break. ❜

❛ i wanted to ask you... what if you can't find [ name ]? what will you do? ❜

❛ thanks for checking up on me. it's very sweet of you. ❜

❛ how do you know my name? ❜

❛ i'm sorry, but i can't let you just run around this place. you might get hurt. ❜

❛ please open the door. there's something in here. ❜

❛ i was almost killed back there! i've never been so scared in my whole life! ❜

❛ all you care about is that dead wife of yours. ❜

❛ you couldn't care less about me, could you? ❜

❛ stay with me. don't leave me alone again. you're supposed to take care of me. ❜

❛ i don't know, for some reason i feel like it's up to me to protect her. ❜

❛ well, whaddaya know... a stroll in the rain. how romantic. ❜

❛ i'm trying to keep things light. just humor me, okay? ❜

❛ you think you could give me a hand? ❜

❛ you're supposed to be the big man around here. how's a little girl like me supposed to help? ❜

❛ what's wrong? i thought you wanted to get out of here. ❜

❛ this place is different from what i remember. i guess... things never really stay the same, do they? ❜

❛ you... still don't want me to go with you? if we stick together, we just might make it out of here. ❜

❛ ain't no big deal. just put the gun to their head and... pow! ❜

❛ you can't just kill someone 'cause of the way they looked at you. ❜

❛ please. i'll be good. i promise. ❜

❛ it's always the same with you. you're only after one thing. ❜

❛ i don't know who you think i am, but i don't want to hurt you. ❜

❛ i thought that thing killed you...! are you hurt? ❜

❛ but that thing... it stabbed you. there was blood everywhere. ❜

❛ stabbed me? what do you mean? ❜

❛ honey... did something happen to you? ❜

❛ are you confusing me with someone else? ❜

❛ you said you took everything. but you forgot the videotape we made. ❜

❛ it doesn't matter who i am. i'm here for you. ❜

❛ see? i'm real. ❜

❛ don't you want to touch me? ❜

❛ i'll come back, i promise. ❜

❛ how many times do i have to kill you? ❜

❛ it doesn't matter if you're smart, dumb, ugly, pretty... it's all the same once you're dead! ❜

❛ you wanna talk down to me some more? tell me to relax? ❜

❛ you know i'll find you! ❜

❛ guess i deserved it, huh? the fartface that i am. ❜

❛ you got any other things planned? i think i saw a dark room back there you could lock me up in. ❜

❛ where are you? i'm waiting for you. please, come to me. ❜

❛ i think you were right. what we're looking for... it's not here. ❜

❛ thank you for helping me earlier... but i wish you hadn't. ❜

❛ i know what you are. i know why i needed you. but it's all over now. i don't need you anymore. ❜

❛ it'd be easier if they just killed me. ❜

❛ why are you still here? i told you to go. ❜

❛ wait! please don't go. don't leave me alone. i didn't mean what i said. ❜

❛ please... tell me i'll be okay. ❜

❛ i'm here for you. so what if i'm not her? ❜

❛ i can give you what she never could. i can be better than her. ❜

❛ what else do you want me to be? ❜

❛ i won't let you do this to me. i won't let you go. ❜

❛ the truth is, i hated you. ❜

❛ i wanted my life back. ❜

❛ i tried. i really did. but... i just... can't go on without you. ❜

❛ i can't forgive myself for what i've done. ❜

❛ i want you to go on. i want you to live. for yourself and for others. ❜

❛ you made me happy. ❜

[dollsolace]

donna beneviento <3

[kosmogrl]

you might be awkward but I can be awkward in a far deeper and more humiliating way than you ever will

[dollsolace]

now who's going to get freaky with donna

[gouged-doll]

liminal.bloom

[dollsolace]

donna will always be the little sister to me. the one who followed claudia around like she was her second shadow. who would not leave the house/go off the estate grounds unless claudia was also going. whose fear of the outside world always seemed that little less prevalent whenever claudia promised that she'd always protect donna no matter what.

and claudia who always gave donna the time of day no matter what she was doing. who helped her to be mischievous in ways that suited her more anxious and isolated behaviour. who snuck her extra cookies from the kitchen when the staff weren't looking and told her she was the most beautiful girl regardless of the scars donna thought made her grotesque.

claudia was the heart and soul of the beneviento family and when she died everything else withered alongside her. the house, the world, became cold and everything lost its colour. donna felt it, the staff felt it, her parents felt it especially. she was a lovely young lady and her parents, even despite still having a daughter, could never get over her death.

and i think part of donna hates them for it. she understands to some extent because the very same thoughts crossed her own mind, but she couldn't do that to her parents. she couldn't make them suffer through the deaths of both their daughters. but she wasn't afforded that same kindness. she lost her whole family in a matter of months. she wonders constantly why she wasn't good enough for her parents to continue living for. she'd never sensed any favouritism from them, but she can't help but dwell on it after their deaths. were they embarrassed of her because of her scars? was it because she was too much of a handful with all her 'issues'? was she too difficult a daughter that living and continuing to love her seemed too awful a prospect?

