hiii morning 🩵 i do wanna clarify that i write helena often through the lens of her having cptsd alongside grief, and her consciousness of boundaries + her having a dull or flat affect correlate to that. she's also just a sarcastic asshole & laid-back baddie & an exhausted working adult in general, and she's in therapy, so her depression being managed makes her appear more calm and nonchalant 🤷♀️ she mainly experiences emotional intensity in the negative side under certain contexts and stress 🙂↕️ hope this sheds some light on my portrayal of her a little
FIVE SONGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE FOR YOU MUSE.
01. LOOKING DOWN THE BARREL OF TODAY BY HATEBREED. once had a shotgun to my head they said i wasn't worth the bullets / now the world is my trigger and i'm here to fucking pull it / came from the gutter, just missed the grave / start from nothing, stop at nothing hellbent / never put myself in that position again.
02. ONE FINGER AND A FIST BY DROWNING POOL. i'll claw my way out of any situation / i'll fight my way out of any confrontation / you're not the first one, won't be the last / you go against me you'll always lose / i'm a hardcore son of a bitch you know i'm hardcore
03. NIHILUS BY CARCOSA. forged by the shadows in the depths of the core / i am the figure in black that you've come to abhor / my presence is felt, my voice will be heard / this is what i am and all will come to learn that / told how to live how to feel / i'm the beginning and the end / now it's time to meet your fucking maker.
04. HOUSE OF FUN BY MADNESS. less lyric based inspiration and more vibe based - a lot of older uk pop/ska/rock bands give old man vibes and given he is an old man....
05. CAN'T STAND LOSING YOU BY THE POLICE. also vibe based. given the years simon grew up in i think he'd be a listener of older british rock bands (the police, pink floyd, queen, black sabbath, the clash, status quo etc) so they help to get in the writing mindset for him.
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𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐚 𝐦𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐬,
this handsome son of a gun is 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 back and better than ever. august has been a shitshow and september's packed to the brim, but we got a few exciting news here (apart from going on semi hiatus and coming back with a husband i gotta deal with now????? ):
𝐀) i quit my job ! okay, okay, i didn't quit my job yet (that's on thursday, y'all are invited for drinks after that), but we out here and living our best life and ain't gonna work ourselves to death here. my recent inactivity and semi hiatus was mostly due to working a liiiiittle too much and loosing myself in the process of it. i got one helluva job offer, starting next year, which means i have four months left at my current job. now you may ask yourself why i'm telling you all of this, but fear not, here i am putting things into perspective. my job has been draining me for the past months, my stress levels have been through the roof, which took its toll on my creativity. since i'll still work at the same job for the next four months, full blown texts on google docs will be on an hiatus until then. i am sorry for all of you who have been waiting for replies, but i'm downright stressed to the max. 𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 . .
𝐁) i still want to write something. frankly, it's been keeping me somewhat sane, ngl. i've assembled this beautiful queue for you guys, including some memes. my inbox is open for all mutuals, send in as many as you like (if you like that is). that being said: i'll try to focus a little more on the writing part and a little less on extensive DMs. i love being tipsy and philosophical with you guys, but i've written my fair share of 3k answers in DMs alone and that's quite an endavour. i want my DMs to be a little more casual, i wanna check in with you guys and still be tipsy and philosophical with you, just– keeping it a little shorter. if you send something in, i'll get around answering somewhen next week, because . . .
𝐂) my weekend's packed and we got this big job thingy next wednesday, which means overtime and being creatively drained. hence the "𝐢'𝐦 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤". frankly, my entire september's packed, too, but i'll try to pop in more regularly. however, i'm looking forward to getting back in touch with y'all. flood my DMs with loveletters and how you've been. i hope you had a great august, i'm sending y'all strawberry cake, ice cream, love, summer rolls, iced coffee, hugs and moments that feel like colorful showers of spring blossoms. i missed you guys!
𝐃) (bonus fact:) my carrd's currently under construction. i wanted to come back with this big bang and given all the fun things i have planned, i need some time for that. but the second it's up again, you'll hear it here first, pinky promise! much love. thank you for reading and... uh... you now have a special place in my heart.
𝐓𝐋;𝐃𝐑 ⸻ novels are currently on hold. however i'll reblog some memes soon, feel free to interact if we're mutuals. i'll start answering everything next week, still being rather low activity. much love to y'all. carrd's under construction.