[gouged-doll]

paula josa-jones

[dollsolace]

always thinking abt auntie donna spending the winter making the dimitrescu girls new clothes so they can visit and get them when summer rolls around

[dollsolace]

#DOLLSOLACE! 【 DON'T LEAVE . . . I CAN'T LET YOU. 】 A SELECTIVE, HEADCANON DRIVEN INTERPRETATION OF RE: 8'S DONNA BENEVIENTO!

[gouged-doll]

tari nakagawa art doll - details

[dollsolace]

so i was looking to see if the name beneviento had any specific connections etc to italy and i found that there's a city named benevento that was, and still is, known as the city of witches. for a period during the roman times, the cult of isis was situated in benevento. this cult worshipped a triage of gods.

one of these was isis, an egyptian goddess. while there are many things she's associated with, two of the main ones i've found are the moon and mourning. the moon ties in with the half sun, half moon motif donna has going on with the symbol of house beneviento. the mourning, i think, could tie in with how the gods searched for pieces of osiris' body to reassemble him - which could tie in with donna using dolls as an attempt to reassemble the family she lost. when it comes to beliefs of the afterlife, isis also helped to restore the souls of the deceased so that they became whole once more - potentially another nod to donna trying to make her family whole again through the use of dolls.

the next god is diana, the roman goddess of the hunt and more importantly the moon, who's symbol is often a crescent moon like the one for the beneviento's. she's also tied in with childbirth, which (a stretch) i think could have some relation to miranda effectively trying to rebirth her daughter into rose. diana also turns darkness into light (dies) - which could be donna's death and ethan being one step closer to getting rose back...

diana was also known as a 'frame god.' to make it a lot shorter, these gods kept the original features of celestial divinities - such as transcendent heavenly abilities (the cadou) and abstention from direct rule in worldly matters (donna tends not to care much for 'ruling' over the village, like how alcina does). frame gods didn't share the fate of other, lesser gods who became gods without a practical purpose (the failed experiments - lycans and moroaică etc, where they didn't bond with the cadou and therefore became useless).

on another note, diana also preferred to dwell atop high mountains which reflected the heavenly world and it's sovereignty, supremacy and indifference towards matters that pertain to the fates of mortals - which could nod towards how the lord's were 'better' than the villagers because of the gifts given to them by miranda and how they didn't really care for the villagers. though diana was also seen as being active in ensuring the succession of kings and the preservation of humankind through being the protector of childbirth. another nod towards her being a protector of one of rose's flasks, perchance.... which would then be used in the ritual to rebirth eva.

and the last is hecate, the greek goddess often associated with witchcraft (and the moon!!), and i think a lot of the villagers believed donna herself to be a witch - considering those that went to her never returned. the witches in benevento were referred to as janara, and it was believed these witches were solitary with somewhat aggressive personalities. which, with donna's self imposed isolation and the aggression displayed through angie, fits quite nicely. religion depicted the janara as women who made a pact with the devil and, miranda being revered as a kind of god by the villagers, fits with the dynamic between her and donna. as donna chose to become her 'child,' accepted the 'gift' given to her, and now serves under her.

some further notes that i think fit! hecate, as a goddess, was expected to avert harmful or destructive spirits that threatened either a household or city over which she stood guard, and to protect an individual as they passed through dangerous liminal spaces. hecate could stand either at the main road that enters a city, or before a private household to protect the inhabitants - such as rose being separated into four separate flasks, one being in the estate. she is also heavily associated with keys, and the flasks are the keys to altar - alongside rose being the key to bringing back eva.

hecate is alsoooo very closely associated with plants and herbalism. wow you know who else is? that's right it's donna! which is a whole post in itself about the belladonna in the vase at claudia's grave, amongst other things. she's said to favour offerings of garlic and, while donna isn't one for offerings, she has an abundance of it hung in the kitchen of the estate... potentially unrelated but it's really the only noticeable thing there.

[unii-outlawed]

[dollsolace]

now i'm not saying this was done on purpose... but i personally think the dolls are loosely fashioned after donna and claudia when they were younger. claudia with the bangs, donna with the veil. i had this hc before seeing the painting but, again probably sheer coincidence, i like to think their parents commissioned it 🙂‍↕️ they had one of donna too, veil and all as she refused to let the artist see her face, but she disposed of it quickly after they died

[dollsolace]

spent 90% of my day so far researching flora that would be specific to the village / where the estate is bc donna is a botanist and i need to know what her favourite flowers are and which ones she'd prefer to use for her own experiments and i'm TIRED